IMMA RUDOLF TDAY

mum and dad took off tday.
its really nice having them around since i've always been a letchkey kid since young.
somehow, i've learnt to appreciate them much more than before..
family days
be it shopping with mum,
gobbling her yummy home cooked nonya food,
teasing dad and his tummy,
going for facial and spa with mum,
picking out ties for dad,
buffet dinners which both bro and dad enjoy.
sheesh. i love my family.(:

despite tha pros, there're cons too.
YEAH CONS.
was nagged ta clear my wardobe today.
been buying too many clothes and as a result, its clogging up my wadrobe space. lols
was nagged to clean my room.
and so i did.
not that i nvr wanted to clean my room or clear my wardrobe.
BUT cus of my really bad sinus..
it gets in the way of cleaning. urgh.

as a result, IMMA RULDOLF TDAY! HOHO

that hidden meaning behind every smle

tha horrific late nights,
crazy mugging at the lib,
taking away of food,
little hours of sleep.
ARE ALL FINALLY OVER.

i can finally pig out,
gather my long losts,
party and PARTY,
family love,
MOVIE spreeeeee,
have my own private time..
(its really been awhile)

okay a quick update.
partied after my last paper. wenta dbl o and obar.
experience was not very memorable.
prolly cus zouk set my expectations really high.
air con was shit. it was leaking and we literally had to stand under the aircon van to FEEEL THE WIND. gosh.
people all over were either high or drunk.
and best part,
i was stomped on leaving a mark to remember on my left foot. THANNKS VICK. hahs
had to keep rania from toppling and i was actually perspiring from balancing her rather than my usual dancing. IMAGINE. hah!
met some really nice gurls thou.. cece and lisel.(:

and here i am plunged onto drea's chair with the noon breeze blowing against the curtains.
its just really nice spending time with the gurls.
we had a sleepover cum post acie's bday celeb.
that gurl was taken for a wild ride.
LITERALLY.
i love it when we meet and everything just flow in so naturally.
the hidden agenda, meaning behind evry expression could be read without even voicing out.
talking about our dreams and goals, knowing what each wants in life.
i could sense this friendship's gonna last till a lifetime.
no doubt, miscomms and little clashes form along tha way,
we know it all that those cant replace the unspoken love we have for each other.
i love it when we laugh at each other's sillyness.
burping which breaks the silence and yet not feeling embarrassed.
yew could read me like a book babes.
bursts of laughter would just fill the air witout any form of awkardness.
it was simply awesome.
the photo viewing of the past, staring at the lappy, gagging over tha flabs at wee hours in the morning.
gosh it was huge LOVE really.
that lil one back in india, yur being missed.
and yur phonecall took us aback. it just seemed as thou yew knew we were slumbering last night. we miss yur presence babe.
be back soon pls cus we cant wait to embark on new memories with yew.(:

PS,
iloveyew.(:

pageant pageant.

its hard to believe that tha many days and weeks of overtime in school and at fittings are over. i could still remember pretty clearly that day we first met at yvonne's creative. everyone was like so excited and inquisitive on whos in tha pageant. there was an air of awkwardness plus mystery as to whos gonna be paired up with who.

next meet up was at this studio in kallang and that was where tha magic began.(: hah! that was when i got to know my buddy aka my partner uncle nick. its funny how friendships begin and yes, our friendship started pretty funnily too when i first thought that yew were this shy guy who doesnt talk much. BOY! yew proved me wrong mann. hahaha.

CATWALKS AND CATWALKS..
FLESHIMP FITTINGS..
ZOUK PRACTICE..
and lastly,
THAT VERY NIGHT w a long list of words.

PROPAGANDA
SAGACIOUS
RACISM
RADICAL
JUICY
PROCRASTINATE
VOGUE
CALIBRE
DECISIONS
SANITARY
MARCISSISTIC
SENILE
INTEGRITY
SCANDALOUS
DISCIPLINE
BUREACRACY


everything just ended in a flash.
and what can i use to describe the entire process..
one word.
BLAST.

tha bash was indeed a blast(: yew guys cant deny that we had fun changing in and out of outfits, worrying about our lines etc right? (:
i love all of yew contestants. whatever it is, we're all winners and of cus congrats to all who bagged home a truckload of stuff esp louisa and ahems MANLY! yew owe me an ice cream treat! since i cant drink. hahaha. -SMIRKS.

anyhows to speed things up alil,
MANY MANY thanks to all who made time specially just for this lil gurl.

MUM AND DAD.
GODMA.
thou i know you wldnt be reading this. was indeed touch when yew blew tha whistle doubly hard tha moment i appeared causing me to lose my balance. it was really cute of yew.(: its tha first time i've ever seen yew at my events and im deeply touched. tha lil note yew pasted on my mirror, words of support and encouragement. thanks yew mum and dad. I LOVE YEW!(:

RUSS.
thanks for getting all tha pieces tgt. for tha times yew tried so hard just to prove to me that yur behind me. for cheering me on when i was on stage. for going upstage to pass me tha bouquet of flowers thou yew're afraid of losing that face of yurs. HAH. thank yew for telling me that i look slim thou my fats were bludging out everywhere. HAHAH. thanks baby!(: love yew.

DREA.
hellos dearest. thanks for hopping over my place wee early in tha morning to help me prepare for my words. for going crazy trying to get everyone tgt at zouk. for being my loanshark and of cus for partying tha night away with me even thou yew were dead tired and my other friends just disappeared and didnt bothered to msg. touched really. yur my best friend. and cliche it may seem. BFF!!((:

GRACE.
hey acie, thank yew for coming down thou yew were embedded in your specs and looking all geeky. for giving me a huge shock by appearing out of no where. for msging me words of encouragement and support. thanks bestie. yew gotta take care of yurself alright? LOVES and of cus BFF too! hah

SHAN, TIMO AND MARIANNE.
thanks for making tha trip down for me esp yew moo. (: for breaking yur ohhh 'no clubs for me rule' and stepping into zouk to watch me strut down tha runway. thanks for cheering for me guys for sacrificing yur sleep and dating hours. mari, yew've been great. shld hang out with us more often yep? love yur company totally.(: and yew two botaks, i miss supperings and late night thrills with yew!(:

MILKIES plus fukang and cord and FIFI!!(:
thanks for everything and anything. for trying to be there always even thou yur darn busy. thank yew for tha words of encouragement and love. could feeel tha love. HAH. yew've indeed showed me what true friendship is, as its not just about spending loads of time tgt but to be there when needed to. priority esp. LOVE LOVE AND LOVES!

pssst twinnie: i foudn tha card!! woohoo! hehehe thanks yew sooo much.(:

UB KAKIS:
hey guys, thanks for screaming yur heart out when i walked down tha runway. its only been a few mths and really, thank yew for spending tha moolahs just to be there. actually, i did feel tha pinch in not seeing yew guys after i cahnged out of my pageant clothes, wanted to celebrate with yew guys since it was a ub event. wanted to rush over to hug every single one of yew to thank yew.. but when i was out, frankly, i was pretty disappointed and my heart sank... wanted to spend tha night partying with yew guys aye. but anyhows, its over and im glad yew guys came. thank yew all.(:


PARTNER NIC:
thanks for cracking me up and trying all ways to curb my nervousness. yew've been really awesome buddy, uhh i mean uncle!(: tha poses, yew with tha cute bowtie plus corny-ness. damn i'll never forget them mann. HAHA yew take care and see yew around in sch yep?((:

NICOLE AND LOUISA:
hellos babes! thanks for tha awesome times mann. from 'sharing' sessions to laughters. damn i'll miss yew.): anyhows, do keep in touch and see yew in sch yep? many many loves!

loves,
me

schooool life

school life's picking up lately. from all that i have whined and nagged about my first week. gone are those days! ((:

now that its my 3rd week at UB, everything's pretty much toned down alrdy. like my classes and clique (still uncertain thou). but im really glad that im finally enjoying school.(:

been mugging ALOT lately. due ta my great school and lecturers. hah. theres quiz every week plus tha fact that everyone around me's mugging secretly. its just doesnt put me at ease if i were to go to sleep every night with no revision of my lecture notes at all. sheesh.spell 'STRESS' pls. urgh.

to ease our high rising pressure, tha clique decided to go for ICE CREAM. yes. yew know how MUCH cwystal LOVES ice creammmm!!? hehehe we stood at SIM bus stop to decide on where to have my craves and everyone was just laughing and joking away till our asses started to move. CHEE drove us down to HV. thanks chee! hahaha. somehow, i dont like calling yew chee eh. it just sets one digressing. hah (yew know what i mean). 7 of us altogether squeezed into a 5 seater car. muuahahaha!

what happened later on's up to yur IMAGINATION... -GRINS


**btw, im at this com lab at SIM now and its just soooo stuupid having to stay in school from 3-5 just to use tha com. WTH?! hurhur. and alex pls join s'pore idol. NOT. HEEHEE

crystal(:

tha lil reflections and YEARNNS.

PHEW! its tha 3rd week of school. eveeeerrryyything's going well just that i've been surprised with 2 bday prezzies from my wonderful loving lecturers.

MATHS QUIZ ON WED WHICH'S TMR AND COMMS QUIZ ON FRI. hurhur. how nice of them aye?

tha BIG 2's gonna arrive soon in just 5 days time. i like tha fact that my bday falls on a weekend thus i'll be able to celebrate w/o having to worry abt skipping class what so ever. but then again, it gets pretty boring as i'd love to know how celebrating my bday in school wld be like esp when my bday during tha 3 years of poly life was spent during tha poly break. sheesh.

imagine, a cake appearing out of no where as yew're frantically looking for yur class. imagine... a guy devliering a bouquet of sunflowers just when yur in tha midst of a lecture... imagine, a HUGE banner which writes HAPPY bday crystal just before yew enter school... wahahaha! yur getting too far crystal! WAKE UP!!

anyhows, i think im olding cus im too tired to plan anything for my bday this yr. prolly just dinnering,movies,beaching with my lovelies wld do.(: what matters most is tha company aint it? (:

wellwell, 19 years of my life was fulfilling indeed.. primary school where giving out presents was tha in thing then even when i am tha bday gurl. sec sch where presents wld fill tha brim of my table top, poly days where surprises came one after another- tha heart shape on np field (one which i'll nvr forget, tha tears i shed over at essential brews where i knew nth about it AT ALL and now, this year i have no expectations no plans. mr sim said he has it all planned and so i left it all up to him.

to add on, my new mates from sim are gonna celebrate with me. but i've no idea what are we gonna do. lols. hurhur but its really sweet of june,chai,charl and chris to plan dates to spend with me. it'll come soon i hope.(:

LTP! yew owe me ahh! hot date hot date. LOL

and for tha meanwhile, im choked up to the neck with tha upcoming 2 quizzes. gees.

come ta think of it, i've got a list of things i wanna get during tha hols maybe.(:


MY NEW WISH LIST.(:

a new replacement for a gold necklace form bangkok which i dropped at the airport after sending sa off. i love this. hope i'll be able to find smth similar to this!-GRINS i'll be a happy gurl! hee.


a new eyeshadow which i spotted over at mac.i fell for it instantly! just so happen that i need new eyeshadow as mine has run out.

PLAY ON PLUMS


I SO WANNA HAVE TONS OF MARINA VOUCHERS so that i can really shop till i drop!! hahaha shit, im turning into a shop'oholic. =.=

Theres this HIGH SHINE BAG which is navy blue and displays a unique shape not many bags have which im eyeing too. hehehehe. MAYBE its only a maybe i'll get it. depends on my budget. hah. its just sooo awesome please.

my benetint's finishing and i saw a new version over the net. how nice! posietint.(: hahaha.


Madrid cream/crushed birkie!! i thought this's really interesting and pretty(: what say yew? heh




after all tha cosmetic wants i realise that i really need a nice make up pouch which preferably has compartments to store all of my makeup. hmmmmms..

plus i love tha slipper aka heels sold at NUM. hurhur mine broke.): prolly get a bronze or a transperant one if they have it. -grins

CWYSTAL YEARNS FOR MORE VINTAGE TEES FROM QUEEN COUTURE! and MORE DRESSES for school days!!HEEE((:

okay yew guys must be thinking im nuts with all that im wanting to buy. as yew know... its just A want.(:


lastly, im soo gonna indulge in more ice cream!! COLD ROCK ISLAND CREAMERY,HOKKAIDO, BEN AND JERRY'S, THA ONE DOLLAR ICECREAM SOLD BY UNCLE AT ORCHARD ROAD, SWENSENS! yummmy! hehehe. take me on a dessert spree and i'll love yew ta bits. heh.

bus 61

after all tha partying and teaching at assumption english,
im proud to say that im back to studying.
and to those who hadnt heard from me since eons, i just started school of 3 years at Uni of Buffalo at SIM. Arts in communications, something related to what i wanna do in tha near future.

Its only been tha 1st week of school and what can i say? i hadnt really found a clique whom i know i can truely rely on. at this very moment, everyone's pretty much very surfaced. soo, yep, im still in tha getting-to-know people better stage. thankfully, i've got yanns,yaya and eileen with me soo school's not extremely horrid. well at least i've got company right? (:

on tha days of school as bus 61 passes by np, i just cant help it but reflect on tha good ol 3 years of poly life. my gurls, milkies, foc, buddies etc. i miss all of them esp my ech gurls. my feelings are mixed somehow as i regretted not bonding with them during my 1st yr in ECH and definitely, i did not regret knowing all 10 of them during my remining ECH years.

hey gurls if yur reading, just wanna let yew know that yur very very much missed. i believe yew gurls feel tha same as i do. tha breaks we used to have, library hideouts, crazy proj meetings and datelines to catch, presentations after another, towning, ponning of school tgt, sneaking out of OBHRM just to buy food and save ourselves from tha tormenting lecture, vday flowers, tha very few ktv sessions. just too many to pen down. Call me a sentimental freak but even after so many months of graduating from poly, as i penned down this tiny paragraph, my eyes still welled up with tears with tha fond memories at tha back of my head.

i hope yew gurls are still doing fine and yew know that BALL BALL (my oh so funny pet name) misses all of yew dearly. tha laughters, joy, tears and sorrows shared. loves.

crystal.

TRANSITIONS.

somehow, i have come to a realisation that we've all grown up.
we no longer play with wooden toys and chalks written on concrete flooring.
tha guys dont carry a hideous mickey mouse haircut anymore whereas tha gurls are back to tha high waisties and leggings. its crazy i tell yew.

kids these days no longer have that innocence they should have. its just all about sex and vulgarities. they do not know what they have been missing out. really. its just so sadd. from what i can vividly recall, i did this camp at changi with pri 5s from coral primary, there was this boy named *john. an autistic child who was outcasted by his peers seemed harmless. but in actual fact, he was more than harmless. HAH. yeahh he adored GURLS. at that age? yew must be thinking come on'. but heyy, his hormones seemed to be raging faster than normal pri 5 kids. apparently, he watches porn and sends them to his friends. whats worse? he tried to tell us instructors tha content. HAH. buddy and myself really had a hard time chasing him out of tha gurls' dorms and night walks. it was insane i tell yew. in a way, disgusted at how media influences have portrayed such images to the young minds these days.

camps have really grown crystal up quite a bit. to overcome challenges and facing difficult kids have actually love instructoring more than ever. gosh. i miss camps. not tha politics but having to see my kids laugh and enjoy themselves and ending tha camp with teary eyes.

those days are gone and instead of tha jumpy, tanned crystal. yew've got a turning fair, heels and dressy crystal scuffling along corridors from classes to classes.

what a transition! phew. i used to complain about tha shitloads i get from tha senior teachers. and now i know its funny, but im gonna miss this place a hell load. tha teachers who treat me like im their younger sis.(: tha tidbits they're forever throwing on my table, the frequent lunch breaks we always have, tha laughters and jokes we share, not to mention gossips. HAHA. memories people, memories.(: my sec 2s. im sure to miss their corny beings, somehow they remind me of my good ol' days as a student. challenges faced are much diff from camps, but im learning to cope. but sad thing is, im leaving this week. yep. i dont know why, but im feeling tha pinch. urgh

gotta go. kids waiting for me at tha study area. one of tha last few times to listen to their callings of ms ang. HAH

loves,
crystal

GUESS IM TOO EXHAUSTED FOR ANYTHING ELSE.
IF I DO SOUND HARSH OR OFFEND ANYONE OF YEW, MY APOLOGIES.
A TIRED MAN IS A GRUMPY MAN.

i just need peace for myself when im tired. nothing else.
leave me alone and i'll be fine.(:
asking about my day can really irritate tha hell outta me when im crazily dying ta get some time to rest. that can leave for tmr or even tha day after. no worries.

daises and sunflowers

hellos ALL! i thought i shld account for my long disappearance. heh
wells, eversince graduating from poly, i've been keeping myself busy with camps and nothing but camps. i've no idea why, but i simply just adore tha adranaline rush each time i handle a different group of kiddos. despite the irritating mozzies plus loud airplanes, its seems that i've gotten so used to camplife. waking up at wee hours and just sweating it out either at dragon boating, kayaking or rock climbing.

my very last camp was at cdans where i had a group of marvellous kids (eversince SCGS). leadership camps ROCK i must say. instructors rock with two thumbs up.(: Each time I go for a camp, i'd always have a mindset of wanting to make my group cry on the very last night during their final debrief. call me sadistic, call me mean but heyy, those tears could very well mean a thousand words.(: what really made me glow after that leadership camp was that i managed ta reach my aim of touching tha hearts of these young fellas and instilling heartfelt moments into their memory lane causing beads of tears rolling down their cheeks. indeed. i was touched.

just when i thought i was getting tha hang of crazy latenights and a hurtful throat, i knew i had to move on with life and experience another kind of living. no doubt, i still LOVE camping life and i'v still wanta do it all over again someday.(:

AND NOW, for those who dont know, im doing long term relief teaching at AES. YES, i can imagine some of yur eyes popping out like WHAT?!?! CRYSTAL? TEACHING?! and there yew go falling off yur chair laughing yur ass off. hah. yes no doubt, im currently teaching english to tha sec 1s and 2s. stressful i must say. handling a class of 40 in an enclosed area is no joke alright. this's when i start appreciating camping where i only handle 20 pax in an oudoor area.

teaching's been taking a slight toll on me affecting my mood which varies from day to day. without sweethearts like ms lina and vivian, jokers like buffy, chuan hock and buddy, my beloved bestie, i doubt i could get through reliefing that easily.(: thanks lovelies.

okay now for tha exciting part. we were in tha movies one day when this unknown personnel msged me. " a lonely old man is seeking for a hot babe to accompany him tonight. will she be free? i mean, is she available tonight?" i was too freaked out when i read tha msg, thus, i passed it ta drea and she went like "EEEWW!". wahahahas. just then this unknown fella called. i literally threw tha phone to drea (like what i always do) to speak to the OLD MAN. hahahah.

WHAT A SURPRISE?! gosh that old man turned out ta be WORMIE!(: our softball teacher in charge then. tha man who watched us grow from a seedling to a lets say, FLOWER? hahaha. yeps, our character development during sec sch days was partially credited to mr wong aka wormie.(: frankly, i nearly screamed out loud in the cinema when i realised that he is back from shanghai. nothing can ever explain the anxiety and happiness i had then.

drea and myself met up with wormie at HV. we had coldrock-yum yum my FAV.(: talked till 1am and then he fetched us back home. fulfilling day indeed. thinking of that moment just wipes a huge grin across my face like a kid holding an enormous cotton candy in his hand.

im a happy girl.(:

ps: i know i owe yew gurls alot (xiu,van,twin,yaya,sasa,jas,) its time to meet up alright?
i'll tryta make time. really. anyhows, dearest fair one, take care over at aussie! PLEASE BRING BACK A BOX OF CRISPY CREME FOR ME?! -grins hahahha. much misses and loves.

and mr sim, lazy sundays will always be our trademark!((: LOVES.

<3s,
cwystal.

goodbye.hello

it took me quite awhile to get registered that im already a graduant.
i could remember vividly, the year 1 days where i was enjoying popularity quite a bit and there was rarely once i stayed around with my class, not to mention my clique.

then came along year 2, where projects took a toil on me. hours burnt, sleeps deprived and laptop was my sole companion. this was the year, i got to know my gurls better. (yun,min,yda,steph and jl)

year 3 arrived with a heavy heart knowing that its tha last year of my poly life. my classmates whom i really grew to love. projects really bonded us together alongside with st,yq,fer,evon,alicia and lastly jas. being the largest clique in the class, its funny how i only got to interact with the rest of them during this very year. indeed im extremely grateful for these gurls who made my year 3 pass so quickly yet memorable. townings,skipping of classes, late nights in sch, bday celebrations etc. too many to list and yet my tears will never fail to drop whenever i think that its all gonna end. as all of us embark on a different route towards our future, no one knows whos gonna bump into each other on the streets one day.
so here i am taking this huge opportunity to tell all 11 of yew how much yew impacted my life even for the slightest reason. (thou not all of yew have my blog link) thank yew sweethearts. i'll miss yew. DEARLY.):

cheers to 3D01'08(:

what a year.

its been a crazily hectic month with truckloads of assignments crashing right in front of me. The due dates are so friggin near each othe and we barely have enough time to take a breather to even watch a movie or do retail therapy.

this time around, its rather different. year 1 and 2 had been a rather smoothing one where i could just sit back shake a leg and then get on track in no time. assignments were all crammed up like now but somehow its a wee bit different from year 3. i've got 4 assignments due within the same week. a presentation up this week and my grpmates and i have been slogging madly to finish all that we could. our space @72 has been our second home for the past few weeks and it'll still be ours till we graduate.

oh have i mentioned that im graduating on the 4th of feb? im so clueless about what my future's gonna be like. work or school? school or work? school school school and where do i wanna study? local or overseas uni? URGH. -pulls hair out

im in a dilemma with my stress level almost hitting the highest point. i've NEVER been this stressed in my life before. PSLE? NARH , o's? NARH. POLY 1 and 2? NARH. POLY 3? HELL YEAH.

all i need now's some rest, holiday, basking in the sun, beach volleyball, retial therapy, movies and more movies, slumber parties, LOADS OF CANDIES AND DONUTS. fwoahh. i need some fats. hah.

all to all that i've really neglected during this period of time, im so sorry cus my workload's toiling on me.do remember that yur still muchly LOVED.(:

CWYSTAL.

random thoughts.
mixed feelings.
which's more important?
i asked myself so many times i cant remember.
tha moment yew stepped into my life.
life seemed so sweet till things began to change. and expectations got higher.
less time spent with family and friends whom were always held dearly to my heart.
it hasnt been fair to yew either.
for i need to give up time with yew for my f and f.
i guess it all started in a wrong note,
where daily meet ups and home calls were really frequent.
somehow, that feeling has slowly died off as trusts and sacrifices werent as true.
its been times where 'confusion' has always been on my mind.
did i take tha wrong step?
am i ready to commit?
cus i dont wanna end up hurting someone else. and that person's yew.
yew deserve someone better.
someone who knows yew better than i do.
someone whos willing to sacrifice her f and f.
im sorry i cant be a perfect gf of yurs.

goodbye and thank yew. loves.