i still luurve yew.

tears shed. all becus of someone else. ahhh crapp.
heyy gurlfwen. stand upp strong yeah.(: i know yur one strong gurl. yeahhs still luurve yew eh.no doubt. its through these nasty obstacles along tha wayy that make friendships stronger aint it? silly gurl. yur being missed.(: MISS yew ehh gurlfwen.

anyhows.tha past entry was nth. ignore it ppl.

wells jus two days backk. we had chilling out session at van's. ohh my dear gurl was soo nice cus she supplied all tha drinks and stuff. who could be more generous than that eh? -winks. her chilling room was was PWEETAYE. tha colours and tha music was jus good enough ta make yew wanta STAY there and nort move a bit.hehs. wells tha gurls kinda gort outta tha room and headed towards van's crib cus we didnt wanta drink. ahh wells. we had our lil girly sessions and all. thats what i call MILK outing eh.(: jus slacking and doing practicaly nth.

soon after. all started oinking other than enn,me and dino. WAHAHA boy am i proud.=D i was still jumping about cracking jokes when ppl started waking up. ohh my. left for home at about 7 plus and -poofs off ta bedd i go.(:

THA family: thanks for that loevly day yea. i very much enjoyed myself.(: wanna have moree chilling out sesssions eh! luurves.

milkies:heyy. what more can i sayy?i luurve yew gurls. thanks and MILLIONS of them yea. yew've been awesome and nothing else can seriously rawk my lil world.

gurlfwen:heyy babe. know yew have attachment and all. hope yur taking good care of yurself. and heyy doo enjoy yurself yea? yur miss'd by every single one of us. <33

yew:yew know what i wanna sayy. yeaps. take care yeaa.-hugs.

lorryloads of LURVE,
cwystal

yew make me mad.

i came ta realisation that my stupid childish thinking that at least there are people who go for character and nort just looks. pweetaye much so. i was proven wrong. freakkks. i hate yew. dont ask me who. anyhows. yeap found out some stuffs which i shldnt have huhh. dont ask. thanks. wells. hope yew had FUN that day. if friendship's all about hiding one corner and afraid of letting yur budds know. i;'d rather we nort be friends. yeahhs. YEW. am pweetaye hurt. cwystal dislikes people who keep lying ta her. gawd. fine if yew dont mean anything ta her. but if yew do mean ALOT its soo gonna hurt yea. yeaps. anyhows ta YEW: aint sure if i saww tha wrong thang or read tha wrong thang. but i think i know what had happened.unless i came ta tha wrong conclusion. no use covering dearie. yeaps. TATAA.

ps:dont ask me about this entry. jus wanting ta let out my frustrations.

dont leave.

my mind went blank for that moment.
that moment i was told yew were leaving.
nort sure whyie's this happening.
but i was pweetaye sure it didnt feel good.
i gort mself ta settle down for awhile
and flashes of us jus went past.
tha tears and laughters.
yew were leaving ta somewhere far.
through tha months we had.
i've never regretted.
though our hearts cant be one.
but just wanna thank yew for tha lovely times we had.
im nort attached neither am i in lurve with someone else.
jus that tha silly yew cant get it right.
im still right here for yew ta capture me.
all along i was here.
jus that yew cant see me or maybe i've ben hiding too well ta let yew feel me.
now that i know that everythang's coming ta an end.
with yew leaving.
i shall tell yew.
i still do feel and yearn for those times we once had.

**take care when yur gone. yeaps. new environment new people. gotta stay strong yea. 'misses. urms. ask leon what we've chatted about ytd.


that lil gurl who once said shes shifted is still there waiting for her lil pwince.(:,
cwystal.

surprises no more.(:

URGH. cwystal's typing this once more. after tha whole thang went bank when i was done with it. sobs.

wells.all everyone had read my previous entry,i was indeed depressed and all. cus it was like fwens are all mugging for exams,besties busy or cant go out. all tha lil excuses just started popping out. bahhs. yeaps

my dayy started like this.."heyy cwystal.im at yur house's doorstep". ohh my. i was like bathing and all larhs. hahs. though i was late or smth cus i was supposed ta meet enn for a movie at 3. yeahhs. enn stood at my doorstep with this really huge camping bag. she looked suuper cute eh. hahs(:

yeap she came in. put down her stuff and i dressed upp and all. being tha usual her, she landed herself on my bed and didnt move. LOL. peeego. when i was done and all, she made me plunge myself on tha bed and watch a slideshow on my lappy. alrighty. pics and words appeared. ohh my. pweetaye.(: memories and photos of all tha times we spent appeared. i was speechless eh. yeaps tears just started flowwing out. touched i must sayy. yeapps. darh then passed me this lil box containing this pair of really cute earrings. hahs. luurve them eh! -huugs.
okay enough said. was late for movie cus we left home at like 3.05 and tha movie was supposed ta start at 3? like OMG. whahaha walked under tha scorching sun with enn complaining of the heat. lols. how gu niang. =DD

anyhows enn made me buy kfc for lunchos whereas she "draw money". hahs. yeahh. told me ta wait for her outside kfc and i did. jus then, enn appeared with a HUGE sunflower in her hand. wahaha.(: howw sweet. hehs. surrprised i was. yeahh rushed up ta tha cinema.

hmmms, got in and made ourselves comfy. when i was all engrossed in tha show, enn suddenly popped a cake outta nowhere. seriously, i had no idea where it came from. gees. gurl. yur GOOD! -winks. hehs. tha candle jus lited up tha whole theatre and enn was like singing ta me tha bday song.softly.(:

hehs.thought tat was tha end of my surprise. narhs. -shakes head. that wasnt it. we then ended up at tha arcade. wahahha. YEAHH. tha arcade. a place where i've nort stepped into for decades. tha kid in us just appeared and boyy! we had loads of fun. just tha two of us.(:

yeaps. was supposed ta meet thai susu,gurlfwen,ed my bro and sa sa for dinner at essential brew at hollang v. ohh wells. yen and susu said they'd be late. so went ta essential brew firs. gort a place sat down. and took a quick glanced of tha whole area. omg larhs. tha atmosphere was soo pweetaye. with candles lited up and dimed lights. tha ideal place for chilling.(: wells sasa and me sat down while ed and enn went ta tha bathroom. minutes later, enn came out and pulled me into this dark room. lols. was like wondering what was she trying ta do. geees.

"SUURPRISSEEE.!!"balloons started flying and a candle lited up. people started singing tha bday song. the light came on and familiar faces appeared. my closest ones were all there.(: ohh my. tears started welling up my eyes and that lil thang in me jst started breaking down and i cried. yeahs. touched i was. all tha lil excuses they gave me for nort being able ta celebate with me were all lies. HAH! liars eh one by one.(: besties! were there. thought theyy really cldnt make it. almost died when they said they aint spending today with me. hehs.=x oops!

wells.we fooled around. monkeyed here and there. photos and photos taken. ohh my. iluurve all my fwens.(: called mummy up ta ask her ta come over ta foot tha bill cus i felt that i should give them a treat for all tha effort they have put in. but being tha silly me, i gave it all awayy. enn made tha move way before i could notice. DAMN! hmphf.

wells, timo,louis,jas,greg,shannon,drea,grace left earlier. yeahh and PART 2 started. wahhaha. daddy bought us lanterns and sparklers. ohh myy. howw adorable eh. we set off for a playground near holland v. played catching and blind mice till everyone was perspiring like cows. hahs.(:

off we left for home.

reached home and saww this beeeg teddy with a flower. hahs! mr shamfull gave me a surprise too.ohh my. thanks yeaa.(: sweet sweeet.

anyhows. special messages for tha special ones who have made footprints permanent in my life.

drea:.heyyy bestie. know that we're worlds apart. i still seee tha bond in us. that very fire which has never died from tha start. yeapps. yew've given me sucha huge surprise eh. thought yew were seriously mugging in sch. -GROWLS. wells thanks for everythang. for taking tha effort ta make today possible. yeaps. i luurve yew bestie. i really do.(: 6 years of our precious friendship can never be replaced. -huugs

grace:heyy bestie. yeaps. thanks eh for planning this with enn. yeahh. know i've caused major headaches ta tha both of yew. sorry eh. hahs. =x planning parties aint that easy afterall eh?(: thanks for todayy for everything. for tha thangs that yew've done for me. yeaps. though we dont spend as much time like during sec sch days. i still see that bond in us ever growing.(: luurve yew yea.

yanping:heyy thanks for all tha lil gifts yew've showered on me.realy appreciate those lil thoughts and concerns yea? from cough medicine ta chocs. yeahhs.(: thanks for todayy too. yeaps. for tha jigsaw which yew took hrs and hrs ta complete. yeeap. luurve it ta bits. THANKS.

milkies:heyy gurls, thanks for all tha beautiful memories yea. tha cranky times and silly moments. life in poly wldnt be soo easy and fun without yew gurls.(: from ta very day i met yew, i knew that somehow our friendship wld be soo true. tha lil something in us made it all soo special. perhaps it as fated that our paths wld cross. perhaps it was my blessing from god that i'd meet such precious angels like yew gurls.(: thanks for today thanks for everyday.(: -LUURVE
owh owhh!1 cant wait for camp! woohoo. hah

gurlfwen: heyy yen.thanks for cheering up my days with that silliness in yew. hahs.(: yeeaps. its really nice having someone soo similar in poly life.yeahh. luurve yew lorryloads gurlfwen. we'll go through all tgt yea? -cross fingers. luurve!

ta my ex sec sch mates like timooo,louis,greg,shannon,jas: heyy budds. 4 yrs of friendship actually led us ta where we are right now.(: yeaps know we dont spend time tgt often but its like each time we get tgt, there'll be endless num of topics ta talk about. thanks for coming down todayy. yeahh. was very VERY shocked ta see yew guys there.esp.jas. hehs. thanks for tha prezzie!! tha tee's uber cute and and and tha card! WAHAHAHA. scared tha shit outta me mann. sooooo hilarious larhs.(: luuurve. shall hang out soon k?

ta ed,kang,susu and gong:heyy.really gladd knowing yew guys and heyy bet we'll have greated fun as we get ta know each other better and with more outings.(: thanks for everythang. and ta ed,thai susu and kang, thanks for today and tha prezzie.(:

and ta tha one who made this happen. tha special one in my life...
MY DARH ENN: heyy gurl.thanks for today thanks for all tha beautiful memories. thanks for practically EVERYTHANG. yeaps. thoughts jus keep coming in but its soo wierd that it disappears when i wanna type them down. anyhows. thanks for taking tha effort ta take time off yur busy and hectic schedule jus ta plann my bday and all. am greatly touched.(: tha lil surprises; tha sunflower,tha earrings,tha cake,tha prezziestha HUGE surprise. ahhhh. am soo overwhelmed by tha luurve and efort yew've put in. it was a sucess gurl. yes it was.(: i enjoyed myself soo much and it has left an ENORMOUS impact in my life. thanks for everythang darh. for stepping into my life.perhaps this is all destined with god sending an angel like yew ta guide my way through life.im soo grateful ta have met yew and on tha 17th year of my life.(: special as it seems. yew'll always remain as someone special ta me.luurve yew darh. for who yew are and for all that yew've given me.(:

shamfull:heyy.thanks for tha prezzie yea? was surprised eh. HAHA.(: silly! wells. i know i know, i still owe yew a movie. hahs. shall see about that. wahaha =x -winks

ta all that i didnt mention: thanks for all tha bday blessings and wishes. be it LONG,short,tiny or beeeg, its tha thought that counts aint it? (:. thanks a million. luurve!

ta those who cldnt make it down today: heyy its alright yea? BUT YEW OWE ME100g of cookies. wahahha. kidding.(: yeaps

ta tha one who appeared at my doorstep at 12 midnight: hahs. thanks for tha icecream mooncake. yeap! was really surprised and touched.(: thanks yea.-huugs

friends come and go. but yeahhs im praying real hard that these friends that i have now will be kept safe in my heart and be by my side till i end this journey of life. hehs. silly as it sounds. i luurve all of yew and yeaps.dont try ta be nasty cus i'd take that nasti-ness off yew.(: throught my 17 years of life, i've been through soo much and during this time, friends were tha ones supporting me all. tha first time i cried in poly.friends were there.(: yeaps. thoughh there were bad and depressing times where i cldnt get someone off my mind and acted really cold towards yew guys. yew guys just stood by me and let me vent my frustrationd. thanks lovelies.(: much much appreciated eh.hehs

Just as a wave is lifted by the shore,

Then breaks across the slowly rising sand,

So as I watch you weep my feelings pour

Across the wash of what I understand.

I wish I could just take you in my arms

And all your pain could melt into my chest,

And all the violence of passing storms

Could pass through me and finally come to rest.

No words can set things right or presence lend

A miracle to light your darkened way,

But there is solace in a loving friend

And comfort in what I don't have to say.

Whatever circumstance you cannot bear,

Just turn to me, and you will find me there.

smiles that will never leave,

cwystal(:

4teen sept

wells.days hadnt been that good since tha exam fever visited me. yeahhs. everyone was practically mugging and there was hardly any time for tha usual hangouts.):

this birthday aint tha same like tha usual ones i had.no more bday celebrations with my besties. hais. i REALLY do yearn in having them back in my lives and spend almost all tha time i have with them. guess times do change huhh. i once thought bdays wld be more impt than anything else but it seems that, i am sooo naive. yeaps.

surprises i had.one from this person and another from next. HAHA. good planning huhh. thought my first year in poly wld make a beeeg diff on tha day of my bday but. HAHA. its diff but in another wayy. hais. i dont knoww.guess im just expecting too muchh.

should bdays even be celebrated?aint it supposed ta be like everyday's yur bday? AHHH fine. whats up tmr. i aint gort any idea. thought exam's over i'll be able ta rawk ta night out and partaye along with my buddies ta celebrate my bday. but tha others are equally busy and still mugging for their exams. cwystal HATES exams. sobs.

imiss those days. anyhows had loads of fun with timo,louis,cherisa todayy. hahs (: they were frigging hilarious larhs. sasa and her ostrich walks and timo and his cold jokes. mann. they realy made my day.

hmmms.this sets me back ta tha times i celebrated my bday. like in pri sch. its sucha irony that tha bday gurl's tha one giving out gifts to ppl and nort tha other way round. HAHA (: howw cute. perhaps its a tradition eh.=DD

then came sec schh life. HOHO. had cake fight in sec 2 and we were lke munkeys running all over. hahs. (: still rem louis and his toot haircut! LOL. wells sec 3 life came. cant quite rem and then sec 4. still can recall very clearly on howw i passed that very day. didnt celebrate it cus it fell during o's. gawdd. was like friggging sad pls. anyhows myy beloved besties came over ta my place and pop me with a surprise while i was slpping. ohh my. my unkempt hair and messy room. wells, bakes brownies as my cake and tha bag i had always wanted. (: almost wanted ta marry them instantly. HAHA.

todayy. mummy came home with a bouquet of sunflowers. yayy! my fav. mummy rawks. she ALWAYS knows what her daughter wants. -huuugs.luurve.

anyhows.cant wait for camp.yeaps.
<33,cwystal.

candy trails and choco dreams.

wellwell.
been ages i know.
decided ta have a quick one before im off writing myy script for tmr's speech.
anyhows. had high tea with bro and his gurl at marriot todayy. bet yew! it was totally gorgeous yummylicious. with butter pudding and all. what else can i ask for? (:

we took a walk ta wheelock with gigs all ovet town. ohh myy. hahs. took a look at tha crumpler lappy bags. kor wanted ta buy me one for my bday. howw nice. (: but too badd. tha colour i want is like out of stock. crapp.): anyhows dragged our tired feet to paragon. that was where i gort my topshop tee. HAHA. luurve my huniest bro ta bits. he gort me this striped puurple and orange top that i wanted. thanks yea?

anyhows. that was all. bro drove his gurl home. and i slept during tha whole hour journey but it wasnt as sweet as what yew think. yeaps. loads of thoughts jus swept through my mindd. i wanna bring back tha past.

yen: heyy babe. yeaps. i MISS yew a hell load know. yeaps. thats whyie i tagged yur blogg ta tell yew howw much yur being miss'd. hmmms.just wanna tel yew. this friendship will nort be one unless both make an effort ta keep it going yea? luurve luurve.<3>

ange: heyy darhlingg.thanks for everythingg. i dont know what more can i ask for. mann! yur like tha lil joker book in my life. ever ready ta explode me with jokes just ta crank me up. (: with yur ever soo bubbly and gregarious character. who wldnt be more glad ta just having to be with yew?. thanks for tha sweetest concerns and the lil naggings every older "sis" wld give. luurve luurve <3>

milkfactory products.: heyy gurls. thanks for bringing laughter into my life every single day yea. even on msn, it just seems that yew guys are just right here with me. HAHA. apart from tha suanning part! asswipe. i'll poke yew till yew get holes all over. -growls. hahaha. anyhows. yew've been simply awesome. ta ppl like van,ping,pweetaye coconut,siew,cyn,acie etc etc. LUURVE YEW EH. (: see yew at tha court! luurve.

tha lil boy across tha street:urms.theres so much ta sayy yets i dont know how i should go about it. anyhows take care.(:

Sorry I never told you

All I wanted to say

And now it's too late to hold you

'Cause you've flown away

So far away

Never had I imagined

Living without your smile

Feeling and knowing you hear me

It keeps me alive

Alive

And I know you're shining down on me

Like so many friends we've lost along the way

And I know eventually we'll be together

One sweet day

Darling, I never showed you

Assumed you'd always be there I took your presence for granted
');

But I've always cared

And I miss the love we shared

And I know you're shining down on me

Like so many friends we've lost along the way A

nd I know eventually we'll be together

One sweet day

Although the sun will never shine the same I

'll always look to a brighter day Lord

I know when I lay me down to sleep

You will always listen as I pray

And I know you're shining down on me

Like so many friends we've lost along the way

And I know eventually we'll be together

One sweet day

And I know you're shining down on me

Like so many friends we've lost along the way

And I know eventually we'll be together

One sweet day

Sorry I never told you

All I wanted to say

greatest hope was when i met yew,

cwystal.

where have yew been

i wanna know where have yew been.
i wanna share all tha times i had with yew.
take away tha cold war and make me feel tha warmth again.
where have all tha lurve gone.
where.
tha daily miss-s are just enough to fill an entire bucket.
where are yew luurve.

When the road gets dark
And you can no longer see
Just let my love throw a spark
And have a little faith in me
And when the tears you cry
Are all you can believe
Just give these loving arms a try
And have a little faith in me

When your secret heart
Cannot speak so easily
Come here darlin'
From a whisper start
To have a little faith in me
And when your back's against the wall
Just turn around and you will see
I will catch, I will catch your fall baby
Just have a little faith in me

where have yew beeen. missing yew. that empty heart of mine.

*and heyy gurlfwen, ignore what those dumbarses have tagged on yur board yea? cwystal's always there for yew when yew need ta pour things out. luurve.

splashes or strawberry kisses,
cwystal.

NAT.

its alright, i survived, im alive again
cus of you, made it through every storm
what is life, whats the use if youre killing time
im so glad i found an angel
someone
who was there when all my hopes fell
i wanna fly, looking in your eyes

bcus you live and breathe
bcus you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help me
bcus you live, girl
my world has twice as many stars in the sky
bcus you live, i live

bcus you live theres a reason why
i carry on when i lose the fight
i want to give you what youve given me always.


im sorry for everything.
after all this dumb cold war
you know
deep down my heart
i still love you. <3!!

wake me up from all these...

Flashes of tha past jus kept playing. its like nothing can ever replace tha awesome memories i had. tha wacky times i had with my besties jus sitting there and chatting about this and that. jus training together made my dayy.Gurls night out and stuff. tha times i had with xx and soo much more. i came to realization that no matter HOW happy how satisfied i am with my life noww, its sooo different from the life i had in tha past. its like howw do i put it? life's much complicated and SCHOOL's way beeger noww?. bond isnt as bonded as sec sch?. i miss everyone mann.

had besties outing todayy. like FINALLY. i had alotta fun with tha gurls. all tha stuupid photos we took at subway. cookies galare and soo much more. they jus reminise tha past. gees. i jus realised HOW MUCH I MISS THOSE GURLS. everyone's leading different lives noww. no more usual canteen and after school hang outs-NYDC. sobs. boyy!. that place brings back a hell lotta amazing memories. heyy asha.. do come backk as soon as possible yea?YEW are gonna owee me a bday date k. hehs. luurve yew DREA,ACIE and SHA.

heyy to my lovely vball mates-FAMILY TREE. yew guys have beeen truely wonderfully beautiful. thoughh 80% of the time was like used ta tease me and all. blehhs well, I"LL SEEK REVENGE k after i've taken classes on learning howta suan ppl. ahhs. (: thanks for al tha times. and heyy we'll have many more ta come yea? luuurve every single one of yew pls.

and to **. i aint gort any idea howta satisfy yew or make yew feel belonged. tha coldness between us just keeps piling. i miss those times we had. YES i do admit i've been neglecting yew a hell lot. im sorry alright. if yew think that putting this false front and a wall between us is gonna make it work out again. i dont know. it may nort. im happy yur having yur fun once again. yeaps. all i hafta say's that i MISS yew.

Once there was a man who had an orange shirt.

Once there was a girl who went out dancing in a skirt.

Once there was a park they found they fed the frantic ducks.

Once there was a couple, happy, who couldn't believe their luck.

Once they went out dancing, and a candled dinner date.

Once early in the morning she surrendered to her fate.

Once he said "I love you" and she had to love him too.

Once they had a future, happy when one and one made two.

Now they are both lonely, now they live alone.

Now he has a cold and empty (tidy) hollow home.

Now she has a fountain, tears where once there was a heart.

Now he has decided that they really have to part.

Now that he has nothing, he feels he is complete.

Now that she can't dance again, her heart weighs down her feet.

Now he thinks about her, all the memories locked away.

Now he tries so hard to forget the happy laughing days.

Is she thinking of him still?

Does she cry still, now and then?

Is she ever going to win back the man she loves again?

Is he glad it's over?

Can he get on with his life?

Is he really so very certain she would have made a useless wife?

Given all the laughter, fun and sunny times they had.

Given all the heartache, lies and times he made her mad.

Given all the tears now, the loneliness and pain.

Given all the risks, would she do it all again?

Can he really say that he won't want her back one day?

Can he really like his life now better in this way?

Can he forget her face, the mess, the giggles and the love?

Can he find someone else to love him more than she could love?

If she really loved him, he said she'd let him go.

If he understood her feelings then he would know that it's not so.

If he were less stubborn, if she could care much less.

If they had never spoken there wouldn't be this sorry mess.

But time has taken prisoners, their lives are now entwined.

But even if they never meet again, the past is not left behind.

But can she start all over?

Just forget him and move on?

But even if she can, will he be glad with what he's won?

Is that really what he wants, to never see her smiling face again?

Will it make him happy, will he live on without pain?

Will he be thinking of her, is he too proud to cry?

Will it wrench his heart in two if he sees her kiss another guy?

And can she forgive his faults, and accept him as he is.

She wants to have him back and say there's nothing to forgive.

He's told her that she's crazy, that he may never want her back.

She's told him that she loves him and though its a risk, she'll live with that.

She wants him to live with patience, to give him time to heal.

The past is not yet over and it's left a scar so real.

We don't choose who we can love, and love doesn't really die.

You can find it in your heart again, I love you, so please try...

fakes smiles,

crystal.nic

i'd walk a dozen miles...

these days were terrific. sun tanning,volleying, stay overs and stuff. yeaps. sometimes i do ponder upon how friendships started.
i've made realy wonderful budds.
a new found darhling ERN ERN.
and tha happy family tree. hahs.
these people really made my day though i was like tortured A HELL LOT by them. especially, farkang, ern and ping. gawdd.
they just find it soo entataining jus by tickling me.
FUN MEHS?
-glares.
goshh.
went gotham penthouse tha day before. and it was GAWDAMN crowded pls.
we waited and waited jus ta get inside and by tha time we were in, mood was no longer there anymore. geees.
=.= lil ern was like feeling pweetaye high before even reaching tha club but once we were like caught in the crowd.
POOOF! she woke up. wahaha. hilarious larhs.
shes uber cute i mus warn yew guys pls. (:

met dear JULS and cherm while i was at gotham. ahhs. and some stupid arse was like trying ta sell fake tix. police were called down and yeahs as usual... ALL the underaged ones panick'ed and started leaving tha area. lols. like wth. spoilt everyone's moood pls.

went for supper after that. laughed a hell lot with these people. (: had teochew porridge which never tasted sooo good before. hahs. thus, left for ping's house. played dai dee with fakang,ern and ping for like hours till ern started snoozing off leaving tha 3 of us stranded with tha deck of cards. played and PLAYED till i gort drowsy and ping started tickling me ta tha core. gosh. i almost woke tha whole house up with just me screams alone. HEEHEE. apologies!

yeahh. off ta sleep we went! woke upp late thoughh tha next day. heehee. was like supposed ta meet tha gang at harbourfront at 11. andy gort duped by us and ended up at sunset bay to volley with us. had loads of fun. gort tanned. yummy colour eh. (:

i lurve my life thoughh its been pweetaye bad in someways. lost sumone. nort as in REALLY lost but. aiyahh. he knows it. yeaps. hope things will get better yea? -huugs. hais.

and to my BELOVED FAMILY.
granddaddy,
my 2 susu(s)-uncles,
my daddy-andy,
my BROS-fakang,ed
my SISTUHS-ping,van,xiu
my GURLFWEN-yen,
my DARHLING-angie.

yeappps. yew guys rawk myy lil universe yea. THOUGHHH i still dont agree of me coming from india. HMPHF! -pouts.and that 'uncle' from thai.yew owe me a thai trip pls. wahhaa. =DD

luuurve yew people,
crystal.nic.

NAT.

my name is ______. [ fill in the blank ] and my girlfriend name is __________. [ you dont have to know ]

i just want to say.

mind your own business. okay, now bang your head against the wall and say im a dumb ass.

anyway, stop reading and click the ' x ' on your top right hand corner.

if you are swearing and cursing at me, please dont. im just a lil boy. hahaha.

BYE!

i so luurve volley.(:

HEYY once again after a beeeg blue moon. hehs.

jus felt like blogging all of tha sudden.wells while i was like "away", lotsa stuff happened. like went sentosa two days ago,played volley,baking under tha sun and kayaking. fun was all we had. went sentosa today again and GUESS WHAT? hahahha. we played volley matches from 1-7 continuosly larhs.

FWOAHH. cus we kinda kept winning so we kept staying on. coolbeans eh. luurve my beloved teamates, louis,yen my gurl,gu tha red ass,greg attapchee and two others aint from np,leon and jordan. ironic as it seems, i gort tanned and roasted despite tha cool breeze and sun-less. crapp.): i've gort that tee line now. argh.

ohh wells, break's gonna end soo soon. MONDAY-doom day and sch starts. wth. and yeaps. lotsa stuff's happened recently. aint gonna say but that person shld know what im talking abt. yeaps ): hais.

*imu.take care.


hiding beneath,
crystal.nic

pick me upp.

i've fallen once again.
cried my eyes till they swelled really badly and headd spinning like mad.
goshh. it was tha worst day of my life i reckon.
needed a shoulder ta cry on soooooo muchh.sumone ta hugg. hais.
slept at abt 4.30 thoughh. cried ta slpp.[its like WOWW? in my whole entire life? first time i cried till 4.30]
its jus too much for me ta take.


skipp'd lecture in tha morning. didnt have tha mood. went ta schh with swollen eyes. each time i see someone i know i'd jus start crying. -smacks crystal. this is bad. i know its gotta stopp.
my beautiful budds in schh kept reassuring me that everythang's gonna be alright but i know its gonna take lonng. i love those guys mann.i really do. thanks sweethearts.

deeeeply cut,
crystal.nic

tears

sobbing real bad right noww.
feeling myy heart sinkk each time my heart beats.
am i gonna move on?
those smiles on my face, are they for real?
deeep down inside im yearning for yew.
i admit i still do lurve yew but whyie am i behaving all differently and weird this time arnd.
i dunnoe. insecurity?toughness?bitchiness?
crapp.my eyes are swollen frm all tha crying.
gonna crash my bed now. will be in deep shit if daddy finds out im crying.-you

ps* <3 yen loads. thanks dear for trying all sorts of ways ta comfort me. ilu gurl! yeaps. my huneyypie.niteyy.

ALOHA fellow peego-ians.

wells.jus felt like blogging. so here i am. made lorryloads of goodfriends in NP. people like GU tha cow,phyoe,ron,teoxu,jamie,beaver my brother-cheehow,shush,yen my gurlfwen and many many many more.(: luurve them ta bits. they have been my reason ta survive in NP. yeaps.

had a really terrible day todayy.mugg-ed tha entire night ytd jus ta finish tha 1500 words essay agnes dieu gave. gawdd. it was terrifying jus looking at tha amt of words we had ta write. was late for schh today. reach'd schh with a totally messy hairdo,heavy eyebags and RED NOSE. can yew imagine?! someone with a really red nose walking arnd campus sneezing her head off. goshh. it was torturing.):

dear robert was soo funnny larhs when he saww me. he was like "ohh dear?! what happened ta yew? yew look terrible like some panda." like duuh. cldnt slp a wink last night. sorta cried and stuff. bahhhs. dont ask whyie cus im so nort gonna say.

wells.i dunnoe whyie im feeling tha blues and stuff right noww. wanting ta huug sumone soo badly. start tearing out of tha blue moon. tel me why this's happening?. bahhs.

-smacks crystal, tha past is tha past.
let bygones be bygones gurl.
yew know how tough it is ta move on but heyy,
try taking a step at tha time. it helps.

i hate it when i hafta lie that i've moved on.
cus in actual fact. i've nort.
tha tear drops i've wasted aint fake neither are they for show.
but heyy,give me time and i'll be able ta recver my soul.
take care my dear friend, for i give yew all tha wishes i could send.
although we aint tgt no longer, memories will always linger.
goodbye and farewell is what all i have ta say,
till we meet again, i will tryta get by day by day.

hey besties. had loads of fun with yew gurls todayy. thoughh its ben ages since we last met upp and chatted but i know that this friendship will nvr end. the way we giggled and laughed at each other jokes can never replace any other.thanks for suchha wonderful day with all tha gurl talks and gossipingg. iluuurve yew sweethearts.(: -drea and acie.


huneychocodreams,
cystal.nic

NP

GRRRRR. kenneth's LIKE glaring at tha lappy while i type THIS out? bahhhs

anyhows.had hopnight todayy. yummy (: fun pls.
my beloved spartan-ians and FOC buddies ate like loads of ice cream jus ta vote for me? sweethearts<3 larhs.

AHHHH. GU's turn ta glare now =.= -smacks
he's like soooo inta tha chicago bulls thang. gawdd. i'll prolly like charge towards him somedayy mann.

wells. back ta tha TOPIC.
went clubbing with peacock,puurple,alan,ben and and and kenneth.(: hoho. first clubbing session pls! HOHO. thought it was tha end mann when we had no choice but ta dance in indulge in techno? gosh. almost went mad. left tha place and went over ta tha next clubb.R&B. yummmmy. -LICKS. =DD

wells cheryl gort like drunk? bahhhs. bad bad. dont quite like tha idea of gurls getting drunk. hehs. kindaa nort very nice right? teeheees(:

OHHOHHH! guess where crystal's at noww eh? schooool!!! heeeees.lols. trying ta keeep myself awake.gu and neth's like entertaining me with their uhhhhhhs crappy stuff. yeahh. grrrr there goes gu again. disturbing meeee. BAHHHS.

anyhows.. had loads of fun todayy. xinyi my gurl-o fwen WON ms ngee ann pls. luurve yew babe!(:

gonna have breaaaakfast noww at kap. yayy!

<333,
crystal.nicolette

stitches

APOLOGIES peeego-s. (:

wels.alotta stuff have happened during tha period i was gone. been in MI for about 2 weeks. boyy.that sure was fun.tha precious fwens i've made. gawdd. no one can can can EVER replace them i reckon. they're tha precious lil treasures i was fated ta have.tha true bond we shared especially ms bean-stef,yogi bear-jul and sara-insanist. (: THEY are tha gurlies of my life. okok. TWO GURLS and one unsure shehim. =DD I MISSSSSSS THEM.hais

ohh dear.im soo roasted. anyhows. am like waiting for np ta start. geees. i cant wait pls. gonna check out tha babes and hunks. woohooo. HAHA (:

anyhows.my weeks are gonna be busy before school starts on 24th may. going for foc camp from like 3rd may-6th may. and then another camp(sports camp) from 9th may- 12th may. YUMMMY. we're soo gonna get dirty mann. crystal lurves camps.(: -though im certain im gonna miss someone. =/

im down with a really BAD cold.seems like mr illness doesnt like me TOALLY. bahhs. that sticky disgusting thang's stuck'd in my throat. nose's really irritating. save me from all these torment pls. ):

tha moment i let go, i knew i cld never turn back time.

upon reminising tha guud ol's times. i knew my life was gonna change.

heart shattered like umpteen times.wishin' yew'd be back ta mend it.

but as i stroll'd down tha streets one day.

i spotted a familiar face.

it was him. holding another.

i could see no longer. tha tears,anger,frustration.

memories jus came gushing back like tha speed of a cheetah cld go.

hands clutch'd onto my tearing face. wishin' for a warm lil hugg.

til this very day. im still waiting.

waiting for tha needle and thread.(:

peeeeeeeeeghuggs.
crystal.nicolette

NAT.

im blogging for crystal that lazy girl. anyway, thats not the point. shes enjoying her life now and she loves me. ahahahaha. im kidding. shes currently urh !@#$%^&* me cus i said smth wrong lah. and now im editing it cus of her. alright, i better !@#$%^&* off now. iloveyoucrystal.

lindey's chalet

PEEG-A-BOO! (:

miss'd crystal?

ohh wells. i've been almost everywhere these days. from a camp in kota ta chalet at sentosa. oolala.

BOYY am i lucky.

=DDD -winks

wells.

kota's camp was friggin fun as usual. companionship was great larhs. (:

we hiked like 16km lorhs. almost died.

im serious. =x had this friggin scaryy solo night in tha uhhhs rainforest? hahs.

its like everyone's abt 10metres apart frm each other and stuff. and theyy expected us ta stayy there for like 5 hrs on our ownn.

wth. i was like in cold sweat pls. =/

uhhhs -chuckles we were a lil notteh thoughh.

(lichong,shannon,leon,eugene,drea and mi) hahs. kinda like gathered and talked tha night awayy during tha solo night.

though it was supposed ta be SOLO. =x

ayes eediot leon and eugene.

i mean howww mean can theyy be?!

theyy scared tha wits outta mi lorhs. hahs.

i admit i was a lil timid at that point of time and could hugg practically anyone there.

i was like shivering pls. afraid that sum gigantic wild boar might jus appear and sashay right in front of us. HAHA!.

aiyahh. ok fine. we gossip-ed a lil and crapped like uber LOTs? (: thanks for myy fantabulous jungle stayy. (: hehs. and and AND mr.mosquitos werent too friendly. grrr. =.=

ohhh wells. jus came backk frm lindey's chalet.

woohooo!

i had like super duper uber TONS of fun. gawdd.

tha people there are like soo damnit wacky larhs. (: cheez. played in tha water a lil with lindey bullying mi with that volleyball of his. -glares.

almost wanted ta like bite him. gawd.

hmmms.had lunch at sakae with lindey's tp fwens.

yeahhs. theyy left us after that cus theyy had like school tha next day?

AWWW. howw sadd. hehs.=x

ooolala.

zeph,abel,jess,wen,lindey,paul,jois,jouie,mi had tha bungalow chalet all ta ourselves.

YUMMMY. =DDD.

played carrom with abel and sum other peeps whereas tha rest played mahjong.

lols. gotta admit that i dunnoe a thang abt mahjong larhs.

-pouts. same goes for abel. LOL.

howw funny. anihows. yeahh. we decided ta like fryy up whatever's left in tha freezer. nuggest,fries,hotdogs and stuff.

ayes. i reckon that zeph and chef hamasaki can cook. LOL.

ayes. zeph's lame and LAME pls. =.=

ohh wells. all of us crapped about.bombarding racist jokes and stuff. i reckon that i had LORRYLOADS of fun pls. (:

-nudges lindey and zeph (genie..HAHA! -insider's joke)

hmmms.

ohh ohh! we've created our very own happae family. (:

jois-jouie (mummy n daddy)

mi-abel(uhhs im tha eldest?)

zeph-wen

jess-lindey

paul(youngest and still single...awww) =x

HAHA. upp for gags. they're jus for fun larhs yea?

heyy familyy.(:

thanks for that 1 and half dayy yea? had a fantabulous time with yew guys. tha laughters and stuff. omigawdd. they cant be replaced.

-huugs luurve yeww loads.

-lately. im thinking about yew baby

jus sit in tha rain,

watching tha days go by...

misss yew everyday,

christabel.nicolette.(:

src.

BOO! (:

hehs. know i've nort been blogging. ooopsie.

ohh wells. i've joined tha src clubb after MUCHHH hesitation and deep thoughts. yeahhs i admit that im losingg tha passion for softball. kindaa intending ta join some other sport like netball or hockeyy. yummy (:

jus returned from training. geees. i've finally gotten on my feet and start exercising those fats of me. HAHA. goshh. im like aching all overr. im rusty dudette. -sigh

anihows went tanning with wanny ytd. -licks. it was like damnit fun larhs. jus tha two of us. tanning w/o any disturbance. i reckon that i look like sum grilled lobster noww. HAHA. its like ouch pls. =DDDD left sentosa and set off for town. guess what. wanny bunny didnt allow mi ta eat pasta. grrrrr. she tried brainwashing mi inta thinking pasta's fattening. and started exaggerating on every single detail of what pasta would do ta yur bodyy. hahs. eediot. =.=

anihows. spotted juu at pastamania!. LOL. apologies yea?. didnt quite seee yew.. was trying ta direct my attention elsewhere cus SUMONE didnt allow mi ta eat my pasta. -pouts. hahs

myy holiday's like gonna endd in a couple of days too. MONDAY= dooom dayy. -shrugs.
i cant explain howw mortified i am right noww. tha thought of walking ta tha tcher's table and predict what kindaa results i've gotten from tha look of myy form tcher's face. goshh. im soo nort gonna imagine. hais. its like i've been bumming around soo gawd damnit muchh that i've forgt howta even studyy or hold a pen. hahs. notteh mii. -smacks. (: wish crystal lucks yea?. she'll neeeds lorryloads of it.

anihows.i'll be leaving for a campp in less than 24 hrs time. urms. peeeg-os? im gonna miss yeww guys yeaa?. special peeg-os like rek,jess,zeph,ian,nat...etc etc. take care while im gone yeaa? JESS darhhlingg. pls pls take care ofyurself? and take yur medicine larhs. lols. no goingg ta tha GYM horhh. i'll watch yew from afar. =DDD geees. i luurve my fwens (:

jellybeans buuurps,
christabel.nicolette (:

FLOWER offf...

whyie's it so that i CANT win arguements or quarrels or whatsoever. does it even pay ta be nice. whyie's that each time i try being nyce ta sumone i get fcuk-ed off or smth. TELL MI PLS. whats wrong with being nyce?. and and. HELLOS?. its time ta like get mature peeps?. hais. i dunnoe larhs k. im BOILING WITH ANGER and flooded with freaking litres of tears. each time i tryy ta arguee and argue and jus ARGUE my wayy out. i'll jus burst into tears. wth?. whats that for. ahhhh whatever. yew can call mi a loseur or smth.. im giving upp. yeahs. jus fight yur wayy. i admit defeat cos i know whatever i SAY. yew'll jus bombb mi backk with sth else. or rather if i were ta shut my fcuking mouth. yew'll say im agree-ing to what yew jus said. HELLOS? yew dun even give mi ample space to breathe. how tha hell do i retaliate?. i wanna be stronger lord. i wanna. am jus too soft. sobs. i hate yewwwwwww. ): geees. so much for lurving sumone. im DUMBB.damnit.

you called me out

you stayed inside

one you love

is where you hide

shot me down as i flew by

crash and burn

i think sometimes you forget where the heart is

answer no to these questions

let her go,

learn a lesson

it's not me,

you're not listening now can't you see,

something's missing

you forget where the heart is

take you away from that empty apartment

you stay and forget where the heart is

someday, if ever you love me, you'd say it's okay

waking up from this nightmare

how's your life, what's it like there

is it all what you want it to be

does it hurt when you think about me

& how broken my heart isit's okay to be angry and never let go

it only gets harder,

the more that you knowwhen you get lonely,

if no one's aroundyou know that i'll catch you when you're falling down

we came together but you left alone

and i know how it feels to walk out on your own

maybe someday I will see you again

and you'll look me in my eyes and call me your friend

take you away from that empty apartment

you stay and forget where the heart is

someday,

if ever you love me,

you'd say its okayit's okay

broken deep down..

christabel.nicolette

get lost.

its painful letting sumone go huhh.

best part;not letting him know tha real reason.

isnt it silly cryingg alongg with every single sadd song that comes my wayy.

i've fallen for another songg...(tha longest story- daphnelovesderby) (:

i dunnoe whats tha friggin wrong with my teardarts or what. but it appears that myy heart starts to tremble each time i try to hide my feelings.

seeing sumone whom yew hold to yur heart dearly walking awayy with sumone else.

HELLOS?

it hurts alright. it really does.

broken conversations-hafty arguements-lil misunderstandings-misusage of vulgarities...

are these part of a relationship.all i could ask for was a simple,plain,ordinary one with no complications...

4teeen* feb (:

HAPPY VALENTINES TA ALL!! (:

heyy apologies ta all whom i've nort wished yets yeaa?. hehs.
wells.kinda spent vdae with people i've nort really hung-ed out with for a longgg time. people i've nort even spent vdae with before. boyy...it went really well.(:

ohh ohh!! i was like super duber late for tha date. hehs sorry guys!. hadta pass stuff ta sumone... took tha wrong train. HAHA. howw kuku can i get. blehhs. and and cldnt quite decide what ta wear. geees.

wells. met upp with (zephaniethaGOOSE,jesslin dear,rek myyboy-->fwen,zach myy pwincie, cal pak myy crapping partner,jolene for awhile and manda mousey. HAHS. kinda chilled over at rek's.we were like busyy poking and smacking each other cos heyy kept suanning jess and mi. -.-"

lene,zeph and manda left us..dea met up with us and yeah zach zach ZACH treated us ta marche! myy gawd. i was like sooo sooo shocked. cldnt quite think str8 for that period of time. hahs. thanks pwincie! that was really sweet of yew.(: heyy take care yeaa?. and *promise! yew peeeg-os can hop over ta my place ta stayy during tha weekends.

MARCHE
ayes we took lotsa photos. hmmm saww this angel with lil wings goingg aound with tha poloroid cam and GUESS WHAT. we requested for our photos ta be taken 3 times. LOL and yayy. tha gurls...each took one.

hmmmm.great memories. (:
left tha place...took neos,chilled at tcc and homee sweeet home. (:


**anihows whu said valentines wldnt be fun w/o a partner? i did have fun. but a different kinda fun. luurve was all arnd town todaee.. gawd. all tha pynk,red,RED RED,blue roses... grrr. all tha huggles,cuddles,smooches. ahhhhhhhhh. hahs. once again. THANKS guys. thanks for makingg my dayy sooo splendid. luurve yew. =DD

tha trouble with luurve is,
christabel.nicolette.(:

pre-vdae shopping

hellos bloggy. miss-d mi? (:

ohh wells. hadnt quite been blogging for awhile.

been pretty busy lately.

with vdae prezzies. c

ollecting of red packets and all.

hahs. yeahh.

cny was jus like any other yr.

it was damnit boring dude. -.-"

OHHH.

i luuuurve uncle william's hse?!

ahhh. its like suuper nyce.

lemme describe it ta yew k?.

its pretty.(:

it has HIGHH ceilingg slopping down with tiny stars on it.

tha stars change colour now and then. off tha lights and baboom!

B-E-A-Utiful. (:

it has a HUGE gym,movie theatre and RED carpet all arnd.

yummy eh?. etc etc. -dreams

lotsaa stuff happened within this week. yeahh.

shant mention any of them cos yeahh. it'll only bring backk unwanted memories. hais.disappointment.

anihows. THANKS peeeg-os for being there for me thruout this difficult period yea?.

yew know whu yew are yea.

i luurve yew darhlings! (:

anihows.roamed arnd town todaee.

all thanks ta IAN POH. -.-"

lols. in myy mind was nothing but pink and gurlie wallet. LOL.

almost went insane. yeww owee mi beeegy! hahs. =D

left at abt 7... yeaps.

im home noww.

typing and printing out all tha vdae messages which im gonna give myy sweethearts tmr. (:

cant wait pls! ooolala.

ohh wells. another vdae w/o him. blehhs. -smacks crystal. get over it manns. hoho

i'll be fine. i've gort zeph,jess and rek. hehs.(:

cyeww laters.,

cryztaL.nicolette.

dragon boating.((:

-POKES stuart and jianweii.
ayes!! pls dragon boat without splashing water onta us?-.-"
hahs. sy and li chong suffered a hell lot mann.
thank gawd they're like tall and beeg enuff ta block mi from tha splashes.hahs
thanks dearies! (:

went ta beach road for lunch and then head'd ta town.
ALL of us. hahs.
fun fun.

guess what. tha 12 of us squeeezed in ta abbe's mini van. HAHA.
everyone had like legg cramps and all.
AND AND! tha best part. when tha van jerked. hahs. tha guys were sent smashing onta tha windows. lols. damn! it was fun. (:

ayes. walked arnd ps. abbe did his shopping. cl,sy and khairul. forever tryingta bully mi. kept trying ta like hide myy bagg and stuff. -.-" and li chong kept messing up my hair. -GROWLS
hoho.

sy:HAHA.ayes stopp trying ta steal my stuff larhs.=x yew cant be a thieve. nort skilled-ed enuff. LOL.(starts recalling howw yew tried ta hide my bagg at sports connections.) -chuckles

hmmm. walked ta town. and then settled down at far east's burger king. ayes!! peeeg-os!! yoohoo!?
i managed ta find out howw bang bang and open close is played.
HURHUR.
im smart aint i? (:
ACHIEVEMENT.

we then went seperate ways.ohh ohh!! sy was like soo sweet larhs. hahs. gawd knows of what reason he sent mi home. but yeahs. thanks yea? much much appreciated. and ayes. stopp goingg out at weee hrs k. guys do need their beauty slp too! HAHs. (:

ta yew:heyy.yeahs.miss'd yew. (:


buuuumble beee. (pssst.remember?),
cryztaL.nicolette

de yi campp.

oooolala.
met tha others at cck at about hmmm lemme see 7 plus?. lols.
was late thanks ta ANDREA SEEE. =x thank gawd i was patient. wahahha.
anihows. ayes i think we were like dumbbb? we took a bus ta kota tinggi and its like in tha end we had ta walkk thru this -nvr ending- pathway b4 reaching. blehhs. we cld hv easily taken a cabbie.ohh wells. we managed ta hitch a ride frm this lorry uncle. HAHA. we are charming eh. =x

uhhh. abbe put eugene and mi in charge of nature rumble and orienteering? HOHO. myy gawdd. he took us ta tha "mud pool" ta like get a rough idea on howw we're gonna take tha kids in. lols.
firs impression:WTH.=x heees

anihows.everythang went well. we dunked ourselves in. as usual. tha gurls screaming and shrieking.
darn! gurls are having higher and higher voice frquencies as tha years go by mann. grrrrr.
i swear i almost went deaf.
ayes.i gort bitten like soo mani different insects pls.):
damn tha insects.hope they'll drown. HAHA.

ayes.eugene is like howw colddd can. his jokes and -no expression- face are like soo sooo hilarious!. i've like heard him say tha exact same joke for like 18 times in a row and yets. i still laugh-ed to them. he's lucky he's gort mi as his assitant cos if it were a be tha others. they wldnt be laughing at his jokes for 18 times. blehhs.

our BUNK!!!!
yayy. bunk was like clean and comfy.
unlike tha ol' daes where we had ta actually slp in tents. yeahh. ayes we only managed ta like slp at abt 3 plus cos we had sanctuary duty and tha kids slp time was at 12.
so yeahh. ayes. its jus so kewl pls.
we were treated like adults.
total respect.
ooohlala. im luuurvin' it. hehs.
we did bunk inspection and stuff.
shouted at tha kids ta go ta bed.
HELLOS? this doesnt make sense. we instructors wanted ta like konk off and fall dead inta slpp whereas tha kids were complaining they cldnt slp? -growls.

ayes. whyiee DO ppl snore?!
irrritating can.
moreover there were like sooo many different kinda pitches?. HAHA.
this guyy beside mi was like snoring soo loudly that i wanted ta put my smelly socks inta his mouth. hees.=D
poor us.(wanny,drea and mi). we had ta bear with tha newly form-ed choir.lols

ayes dae 2 went quite well cos we had like mud fight and all. =x being tha mischievious mi, haha i told tha kids."heyy everyone raise up yur left hand, then put it under water and digg underground for mudd. then... smack it on yur fwen's face! -PIAK-". tha guyy beside mi suffered. sorry dude.=x hehs.
other then that. gene and mi were counting down ta tha number of kids left before we cld finally smell guud again. i've made ALOT of new fwens!! (chikini,,sy,jones,danny,cl,zombie,lily many many more!) luuurve them ta bits.

ayes.sy thought tha bunch of us were like 20+++ lorhs. -GLARES. cos i went like heyy howw ol are yew?
he replied.. 9teeen?.
my reaction was like ONLI?! hahs.
then he said. yew guys are 20 odd rytes?
dorts. gene looked at mi and i looked back we both fell onto tha grnd luffing our butts off.
we then whispered inta sy's ear.
we're 17 and 18. HAHA.
he went -blanked-.
yayy. (:

ayes. tha toilets stinkk pls.-.-"
foood was sumptuos and yummmifiedd.=x
i thinkk i grew fatter. ooops.

last daee...
we went arnd inspecting areas and stuff. hahs.
toook lotsa pics.tha gurls were like googoo-gaing over tha guys.
ewwwwwwww.like i've seeen them for like literally 4 lonnggg yrs?
im sorrry but i've nvr gone crzee over them? hahaa. gurls. get a life pretty pls? -grins. (:

followed tha coaches back ta de yi sec which is like in ang mo kio? -.-"
had lunch at j8. and tadaa! went home.
misss'd home sooo muchh.
myy bedd. myy mr.pynky(peegg).
ahhhhhh.

last but nort least. i misss-d yew. (:


nvr let tha fear of striking out keep yew frm playing tha game dearies.,
cryztaL.nicolette.

for a life timee...

camp's like tmr. yeahh.
tataa peeg-os.gonna miss yew. blehh
sweethearts like jesslin, zephan. and ian. take care yeaa?(:
OHHH.noe what?! i've nort yet packed myy bagg. -gees.

pssst:ta yeww. yes YEW. and and tha ans's YES. hoho.
stopp grinning like sum eediot pls? hehs.its kindaa obscene. =x
take care pls when im like awayyy.wEe~



runnning awayyy...,
cryztaL.nic

truth is...

Ran into an old friend yesterday
Caught me by surprise when he called my name
He was a familiar face from a chapter in my past
Talked for a while I smiled at him
Said that he was sein somebody else
Told me this was gonna last showin me her photograph


And all the feelins that I thought were gone
Came rushin back to me at once
Tried to smile and nod the way I felt
But I was thinkin to myself
I never got over you
Wish I was standin in her shoes
And when it's all said and done
Guess i'm still in love with you

Truth is
I never should have let you go
And it's killin cuz now i know
But when it's all said and done
Guess I'm still in love with you
We reminise on the way it used to be
Shared a couple laughs and some memories
Talked about the things that changed
Some for good and some for bad
Then he said good bye and he paid for lunch
Promised that we'd always keep in touch
Then walked away and that was that


Now the truth is it hurts but I know that faults mine
Cuz i'm the one that let you go


Just gotta be honest
I guess I love you

myy daee out with wannymossy.(:

myy date with wannybunny was gorgeous.
yeaps.we went shopping.LOL.
for myy top. yayy. cos i kindaa like destroyed tha top i was like wearingg.
luurve myy new tee.its like soo gawd damnit lovely.(:

ayes.i conclude that s'pore's having like MORE and more transexuals?
-shrugs.reason beingg.was like strolling alongg town with wannybunny when we spotted like SIX of them?.some were pretty wheres others were ahems fuggly? no offence but yeaa there was this shehe whu had like n*pples but didnt wear bra and and and tha best part. shehe looked exactly like a GUY? ahhhh. poor us gort scared-ed awayy. HAHA. urms guys.pls.we begg yew if yew wanna like change yur sex.uhh wear a bra after that alright? thanks.=D

hmmm.walked upp dwn town todaee. did whacky stuffs with wannybunny. took neos. hahs.(:
we changed.yes we did. wanny took out our past neos and compared with tha one we took todaee. yeaps. ooolala.we looked soo diff.hehs.

ayes ended up at ps's pasta mania.cos i was dreaming abt pasta all daee. we sat dwn..looked at tha menuee.crapped alil.LOL. and and uhh i changed myy mind? -blushh. we came up with this dumbb act like wanny getting angry with mi den i'll like chase after her. HAHS. those dumbos in tha restaurant thought it was for real. anihows. we walked back ta town ta meet up with drea.

wells. drea's bro and his gurl are like workingg at california fitness so being darhlings,we agreed ta be toured arnd tha fitness centre so her bro wld like gain commission? yeaps. tha place is like soo kewl.myy gawdd.i wanna take part in tha hiphop and jazz classes!! woohoo..

yayy.cant wait for campp which is like 3 daes awayy.(:

SHOUTOUTS
wanny!! yew've been suchha sweetheart. yayy. myy daee was like reallae FWOAH. hehs. thanks yea? luuurve yeww yea. cant wait for campp and we can like bully lil kiddos!! -smirks.(:

-tha trouble with lurvvee is..-
cryztaL.nic

meetingg.

our very firs outingg.jus zeph,jess and mi.(:
oh wells. it went on p0retty well apart frm ALL tha suanning. hahs.
we watched shall we dance? OMIGAWDD. its like damnit lovely pls. hehs.(: tha dance moves were soo slick and all. hehs.

walked arnd town in tha HOT sunn. ayes. poor zeph. hahs. he was like all covered upp. ayes but i reckon that he looked gorgeous. yeaps. like duhh. my brudda pls. (:
ayes took neos at cine.we were like monkeying abt. hahs. funny!!

bummed arnd till 6.15 when i met up with wanny and we left for kap for deyi sec's camp metting. woohoo!! im like sooo sooo looking forward ta their campp. yayy. goona be "instructor".
HOHO.
almost everyone whu went for tha kota tinggi camp were going for this de yi's campp. lalla. yayy. and uhh HELLO? do i look that funny in myy passport size photo? lols. everyone was like bursting inta laughter when theyy saw it lors. blehh pls.. its myy sec 1 photo lorhs. hahs.=x

ayes meeting ended. ate at kap followed by playing pool at pool factor. met up with tha guys (li chong,woeiginn,simon,shannon and greg). yeaps.

thats abt it.(:

psst:simon!! dunn be THAT shyy larhs k?(: -huggs.

-spread your wings and flyy-
cryztaL.nic

CAMPP.=DD

grrr.blogspot's gettin on crystal's nerves mann.
i typed like a friggin longgg entry out and guess WAD. i clicked ok! den it went blank. what tha hell.blehhs.

anihows. im backk frm kota tinggi!!
omigawdd im like still in tha camp spirit. oooolala. (:
ohh wells. heres whatt i peeeg-out during campp.

21stJAN
we met up at kranji mrt station thinking that there'll be tons and TONS of ppl going for tha camp as well including a comfy lil coach ta bring us ta campsite.
but ohh wels. we found out that we nort only had ta take 170 in and change a couple of buses b4 reaching campsite.we also had like onli 20 members in tha camp. hahs firs word that came ta myy mind.. "PATHETIC". blehhs.

shhh.=x anihows. we dragged our HUGE baggs.urms ok. only drea's and my bags were huge. ohh wadeva..yeahh we dragged our bags ta tha bustop and den off we started our journey ta kota tinggi.yayy.(:

arrived at kota tinggi at abt 11 plus? abee brought us ta our bunk. ooooolala. it was pretty. our bunk was air condition-ed with mattresses and pillows!! hahs. had a lil pillow fight as well as ALOT of sneezes here and there. ohh boyy! though we had air con, tha bunkk was dustyy.friggin dusty i mean.

all of us were like soo energetic and all. hahs cldnt slp soo we ended upp playing bangg bangg,007 and heart attack. LOL. yeahh was pretty fun seeing ppl get bang-ed and all.

there came tha point of time when all of us felt slppy and went ta oinkk. alright alright. we didnt quite oinkk and soo. we ended upp saying ghost stories and all. luke and his hillvieww storyy etc. eugene was trying ta gett attention. oh pls eugene. -GLARES. hahs.

22nd JAN
ayes drea,wanny and mi were tha firs ta wake upp! lols. omigawdd. i was like tha firs one ta bathe lors and IMAGINE k.
bathingg in icyy coldd water at abt 6.15 in tha morning? ahhhhhh. i didnt even thinkk of dumpingg my headd into tha water lors. -.-" we were like hopping screaming jumpingg abt. LOL funny.(:

ran like 3km for pt.hahs ayes i hv nort run for like ages and all of tha sudden i've ta run like 3km!? lols. achievement. yayy! ayes daee was packed with lots of activities. frm team building ta lame games ta number tapping. myy campmates are nothing but oolala FUN FUN FUN. (: *thumbs upp!

ayes we then proceeded ta tha rainforest for trekking. our fear of gettin sucked by leeches was like at tha PEAK. gawdd. we stepped in swamps and stuff. onli when we reached our final destination. took off our shoes. eeeeek!! uhh i saww like 3 leeeches stucked on myy ankle?. -shrugs. i was seriously frankly traumatised. goshh.

aiyahh. i admit i was pretty dumbb thoughh. i jus kept hopping and screaming hoping that they'll come off mi. hahs. TADAA! myy heroes save tha daee. lols abee and neth pulled them out for mii. thanks mr heores. (:

RAFTING.
lols.that was fun.our grp stole tha other grp's red pipe without them knowing. HAHS. soo kuku. =D ohh we were told ta build our very own raft. as usual tha gurls stood aside and let tha guys do tha job. and and when our raft was done, i jus sat in tha middle and let tha guys move tha raft. howw smart can crystal be huhh? -chuckles.

anihows. tha other grp's raft was like sinking. howw kewt. stewart was like so nort sitting on tha raft alrdy lorhs yet he still kept on paddling. awwww.

CAMPFIRE
our campfire was truely interestingg. it was like held in tha pool? hahs. tha guys are like soo gu niang can. lols. scared of cold larhs. alamak. we gurls jus jumpped in.-SPLASHH.

yeahh. drea's grp did this waterboys dance and william hung dance. whereas ours was pretty lame i mus admit. hahaa. jus cant stopp luffing while thinking backk.=x

we did tha fwenship dance. yeahh lame rytes? LOL. learnt neww cheers,did our butt shakingg punishment.yeaps thats abt it.

drea,wanny and mi went ta abee and gerri's rm ta bathe. SHOIK. lols. theree was like heater pls. yummy.tha others were watching teevee when we finished bathing.went ta bedd after that.(:

LAST DAY.23rd jan.
wells. our 6km pt was cancelled. gawd noes whyiee but yeaa we did sprinting and pumping instead.cooled dwn at tha pool after that.then it was time ta sae our guudbyes. yeahh myy cheeks were rosyy!! yayy.=DD

anihows. we took a cabb ta kota tinggi plaza where we had our lunchh and den ta cityplaza. ayes cityplaza is GORGEOUS. being shopaholics., we grabbed every single minute ta shopp. lols. i bought like 3 tops and a pair of slippers? luurve them! (:
left tha area at abt 6.30? yeaps.-home sweet home sweethearts.-

THANKS.
heyy ppl. thanks for all tha B-E-A-Utiful memories yew guys hv engraved in my life. i mean. though tha camp was that extravagent with tons of ppl, it was soo cosy and warm. yeahh.

ta tha suaners(eugene,luke,woeiginnandshannon)---> i suggest yew guys goo n soak yurself in tha suana larhs. -GROWLS. and stopp suanning mi.grrr.

ta tha gurls(drea,wanny,dionne)-->yew gurls hv been truely amazingg. i luurve yew gurls yea?. thanks for beingg there for mi manns. much muchh appreciated. -huggs.

ta tha quiet ones-->ayes speak up more PLS?.hehs yew can tap mi on tha shoulder and go like HELLOS! (: i wldnt mindd yea?.

ta abee and gerri--->yew guys were like soo nyce? great great ppl i mus saee. i've learnt a hell lot yea. thanks.luurve yew!! (:

-drowns in her slpp-
cryztaL.nic

babyy wun yew tell mi whyie..

ohh wells. went for open houses n stuff. hahs
nyce joe brought jess and mi arnd nyp.
we came ta a conclusion that poly has lil guud lookin peeps. HAHS.
yeahh. was like hopingg ta meet up with jere n aloyy. cos its lik its been ages since we've last met.left nyp for townn.

walked arnd taka while waiting for abel. lols. went ta look zeph upp. awwww. he sells FLOWERS!! howww adorable. LOLS. (:

hmm.went ta paragon guess ta findd jess's guess skirt. but as usual. cldnt findd it. head'd ta cine ta eat. ohh ohh! met randall there. hahs. its like sooo soo coincidental? i mean. we're always bumming inta each other whenever we're in town. oooolala.

met up with mummy cos she wanted ta check this shop out at far east. LOL. like fwoah. firs time. normally it'll be wisma or blahh blahh. cldnt quite believe my ears when she told mi she wanted ta go ta far east. walked arnd. ended up at ps's secret recipe for dinner. *licks. geees. it was SINFUL.=/

anihows.towning with jess and clique's uber fun. goshh. i luurve them lorrryloads manns. thanks peeeg-os. gees. im like leavin for msia tmr at abt 6.hais. gonna miss everyone. take care pls when im gone?. yeeaps. prayy that i wun fall dwn sum dumb hill or sink in sum river. LOL. =x luuurve yew ppl. ayes. i'll be back. (:

-babyy wun yew tell mi whyiee-
cryztaL.nic

movingg on.

movingg on stinks.
been tryingg ta froget abt our past. abt everythang.
been askingg myself whyie im avoiding him and stuff.
i dunnoe whyie. godd please help mi.please.
i know im deceiving myself.see-ing him happy's jus wadd i reallae wann.im contented.
i mean. i noe he aint happy when he was with mi. and so i let go.
there he went.soaring into tha sky. take care.
i'll miss yew. ))x


backk frm camp/lindey's chalet/sp prom.

SP PROM.
ohhh mann. fun's fun i mus saee.
they turned tha hall inta a disco ballrm.
everyone let off they hair and danced till tha moonlight lit.
each songg held a similar tune yet different meanings.
danced with tha ftp gurls.boo.and sum other peeps.
myy gawd.guys are horny arent they?.hahs.
turned mi off pls.they tried their luck on mi but AWW too badd.took no effect on crystal. (:
lotsa pics were taken when tha party was over. OHH OHH did i mention. there was this kewt guy there. hahs. -grins. yeaa he reminded mi of -yew noe whu-.


CHALET.
ooolala.jesslin and mi hitched a ride ta lindey's chalet after sp.
ayes.met up with lindey and hoe ann.
hahs we waited at tha bus lane for like half an hr all thanks ta crystal.
heees.=x
its like theyy asked mi ta check wad time's tha last bus. and so i went and returned saying tha last bus's at 11.
we waited and waited frm 10 ta 10.30.
till then. we decided ta take a cabbie instead. passed by tha board and it read "LAST BUS:10."
muuahahaha.theyy almost slaughtered mi. -pheww.
reached chalet.abel,jack and zeph were like pretendingg ta slp. lols. dumbarses. wanted ta pretend but fell aslp in tha end. left us stranded outside with sjc gurls staring at us.
oh wells. their rms are uber UBER neat. im impressed.-thumbsup-(:

we crapped thru out tha two nites. played daidee and sloww motion heart attack. zeph is jus sooo soo gawd damn adorable. hahs. he looks jus like abel. even tha wayy theyy behave mann. its like FWOAH. ((x

chalet was amazingly great.thanks guys.lurvveee yew lorrryloads.



CAMP.
wells. left for camp after chalet. ahhhh
was like friggin tired.
camp fuud stinks larhs. myy gawd. =.=
quite a few went backk thoughh sum were sent home. tha new principal sucks pls.
new faces.new kiddos.
hais. damn. i miss sch. i miss gettin caught by jerome tan. i miss shoutingg across tha class. i miss charging my hp in class. i miss dem'.
we went for supper at al amin. ok. im gonna be racist now alright. they suckk larhs. i meann. indian. wad tha hell. mean ppl. made us wait like for an hr for a meal. crapp.
hais. tha 12 of us took cabbies backk ta schh and gort locked outside.
GRRR. tha guard didnt allow us in pls. called kit lee. she didnt pick up her fone.
we were at dired straits when tha guard finally allowd raynold in ta get a tcher.
in tha end we entered at abt 2?.yeahh we manged get in. had planned ta playy floorball but wells. as usual she broke her promise.

ended up playing dai dee and lyingg at tha cupola.staring at tha stars. they they they're so preeety. yumms. [[licks*//. it reminded mi of urms him..

left camp.and we went ta plaza ta hv our breakfast.(: great memories will nvr be forgotten sweethearts. luurve y'all. ((x


-time ta movee on-
cryztaL.nic


pssst:ta that sumone.
thanks for tha 1 yr and 1 mth.
fond memories. take care. ((x

im backk. ((x

yayy.
com's backk from tha hospitaLLLLLL. ((x
yummy.poly orientation was fun.
fwenshipp greww frm there.
special thanks ta these people whu spiced my my pretty life. (:
[zelly,wen,conz,ian,may,iris,ritz,ter,jess and blah blahh]
luuurveee yew peeeg-os lorryloads.

anihows. went crashin MI with ian ytd. muuahaha.
somehoww it turned out great. though we almost gort caught. yeaa
ian's suchha suann-er.GRRR
-glares-.met upp with jas and gladys. weee. boii it was awesome ta feel like im backk in schh once again ((x


im im im im im IMM soo tiredd.
-cryztaL.nic.-


if onli things didnt turn out this wayy. YEW.=/

yur all that i need..

went town after work.
dae sucked.
miss-ed yew. yeahh.
thats abt it.
luurve all.


-fixing a broken heart-
cryztaL.nic

missin yew..

shopp'd at taka and wisma.
bought urms
this tube top frm guess and another frm morgan.
they're pretty.
((x

wels bought a top for mummy frm warehouse cos i've jus gotten my firs payy. and yeaa gotten a denim jacket frm there as wels.

gees.time pass'd reallae fast.had dinner and head'd for home.


-miss-in yew real badd-
cryztaL.nic

town-ing with dreaa.(:

its been pouringg dae after daee.when wil it ever stop? *pouts.
hellos.(:
attended patricia and nicholas's wedding todaee.yeeap
pat looked amazingly gorgeous while nic? =.= uhh im sorry ta saee this but he looked like a chief of this mafia gang.he was dress-ed ALL in white.yuck yuckk. and yeah of all colours. his hair was golden? helppp mi pls.HEES

hmm had lunchh reception after tha mass.myy dearest bro em-ceed tha thang. didnt realise that he was THAt corneh.=.= yeahh. people were like warning mii.
"heyy crystal.. make sure yew do nort get yur bro ta emcee yur wedding if NORT yur so gonna be in deep shyte.".hahs. yeahh! i thought soo too. *HINTS

oh wels.it pourred again.met drea after that and we went TOWNINGG.yayy.(: treated drea ta a movie."kungfu hustle." howw dumbb can we get? we didnt even noe tt it's a cheena movie until we sat dwn. HAHS. yeeah it was farneh. NONO.tha showw wasnt exactly tt farneh but tha guyy nxt ta drea was darn farneh. he'd luff at non-farneh parts and go like."woahh! or HAHA den -silence-." its reallae HAHA.nth longerr. he's one wierdgoat.(:

ohh ohh! we went shopppping! (: dreaa bought a mambo pants and mi? a fleshimp top. wanted ta buyy more stuff but wels. cldnt find anitinx nicee. left for cine after that. we walked and walked. hmmm. saww this famous butchh or smth. LOL. yeahh.

chilled at cine's burger kingg.took loads of fotos.and tadaa.! home sweeet home.(:

in tha bus.OMIGAWD. we foundd seats!! yayy. yeahh.due ta longer legs. we cant exactly fit into every seat.hahs.bad badd. i sangg drea tha NOEL songg! woohoo.its soo kewt.. i bet yew'll luuurve it! especially with crystal's lovely voice..muuhahaha =x

**ta wrapper:heyy didnt exactly noee wadd i didd. myy fone went flat and yeaa. borrowed drea's fone. hais. i noe yew yew yew're nort gladd with mi. nort happy. mus be wondering whyie's it always happening?! heyy.like i want it ta happen? hais. pls cheeer upp.pls be piss'd no more.i misss yew. i reallae do.take caree.=/


-had lorryloads of fun-
cryztaL.nic (:

jus felt like cryingg out loudd.):

its jus so shityy.
its new yr's eve and im at home.):
whyie's mummy jus soo self-centred.stinkks larhs.

she went ta my work place ta findd mi.took mi ta highh tea.went for like a friggin 15 mins shopping spree.wad tha. toldd her i wanted ta goo.wanted ta goo celebrate new yr's eve with fwens.but she jus cldnt be less bothered.sayingg tt daddy's pissed with mi and stuff.

jus cldnt understandd WHYIE.i noe shes worried abt guys goingg abt town gropping gurl's arses and boobs and wadsoever.but but.i'll be with both guys and gurls.surely tha guys will protect us ryte?. each time i tried ta pop tha qns abt mi goingg ta findd my fwens firs and headd ta grandpa's after tt.she'd saee "speak ta yur dadd".

and i fell for it.nort once but twice thrice.): im hurt.i mean.wads her reason behindd this.i listened ta her and went home together with them.YEAH and noww?!. im like at home slpping awayy.i cld hv spent a hell lotta time in town.wad tha hell. wads tha diff of mi spendingg my time in twn and then at grandpa's then comingg home ta SLEEP den ta grandpa's.mummy i jus dun understandd. figured out tt it wasnt daddy whu didnt allow mi in twn.it was mummy. wad tha flower.):
i wann him.i wan yewww baddly.breaking dwn inside.i wanna goo out with my fwens. i wanna! myy cuzzies are such a bore apart frm tha couple of them.hais. this is gonna be tha worst new yr ever.I SWEAR.)':


-wash'd awayy-
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