bad day

HELLOS all!! -jumps about and gives s'pore a ll earthquake.=D

am back from tha notorious fever i had for like 5 days?! yeahhh. tell me about it. temp jus went crazily up down even left and right. it went like 38.3 and then 38.5. next day woke upp, head was really heavy and meaused again,39.3. went docs. came back took again 39.5. ohh myy next day went to 38.5 and it kinda stayed there till it went off. goodness. it wasnt fun being sick i tell yew. tha excruciating pain yew've gotta go through and what i've been putting my family through. bahhhs. thanks mummy and daddy! though daddy didnt do much but i could see that he was concerned.why? the moment my fever came up. he grabbed his pillows and blankie ta tha living room and plunged himself there sleeping there for like 5 days? ohh my pooor daddy ): im sorry. howw about mummy? hehs shes been awesome. ohh my. shes jus soo sweet and really caring so uch so it melts me whenever she does smth for me as lil as cooking porridge for me or taking days off jus ta care for me knowing my daddy cant cook for nuts. HHAHA. luurves! (:

for tha people who have been there for me through these 5 days, i have soo much ta thank yew for.(: for tha concerned and tha countless of sms-s ta show that yew care. really much much appreciated mann. -luurves all these lil smth that these ppl did did hit smth in me and seriously, jus thought,smth lil may seem lil ta yew but that smth lil may mean an entire ocean ta that somone.

hehs. whats up for xmas ppl?(:
milks?are yew gurls even still there?i hope...
all tha lil promises we had and tha talks we onced had, never forgotten. never...

LUURVES,
cwystal

BUMMING

hurhur. am like bumming with sa and ya at each-a-cup. lesson ended at like 10.40? and we're rotting like mad. REALLY mad. hurhur. my eyes are ridiculously straining ta open and my head's gonna like slamm right on tha keyboard any sooner. hurhur. sa's really nice friend lent me his pweetaye lappy ta use while he grabs his lunchoes. thanks yea!

ME:say hiee ta my bloggy gurls!!
SA:HIEE!!
YA:say hie ta yur what....? =.= HAHA as usual she gave me that "what the.." look.

hehs.cant be helpped whats. -smirks

anyhows sa's like mugging for her test. glad shes finally doing something.(: first time seeing her this serious. WOWW. suree im indeed amused gurl. heehee.

darh's gonna get her hair doneee and im likee... waiting for her so that we can hop off ta town and start her prezzie shopping and me? gonna shop for windows! =D -grins window shopping that is. haha. (okay issit me or issit the influence i get from van.sa,ya and xiu that im getting all cold with my jokes. -looks around) LOL

lallalala. tataa everyone! -starts falling aslp..

<3s,cwystal

gurlfwen

that very day i met yew and we exchanged numbers.
i knew that it was tha very beginning of our beautiful friendship.
we had our laughters,our fun and our lil talks and gossips.
we met up almost practically everyday be it breaks or after sch.
i thought to myself, how blessed i was ta find another one so simlilar yet of tha same wavelength within suchha short period of time in np.
appreciated yew ta tha core, sent mms-s and wrote lil notes during lecture.
emember atrium slackers? double N? GU? PHYOE? SHUSH? TEOXU? sobs
wells. and at times when my thoughts go off-track, i do ponder and think if our friendship would turn disastrous.
guess thats what happened.
my greatest happiness had turned into one horrible yucky one.
had i know. i wldnt have told anyone about my e**can*y or my feelings and secrets.
jus when i trusted yew SO MUCH <---------------->, it backfired. yew know what happened and i shant say. but i was thinking on my long ride home tha other day, tha stuff yew told me about friendships being more impt. what bullshat. and and was liek thinking if this person means ALOT ta me, i wont kinda like go for her whatever e**can*y. like... cus i know there'll be a horrible outcome.wells, time and time again, i told myself that its alright. duuh. whyie ruin our friendship over a GUY?. yeahhs. and guess it was pweetaye much of a lie once again. what bull* about friends being more impt? sobs. if only i could read inta tha future, i wldnt have chosen ta walk this path with yew.cus it had left me sinking so bad, so bad holding on to this so special yet how unique this friendship is ta me. then again, im thankful for tha memories yew left behind.tha luurve. gees. tha kuku times we had and tha laughters we polluted tha place with.i do nort brush away or nort admit that this has been tha greatest setback of my life in year 2005. WHYIE?. ): cus i treasured yew and this friendship soo much and yet its being left hanging there jus waiting for some rubbish collector ta get rid of it. then again, i do have regrets. regrets that i had told yew certain stuff. like yew know tha lil talk at marina square. pweetaye much went against yur word again. i dont know what yur trying ta do yea. enlighten me pls hais. and and jus reminising tha good ol times we had although it was a short journey, tears me in tha heart completely and sets tears rolling down my cheek. believe it for nort, im missing yew and i know this over-emotional gurl here's succha cry baby and crying each time she yearns for someone or rather when memories jus come backk. i cant help it and it only happens when tha person means tha universe ta me.):

i know times aint tha same now yea? yur happily attached and of cos i dont blame yew for that. but what im praying for's that yew'll have an awesome ride with this guy. yeaps. and if yew really lurve him, do treasure him k. yeaps. owh silly me, yew'll.i know.(: urms for tha stupid misunderstandings and quarrels i had with YEW- take care of her well pls. but still, tha rough and vulgarities yew used on me and tha gurls are still unforgettable.like, wth? quarrel jus becus of smth lil? yew know it yurself yea. wells do think before saying k. it may be lil but it hurts way deep. yeaps. anyhows good luck.

and ta yew my gurlfwen. this's dedicated ta yew. hopefully tha memories we once had will be remembered.geees. im crying. [smacks myself real hard.i hate it when slow songs jus play] ):

wells.i know we cant hang out like before anymore cus yew've yur own commitments now. no time for me. only for two other people. so yeaps. all tha best. i dont know if its anger or sadness filled in me right now but really, this post's jus ta let go of what i've been keeping inside of me for soo longg. -no offences.

jus food for thought.
i dont know whats up with people these days. going for looks,materials and be in tha pop crowd. wells guess this's just what's happening nowadeys. yeaps. is there even true love? i wonder...

hais.
i realise that i no longer know yew gurl. tha gurl i'd seen and knew mths ago's tha totally opp from what i know and see now. crystal's way upset.really am. i feel as though life's soo fake.

I MISS YEW.)--:

<3s,>

to yew

jus cant slpp. tossed and turned.

yew did hinted that yur drifting from me.

hais. i dont want. -shakes head bahhhs.

want yew ta stay put. yew mean a hell lot ta me. yew shld know that.

hais. before yew really get busy and down with a truckload of schedules under that tiny hands of yours, wanna cherish all tha possible time yew have for me and tha rest.

anyhows from here, jus wanna sayy if theres anything pls tell me. dont keep it inside. yeaps. it'll only make cwystal worry. miss yew thoughh. -luurves.

**:although yew've left. yew've left with beautiful memories. thanks.do keep in touch k and urms please dont be angry and upset with me for nort patching. i have my reasons and i've told yew too. doo take care of yurself over there.and i wont break my promise as i'll be there if yew need a friend. -huugs

its so hard ta say goodbye

Hard to Say Goodbye to Yesterday

How do I say goodbye to what we had?

The good times that made us laugh

Outweigh the bad.

I thought we'd get to see forever

But forever's gone away
It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday.

I don't know where this road Is going to lead

All I know is where we've been

And what we've been through.

If we get to see tomorrow

I hope it's worth all the wait

It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday.

And I'll take with me the memories

To be my sunshine after the rain

i dont know whyie's this happening.friends helpped me through this difficult period by being there for me and being total kukus making me laugh almost every second. jus feel soo light when im with them. but emotions start to sink when im all alone on my bed and memories jus start ta flood my head.i know everything's over but whyieee am i thinking about it all once again? crapp. christabel ang, wake up! bahhhs. he's leaving. ohh! riight he's leaving. maybe thats tha case whyie im having tha blues. perhaps im gonna miss him. miss his presence. though its been over since gawd knows when but those memories and yearns still linger.tha times where i jus cldnt sleep and tha time yew wanted ta return me all tha stuff i gave yew which made me cryy soo bad SO BAD i cldnt sleep and almost made my bedroom flood. hais. i know those aint tha very good memories ta remember. but i sure am gonna miss yew. yeaps. do take care.(know yur sick and tired of this but jus hear it for tha very last before yew leave) be good when ur over at NZ k? doo keep in touch k pal? yeaps. and once again. THANKS for leaving behind goood ol memories. aint gonna forget this path which i once walked with yew.luurves.

psst:no matter how crude i've been or howw bad i sound, i still wanna tel yew yew do mean something to me. be it a friend or as a sweetheart, yew'll still be remembered cus yew once made an impact in my life. aint gonna blame yew for tha past cus its alrdy tha PAST and its time ta move on... so yeaps. bon voyage yea.hope i did make an impact in yur life too yea.

that very lil gurl across tha street sees tha lil boy getting into his dad's car with luggages sheds a final tear of goodbye,
cwystal.

bro's beeg day.

MY kor's beeeg day.(:

okayy.i know i've nort blogged about my bro before and soo here's my first.
wells,although im pweetaye much sure he's nort gonna read this but shall jus go ahead.
my bro's every lil sistuh would lurve ta have.with jus tha gestures and actions he does jus melts one's heart.ta admit. i luuurve him ta tha max.boy am i lucky ta have bro like him.from one immature lil boy who used ta vent his anger on his kid sistuh me ta a mature yet understanding and fun loving guy. if he wasnt my bro. i'd have fallen for him. who wldnt? although he doesnt have tha killer looks certain guys have or tha hot bod beach bummers have but im sure he has tha heart every gurl wld die for.(: this guy's nort only my beeg bro but my confidan and my bestie.i know that kor's nort too good at words too and doesnt know howta express his lurve for his kidd sistuh me by saying it. but through his lil actions, i do see tha concern and care he has for me.

he'd come by my room and plunge himself on my bed jus ta spend time with me. he'd buy breakfast for me knowing i've gort sch wee early tha next day. he'd call up and ask what's for supper knowing that im one greedy peego and he'd even pay for my stuff when out with him. its nort jus about materials im talking about here people, but its tha luurve we share thats sooo special. althoughh at times tha breakfast he makes aint quite satisfying but im really touched that he'd actually get up earlier and whips up american breakfast or macaroni jus waiting for me ta set on them.(: im really greatful.really am.

for this:i wanna say,
I LURVE YEW KOR.(: thanks for all tha beautiful times and and for tolerating my nonsense at home. still do miss tha kiddo times we had when we were lil. tha pillow fights(on mummy's bed.hah! shh) and tha hide and seek times too. thanks kor. i'd never wanna replace yew if i ever cld.-fathuugs. happy bday once again! =DD

<3s,cwystal

miss's

jus wanna scream out LOUD,

I MISS EVERYONEEEE.):


huuugs,
cwystal

3rd anniversary-19/11/05

sooo many thangs happened during this period i was away.
yeahhs.i know i owe yew guys an explanation for tha updates that never appear.
im sorry.jus didnt have tha 'oomph' ta blogg alrdy.

we've come this far.3 mths may nort seem plenty but its brought us through many.
tha lil misunderstandings that led ta a major quarrel.
or even silent unhappiness that created piling hatred.
through all these, we survived.
remember that very once we said that we'd sort thangs out if there were unhappiness?
remember?
but it had never happened. ALL of us seated down and talk about it and get through it.
perhaps its because some may nort be able ta take it and flare up at what others hafta sayy.
perhaps some may jus break down and cry at whats happening among us milks.
everyone's evolving.as we become more and MORE comfy with one another. flaws tend ta appear. and these flaws are they supposed ta be accepted by others OR change yurself according ta what others want? tell me.
im confused. whats it all about ppl accepting others for who they are.
hais. even IM still tryingta accept others for who they are. its diff i know. but i know im trying.
on tha other hand. came ta realisation that nort only people do need ta accept others for who they are. those others too need ta change for tha better if they know what their flaws are.
goshh. im thinking too much. perhaps it'll never happen.
everyone may look happy and contented on tha outside.
but whats truely happening deep down?
all's falling apart with all tha discontentment one has with tha other.


from this: i really do hope that this friendship's gonna stay strong despite tha difference of ages here and there.yeapswe may sayy that YES. we'll stay strong but it jus soo happens that its nort at all. some's drifting, some's more interested in another etc. i do nort blame yew. but do rem that tha milk ones have come this far, 3 mths which doesnt seem like alot but then again, its been a rather ROUGH ride. and we've overcomed soo much that no one can ever imagine. with this, i would luurve ta thank all of yew [darh,gurlfwen,sasa,yaya,van,xiu,acie,xuan,ping,cynthia], for all tha lovely unforgettable memories each and every one of yew have left in me. from myy bday suurprise ta tha weekly trainings ta tha outings that never fail ta happen ta tha holidays and slumber parties. THANKS dearies. each and every one of yew made a difference in my life be it good or bad, i still luurve yew. from tha very bottom of my ---><3.>

for tha lil celebration ytd. a HUGE thank yew ta these 3 organisers for making it soo beautiful, van,xiu and darh. -BEEGHUGGS.(:

and for tha delicious food everyone brought including tha liquor. thanks yea.(: its beeen decades since all of us could make it ta seat as one ta chill as ONE. hehs truely appreciate tha effort all of yew have made for this special day of ours.



fondensed milk LUURVES<3,

fevaporated milk,
foconut milk,
milk fowder,
fkim milk,
fwesh milk,
fhocolate milk,
fo fat milk,
frawberry milk,
foya bean milk,
fanana milk.

happy 3rd anniversary milk ones,
cwystal (:

and ta my precious one:
heyy i know yur in yur lil world right now.
and jus wanna let yew know yew aint alone.
i know yew want ta be alone but i dont CARE, im gonna push my way through,
call yurself an introvert but tha effort and lurve yew've put into this friendship of ours has truely won tha hearts of many-milks.
they may nort have said it, but i can see it. and i've nort given up on this milk fam cus i believe in every single one of tha milks. im gonna pull yew along with me cus yew are nort gonna give up no matter how tired yew are. i'll be there with yew hand in hand ta make wonders work yea?
cheeer up babe! yew know fondensed luurves feveraporated yea? -huugs!(: lucks for yur interviews tmr and and though i know im soo gonna miss yew when yew start ta get busy with yur work, jus happy that yur able ta do what yew really want.(: tataa.

sa's bday

okayy.time ta update yew peeps on what i've been doing this entire week.

mon-start of tha new horrifying sch term.

had terribly boring lectures and yeaps. ended pweetaye early at 11am.
yayy. headed over ta SIM magebites along with yaya ta meet enn for lunchoes.
we had our usual speak-up session and thus, enn went back ta her mugging crib while i went ta meet acie my bday babe and yaya.HOME. lols
wells.that dayy was incredible cus we did loads of catching upp. tha CAAG clubb has reformed once again after mia-ing for soo longg. miss'd asha ta bits. she grown more mature with that lil twang in her accent. HAHA hilarious time we had. though it wasnt longg but it was truely memorable yea? thanks gurls for making my dayy howw beautiful.-CAAG.(:

tues
hmmms,wenta church weee early in tha morning. hahs did shopping with myy family and poof! off i wenta rania's hse ta celebrate deepavali. LOL grace,eva,fred and timo were there. funny funny (: luurve those peeps mann. and hey eva! yur new hairstyle rocks beeegy.=D it gives yew an edgy look. yummilicious babe! anyhows went over ta grandad's for bbq.FAT-TENING eh. -growls

wed-school again.
woke up late. oops! miss'd lecture. okayy DONT scold me. im sorrry): -pulls ears. steph told me nort ta goo. she said its too late and yaya that cute one didnt ans my call AND had tha cheek ta ask me whyie i didnt call her. lols. -pokes anyhows met upp with tha milkies and poof we put up a REALLY goood scene that we were going home and all before chilling at sa's crib. cheers gurls! (: we RAWK. anyhows, sa was uber surprised that we appeared with a cake when we met her and that we lied ta her that we had smth on and that van and xiu are going for lecture. nice one eh? -winks. headed for sa's and yeaps, journey seemed fast this time. with tha awesome company what else can i expect?=D had a mini party at sa's with dinner cooked by van and phototakings by ME. hahaha. ohh my. my role's soooo impt how can they forget about me? whahaha. w/o me there wont be concrete memories k!. wahhaha =DD

thurs
owhh wells, what did i doo.
OWHH stayed over at sa's on wed and reached home at about 2 plus on thurs.
knocked off soon after my bath and woke up for dinner and online. thats about it.(:

fri-sa's first training.
HAHA.myy scaryy lesson of 10 hrs continuosly with jus half an hr's break began. ohh myy. tell yew k. i almost died till mr koh appeared. wahhaha he's tha funniest,gayest yet nicest lecurer i've had mann.tha hours spent with him jus apssed soo incredibly fast. he makes lessons interesting and that like tingle at tha inch of it. ohh my.(: luurves! YEAHH. and a few notteh ones had ta fool around with my slippers thinking that my class's gort curtains ta cover their faces. wahhaha. sa's appared then enn then kwisten and yeaah XIU. whahaha.didnt expect my NAME TWIN ta be there?! LOL. suurprised i was. they were like throwing my slippers around NORt knowing we[tha entire class] could actually see what they were doing? hahaha. cute larhs eh.FREE SHOW WE HAD.lols -pokes soo this teaches yew gurls a lesson eh? NEVER do smth noetteh w/o me around. whahah. i've gort spies everywhere around campus eh. dont puay puay eh? -winks hehs.

met up with them after tutorial cus they were cheering sasa on at her very first track training in np. (: LOL. we being tha cheerleaders, were playing netball and all while waiting for sa. my shooting sucks eh. no wonder im nort in netball or bball. wahhaha =D shhh. anyhows. yeaps sa's javelin throwing's friggin good eh? -thumbs upp. add oil alright? (: i'll be at yur comp! no doubts. same goes for name twinnie! will be there with my pom poms too. hehs. AND yew owe us dinnner dateeeees. hahs.

and enn! study hard pls? endure yeahh. ONE last lap ta goo before yew can let loose and flyy.(: all tha best babe and heyy train hard for yur ivp too yea? yew can doo it. take care of mr knee too. he's getting cranky aint he? yeaps.luurves! thanks for everythang yeaa. -huugs

and ta yaya!bombarde yurself with all tha maths formulae eh? yew will be able ta pass maths. im SURE eh. though i hope yew wldnt. im sorry cus i cant imagine milkies w/o yaya. hais. luurve!

and ta ALLL! miss's yew eh.esp:beaver my bro tha SU times., mr shamfull for all tha memories and laughs,nat for tha awesome memories,besties for tha unglamm times we had and my lovely softball juniors, REMEMBER: yur attitude determines yur altitude yeah? ALL THA BEST lovelies.(:

WHOLEHEARTEDLY,
cwystal
FONDENSED milk.(:

my belovedd bestie aciee

my beloved bestie jus turned 7teeen.
its been 5 years and i believe that this friendship's as strong as ever.(:
tha chat we had todayy.
tha jokes we cracked.
i realised, we've grown.
tha friendshipp we share's sooo unpredictable yet unexplainable.
words nort exchanged yets understandable.
our journey came a longg wayy.
and it'll still contue on till that way gets too tough ta carry on.
this gurl's been tha motivator,
tha sotong one,
tha soft one,
tha one with tha loveliest voice,
tha sweet one,
tha patient one,
so many ta name.
shes acie myy bestie.
THA one whose just gort that lil tinge of uniqueness in her.
thanks grace for tha years we've got by together, stood together and spent together.
LURVE YEW LOADS.

hope yew had enjoyed yurself todayy though there were hiccups here and there (psst: soo gonna strangle asha. that blurr one. LOL and janey! ohh my. lols) (:

lastly,happy 17th and sweetest bday once again.

HUGGS and many kiss's,
cwystal aka peeego. (:

welled up in tears

from one tiny lil arguement leading ta such a major one,
causing all hurt and down with tears that floww non-stop.
tha convers we had,
memories we left at tha back of our heads,
tha laughters we shared,
arguements we overcomed,
but never had i expect that this friendship would mean so much.
SO MUCH that it takes one decades and a stab in tha heart ta forget this beautiful friendship.

jus wanna tell yew gurl. yew mean a hell lot ta us. and yew know that. dont be dumb and leave us all sobbing and with yew thinking that it'll only be temp. CUS IT WLDNT. i'd tear each time i think of tha times we had and tha places we've gone to. and if yew ever think off leaving us, i'd sayy that yur silly cus yur giving upp soo muchh. yur nort making things any better. instead its gonna get worse. pls babe. yew know we luurve yew pls. if nort whyiee wld we be crying at this hr jus becus of one silly mistake that caused eveything ta bombard. do thinkkk through it gurl.

-FONDENSED milk

missing someone

I REALLY MISS YEW
SCLUB 7

I called you today just to hear you say

You were not around

When the message was through, though I wanted to

I couldn't make a sound

I wanna tell you the things I've seen

I wanna take you to where I've been

And I wish you were here with me

Don't you know I really miss you - yes I do - yeah I really miss you

Ohhhh yeah I do

I'm writing to say

I had a wonderful day

Hangin' with my friends

But the memory dies as the sun reach the skies

I'm alone again

I wanna tell you the weather is fine


When the night comes around you were on my mind

And I wish you were here with me

Don't you know I really miss you - yes I do - yeah I really miss you - yes I do

- I miss you I really miss you Ohhhh yeah I do

I wanna tell you the things I've seen

I wanna take you to where I've been

And I wish you were here with me

Oh, don't you know I really miss you

- yes I do - yeah I really miss you -

I miss you I called you today just to hear you say

You were not around

When the message was through, though I wanted to

I couldn't make a sound I'm writing to say

I had a wonderful day

Hangin' with my friends

But the memory dies as the sun reach the skies I

i'm alone again

someday

Nothing seems the way that it used to
Everything seems shallow
God give me truth In me...
And tell me somebody's watching over me
And that is all I'm praying's that
Someday I will understand
God's whole plan
And what he's done to me
Oh but maybe
Someday I will breathe
Then I'll finally see I'll see it all in my baby
Don't you run too fast my dear
Why don't you stop
Just stop and listen to your tears
They're all you've got
');




It's in you...
You see somebody's watching over you
And that is all I'm praying's that
Someday you will understand
God's whole plan
And what he does to you
Oh but baby S
omeday you will breathe
And you'll finally see
You'll see it all in your baby
You'll see it all in your baby
No moment will be more truth than the moment
I look at you
It's in you...
You see somebody's watching over you
And that is all I'm praying's that
Someday you will understand
God's whole plan
And what he does to you
Oh but baby
Someday you will breathe
And you'll finally see
You'll see it all in your baby
You'll see it all in your baby

headache

am having a major headache at tha moment.

its like soo heavy that it can touch tha ground,

yets i tried ta stay on ta make yew happy

but in return yew gave me an upside down.

jus wish'd yew cld understand better.

-speechless[i care alright]

KL trip.

gonna be gone for about 3 days. yeapps. mummy and daddy's gonna take me on a trip ta KL for like tha first time. hahaa. yayy. howw ironic it sounds but i've nort been ta msia for holidayy with my family before. goshh. its always elsewhere. am gladd BUT wells though it'll only be 3 days, i'll miss all my precious and beloved ones here in island 'sing.

special notes ta special ppl. those that will always be right THERE in my heart. may nort be a beeeg heart but i'll sure ta miss yew.(: -LUURVES

yaya:heyy.take care of yur knee eh.(: no more msn conver-s with yew gurls at night. DONT MISS ME EH. i know yew will. wahahha eeeeediot! =DD gonna miss yew gurl.pls take care of my darh for me. thanks.(:

van:heyy chef!HEHE. thanks for whipping up all tha yummylicious food yea? truely enjoy every single dish.(: luurve tha runs we had and yeahhs. looking forward for more yeah! (: will miss yeww loads dearie! pst:pls take care of my darh for me? thanks.hehs

xiu:haha. our very own silent killer. heyy, have fun at attachment yea? dont worry too much. yew'll do find. wells shall see yew at our next training yea? luurves!! (: miss yew.

sasa:heyy cute lil assswipe,pweetaye babe!. thanks for tha phone and tha never ending jokes yew'll crack ta make my dayy. luurve yew loads and yeaps this friendship may nort have started longg but im sure it'll last long yea? -luurves. do take care of yurself when im away. -huugs

gurlfwen:heyy yen. yeaps many thangs have happened and yew may or may nort know what.but yeaps hopefully when im back from msia we'll be able ta catch up yea? ps:yur gorgeous aint tha cause of us drifting yea? no worries. YEAP. luurves! will miss yew. AND MR GORGEOUS, pls take care of my gurlfwen for me. if i find out that shes lost a strand of hair i'll stuff cheesecake inta yur tummy. =P

enn:heyy precious one.(: am pweetaye worried about yew cus of yur lil health and staying up late-ness. bahhs. yeaps dooo mugg well and take yur meals regularly yeah? dont miss them. noo goood. it'll result in lethargic-ness eh which makes yew nort have tha energry ta study. yew need these meals ta enduree. pls my dear. and and yeahs will miss yew when im there yea. while i do my part by shopping, yew do yurs by taking goood care of yurself now k? (: luuurves! will be back sooon. =DD heyy jus wanna add on, smiles may nort come all tha time but im willing ta make those smiles come ALL tha time.(:

**:heyy sillymoose.yew'll soo be miss'd. yeapps.wont be able ta spend yur bday with yew neither can i wish yew so here i am wishing yew a very happy bday yea? have fun k? with L,I,J.(: wells. do nort fret cus i'll always be around if neeeded. i may appear cold at times and neglect yew like ALWAYS but yeahhs yew know i know can already eh? we've talked about this issuee a million times and please please smile eh. i luuurve yurr smile eh!(: take good care of yurself when im away yeah? be goood and shall be back real sooon. LORRY loads of luurve. -its jus tha beginning.(: alotta miss's. L,I,J:pls take care of this sweetie for me. hurhur. make sure he doesnt get inta trouble eh. will be soo worried. blehhs.=D

drea:heyy bestie. WAS supposed ta goo ta kota with yew guys but owhh wells my hilarious mum jus booked tix and came home telling us we're gonna go ta KL. like howw cute can she get? anyhows,do take care and have fun at kota yea? though i thought i cld finally hit tha skies and rocket around kota with yew. bahhhs miss tha sky of stars there. geees. shall meet up soon yea? our promised exercising routine ta lose flabs and tha tennis games and squashing on squash courts! yeaps. -winks. miss'd all of those. meet up soon alright when we're both back from msia. WAHAHA (: MANY LOVES and ohh wells remember ta sayy hieta mr mosquitoes and LEECHES for me yeah?thanks dearie. =P

and thats all for now. gotta get up at 6 and off i'll start my awesome journey ta KL. yummy. cant wait at tha same time cant bare ta leave. gosh.):

LURVING ALL,
cwystal.

am having sneezing marathon noww.):
-growls. gonna appear fine so that i wont worry anyone. hehs
anyhows. been home tha entire day. WOWW. like its been ages. jus didnt quite have tha mood and energy.
I MISS YEW.
i miss milk products.
i miss my precious ones.
i miss tha family.
i miss my darhlingg.
i miss my gurlfwen.
i miss tha good ol times.
i miss my besties.
i miss my hanging out peeps-ex aes.
i miss zeph and bel.
i miss sun tanning club.
i miss ALL of yew.

luuurves,
cwystal.=D)

yew

You're never alone,

I'm always near,

When your troubled,

down or blue.

All you have to do is call me,

I'm always here for you.

It doesn't matter where I'm at,

It doesn't matter when.

When you need someone to talk to,

I'm here to be your friend.

If you need someone to hold your hand,

or a hug to say I care.

If you need a shoulder to cry on,

for you I will be there.

So never think you are a burden,

when the weight gets to be to much.

You might find if look hard enough,

a good friend could be the right touch.

You're never alone,

I'm always here,

through the good times and the bad.

I'm always here to be your friend,

I don't like to see you sad.

Words escape me at this moment that seems like the end yet it is only the beginning when friendships are close and dreams are far

you were there for me.

Tears fill me with memories of both good and bad some nearly forgetton yet all dear to the heart you were there for me.

In times of trouble and in times of thanks

you stood by my side and held me up.

Through your ever-patient ears to your comforting hugs

you were there for me.

From that first day when I saw you and knew that you would love me for who

I was you were there for me.

And until the day when we are old and gray

I will always know that you are there for me.

days had never been tha same till i chanced upon this wonderful friendship.

questions popped out endlessly as i ponder if it'll last,

with tha efforts yew and i put in,

i'll be glad ta sayy its all worth while,

tha memories held close to my heart for as long as i breathe.

thanks for everythang. FOR MAKING me tear again and again.

being touched by suchha beautiful angel.

what else can i ask for?

im fantabulously blessed with someone like yew ta guide me through my darkest and scariest.

(: LUURVES. and ppl who think that we're tgt, IM SORRRY ta disappoint yew cus our friendship's one which's soo beautiful that its so unexplanatory yea? hehs.

-ta yew. =D))

drea: heyy aint sure if yew'll read this but jus decided ta give it a try. i miss yew bestie. yeaps all tha foolish stuff we did in town. yeaps. tha times where yew cldnt stand me cus of my un-glam actions and poistures. hahs. tha times where we wld jus plunge right onto tha seats at coffee bean and nort move until we REALLY have to. tha times where we cld jus rattle on and on about schh life and relationships. tha times where we bickered on tha field and encouraged each other ta give a puuurfect pitch. tha times where we did pumpings,krunches,jumping jacks, ALL jus ta motivate tha team. that time where we cried tgt when we lost tha most crucial match of our life. tha time where wormie left and teared as though tha world was gonna end. yeaps tha time where we quarrelled and didnt talk for an entire month. tha times where we'd jus hang out at each other's cribs till we get sick and tired of it. tha times where we'd tease each other and yet nort get piss'd. tha times where yew tolerated me and yet nort get madd at me. the times where yew nagg'd at me ta studyy. tha times where yew seem ta know me better than i do. yeaps thats yew. ANDREA SEE YING JING. my precious and most beloved bestie. someone so dear in my LIFE i'll never forget.(: luurve yew.

grace:heyy acie. OOPS. anyhows. know yur in phillippines right noww. kinda missing yew eh. hais do take god care of yurself yea? cant wait for yew ta be back. we bsties gotta rawk town once again yea? luurve yew dearie.(:

LUURVES,

cwystal

for my precious(:

HAHA. yur long awaited entry. and a special request from VAN,YAYA and that lil siao eh-my precious.(:

okayy.woke upp at like 9.30 and and and washed up,gort dressed and left home. thought i was gonna be late AND so decided nort ta be tha usual late queeen.(ohh wells. wanted ta give them a surrprise too though) anyhows these ladies,sasa and yaya came late larhs. there went my 8 bucks. fwoahh. gorta enjoy tha luxury of merz cabbie though. before i get any further,gonna give yew details...

11am-supposedly ta meet sasa and yaya at queensway ta get van's ear studs. tha ones she soo wanted. yeaps SASA on tha otherhand was awoken by me. YES me. she woke up at like 11 pls?! wahaha what a peego. in her jus-woke-up voice telling me ta give her another wake up call in case she falls aslp again. yeahs. OBVIOUSLY larhs. think she did. haha. anyhows.yaya came laters and i almost fell aslp just by stonning in macs. geees.

1pm-van and yanping came. and van didnt know a bug about us meeting earlier. wells. sasa,yaya and i were like trying all ways ta get van's earrings. yeapps. after MANY failed attempts all thanks ta tha "early-ness" of tha opening of tha shop, we finally bought it without van knowing.

alright. walked arouund. sasa gort her slippers. searched for enn's hp pouch. cldnt find tha one she wanted. soo yeaps. decided ta head towards town. paragon? yeaps. all 5 of us.(:

after getting tha pouch. OHH OHH!! tha guy who served us was soo unfriendly can. i smiled at him and asked him nicely about tha price and all and he jus looked as though.." ahhh fine. wanna buy norts?!". wth. poke yew ahh. =.=

okayy everyone was hungry and went over ta scotts food mall. LOL. call my silly i know. know whats?! bought chicken curry and naan AND RICE. wth!? i thought naan wld be tiny or smth but it was like howw beeg larhs. they were laughing at my stupidity can. lols. funny. yeaps kinda felt alil bad after raising my voice at sasa?

SA:heyy gurl. yeapps. known yew tha longest and was pweetaye concern about yur food diet. saying yur all hungry and then nort eating. kinda felt something wasnt right. and i know that if i didnt tell yew off, yew'd still be starving yurself. pls gurl. did it for yew yea. was concerned.(: yew know i stil luurve yew ah! hahs.(:

okayy left for volley after that. OMG. my arm was lke howw painful larhs when kang smacked those balls. but heyy (: it felt wayy good. for myy interests anyways.training was pweetaye fruitful. yeaps. ran 6 rounds. YAYY. happy cwystal. ahaha lose tha flabs. LOL anyhows i gort smacked by tha volley 6 times todayy during trng?! THANKS uh. and they landed read hard. painful but gotta act cool larhs. whahaha. shhh =x

okayy.darhh-enn didnt turn up for trng. soo we zoomed straight ta timah market, gobbled up our food and we(sasa,yaya,van,xiu and i) headed for enn's. yeaps. tha process's REALLY funny i must sayy. ohh my. we didnt know darh's unit. soo kinda resorted ta various tactics.

1)called kang but hp wasnt on.
2)tried andy but he didnt know and he didnt know kwisten's hp no.
3) called ed ta get kang and he gave us kwisten's hp no.
4)kwisten's phone wasnt on.
5)we panicked. TILL..
6)van came up with an awesome yet hilarious solution.
7) asked yaya ta call enn saying her pearnts needed her unit num ta buy 4d. LOL. how cute.

yeaps. popp'd by darh's place with a cup of ice. OKAYY. i was mentioning that darh wanted us by her place ta chill. and so with yaya's brilliant thinking. =.= she went like."get ice and appear at her doorstep saying we're here ta chill." coldness i know but thats whyie we luurve dear yaya.lols.

anyhows. will another brilliant thinking.=.= sasa wanted us ta nort ALL go in tgt but few by few. and soo yaya went alone. wahhaha bet darh was like. HUH? at such an ungawdly hr? wahha. yeahhs dear yaya managed ta duped darh while WE kukus were hiding behind tha door at tha stairs. hahs.(:

yeaps went next with xiu. lols darh was like "OH MY!?" kinda thang. howw funny. cldnt stopp laughing. her parents are super cute can? =Dd luurve them. SMALL EYES. -winks

anyhows we started chatting, all 5 of us. and i took tha pouch we gort for enn outta myy bagg. waved it infront of her and gave it ta her. OMG she almost teared. maybe she did. wahaha GOTCHA darh! (: wells. yew wanted it and had no time? yeahhs NO worries my dear gurl. theres still us. hahs.

yeapps. sat around. sasa had ta go and yeaps xiu has attachment tmr. called daddy up asking if he cld pick me. mann. i feeel bad and yeaps. thanks daddy for everything. luurve yew ta bits yea. though he cant read this but yeah it jus feels good letting out.

anyhows...

yaya:heyy gurl. thanks for being there for me during my chalet, staying there throughout.(: cant luurve yew more yea and yeaps for yur COLD jokes. thanks ahh. hahaha. eeeeediot!

van:heyy DID yew say hie ta heidi for me?! -glares anyhows.hope yew really luurve tha ear studs.(: and dont sayy thanks. cus isnt that what friends are for? ta make another happy and that oneself wld feel happy too cus other's happy? yeaps. luurve yew yea? (:

xiu:ehhhs xiu! was terribly suurprised that yew came along for tha enn's surrprise. HAHA luurve yew larhs for yur totally cute-ness. though yew cant be with us all tha time and i know yew really want to, hahs yur still kept in our hearts yea? waiting for yur attachment ta be over! (:

sasa:wells. jus wanna sayy.. ALL OF US CARE gurl. anything jus ringg me k? (: yeaps. thanks for evrything too. tha laughters and tha silly stuff yew do jus ta make one happy? ohh myy. gorgeous!=D

pingg:heyy gurl. though yew've been away from us for a certain period. we still reat yew as one of us. we miss yew gurl. yeaps. do take care of mr leggy yea. pweetaye concerned.(: luurves! and had fun todayy too ehh.-winks have fun at japan yea. i know yew will.(: say hie ta me mickey for me PLEASE? -beggs. hahs.(:

darh enn: heyy (: dont stopp grinning eh. i know yur still though.(: anyhows wells suurprises aint suurprises for nth. and am glad i have finally managed ta get yew that pouch?. hahs. had planned it in my head way ages ago. jus that finally i getta see yew smile from weeks of frowns and headaches. yeahhs. hope yew luurved tha suurprise and yes, all of us luurve yew lorryloads eh. doo mugg well and not stress yurself out pls? CWYSTAL's concerned eh. anyhows. thanks for everythang yea? tha moment we started hanging out tgt. tha times we went totally kuku and did silly thangs tgt? tha OH-SO-coicidental times we bumped inta each other? MS? hahs. tha times yew made me cry cus yew are jus sooo sweet? yeahhs. thanks gurl for everythang. no words CAN actually tell howw much i appreciate this friendship of ours eh? (: -luuurves. *prays for darh's exams ta be over and we can start hanging out again. YAYY!

ta yew: heyy gurl. urms theres soo much in my mind that i wanna say but i jus cant bring myself to.wells when i firs gotta know yew, when our friendship started ta blossom.ta blossom inta smth MORE than just a friendship.i thought i knew yew and thought we cld be reall good buddies. yes indeeed. we became real close and began sticking ta each other eh? had tha same frquency and all. wells. jus wanna sayy. just when i thought i had known yew, was proven wrong. yeaps. i dont know. jus felt that everything's different now. no longer tha innocent one i use dta think. but owhh wells. perhaps its jus tha lil obstacles in a friendship one's gotta face. and perhaps through these obstacles one finds out if this friendship's a true one.hais. if yew want me ta trust in yew again. pls do something about it? perhaps yew dont know whats wrong but i can see whats wrong actually. nort only am i hurt. all of us are hurt. we're concerned. yeaps. but if yew did those stuff on purpose ta spite ppl?. PLEASE stop it? cus sumone's gonna get reaaal hurt yea?. yeaps luurves. they asked if i still wanna keep this friendship and im gonna say yes. cus i believe in yew. yeaps. maybe i'll get hurt in tha end but i'd say its all worth while tha memories we once had are truely enough ta believe in yew. yeaps. think about it yea? luurves.

YEW:heyy can yew tell me whats wrong with yew? im concerned alright. yeaps luurves

from tha bottom of my heart,
cwystal(:

getting fat soon eh.

dragged myself off tha bed at like 8.30 and realised i was late. HEEHEE. was supposed ta like meet drea and grace at bb macs for our lil gathering ta fill each other up with juicy news. yeahhs.
had loads of fun. everyone had that JUS-WOKE-UP look. ohh my. howw cute.(: missed those days.

anyhows we talked and walked arnd. ended up at coffeee bean's sofa. plunged ourselves down as we wait for enn ta call.okayy. enn came and we headed for town. drea,enn and me. drea was going ta schh though and we kinda acc-ed her til her sch's bus stop and switched a bus ta town. ohh wells. enn and me tha two beeegest kuku-s of tha day didnt know that we had ta get down tha bus with drea. and soo, we ended upp having a jungle trail. WAHAHHA. had fun my dear!(: never in my entire life have i missed a bus stop and yet having to walk back ta tha previous through a lil jungle. my my. drea was laughing her ass off when she saww us walking backk.

okayy.drea's friend amanda was hilarious pls. she came out ta meet us and YEAHH. jus cldnt stopp teasing drea. ohh my.(: nice meeting yew girl. thus went ta dino's for steamboat and teppanyaki.

): another few pounds added. damn! wells. his doggs are frigging superrr REALLY adorable. yeaah!. yew must be wondering... aint cwystal scared of dogs? narhs. his are like sooo friendly.(: wells i picked up one of tha puppies and laid it on my arms. its no beeger than my palm yea. imagine. howww cute can it be? heees. within minutes. it jus fell deep into slpp in my arms. ohh my. i didnt dare ta like make a single move, being afraid ta wake it up.

we ate and ATE and ATE. wahahha. was like seriously bloated. thus sasa's parents came and gave enn and me a lift home. thanks sasa!(:

howw can i nort luure tha milkies huhh?
-condensed,
cwystal.<33

yeaps.

ta yew:its nort that i keep changing topic.
wells yew know that everythang have a reason. and so here i am ta explain.
i keep changing topic so that i can direct yur thoughts elsewhere.
yew think im that crazyy as everyone thinks.
narhs im nort. i may seem tha wildest and hilarious lil thang on earth.
but this isnt quite me. yeahh. people do have patience and mine may wear out soon.
i want ppl ta know that theres a serious side of me.
cus i know that once i flare.it'd be bad. letting yew guys tease and all make yew ppl happy and i dont mind it at all. but yeahhs. yew can still talk ta me if yew wanna. cus i still do care. dont sayy nvm cus i know theres still smth clinging over there waiting for someone ta hold on to it. yeaps. i wanna know whats actually going on and being kept in suspense sucks yeah. nort that im suchha kpo or whats but im concerned. yur my darh pls!.=/
thanks for todayy. was really REALLy happy yew came down. ask van, how depressed i was when she said yew werent gonna be coming down todayy. blehhs. silly me eh. ohh wells. missed enn i guess? (:

am still around,
cwystal.

cant slpp.

i aint gort any idea whyie cant i slp. tried tucking myself ta bed but it seems like no avail.
wells. good night peegos. ta those impt in my life: yes yew. hopefully eveythang's alright. i wanna see tha old chirpy yew again.): cwystal luurves yew alright. yeapps.

and when i look into yur eyes,
i see an angel in diguise,
sent from god above
for me ta lurve,
ta lighten up yur load...

if theres anything,i'll be right here.(:

luurve,
cwystal.

AM seriously worried.

bubbles keep forming and questions keep popping outta nowhere.im worried. i know yur gonna sayy yur fine and all. yeaps. perhaps i should jus shhh and mind my own business. but then again. yew were there when i needed someone. yew were like my lil "jie", myy confidant. noww here i am. wanting ta let yew know that i can be yur listening ear too.i know yur nort alright even when yew sayy yew are. tha tears kept behind yur smiles. i know yur nort fine.gosh. i know yur gonna call me a crybaby cus when i chanced upon yur entry, my tears jus fell no doubt. yeap. its because i care. wanna let yew know that however busy yew are with yur schh work and projs. yew'll still be miss'd and in our lil HEARTS<3.
days we had will nort be forgotten.

lorryloads of luurve,
cwystal.

i still luurve yew.

tears shed. all becus of someone else. ahhh crapp.
heyy gurlfwen. stand upp strong yeah.(: i know yur one strong gurl. yeahhs still luurve yew eh.no doubt. its through these nasty obstacles along tha wayy that make friendships stronger aint it? silly gurl. yur being missed.(: MISS yew ehh gurlfwen.

anyhows.tha past entry was nth. ignore it ppl.

wells jus two days backk. we had chilling out session at van's. ohh my dear gurl was soo nice cus she supplied all tha drinks and stuff. who could be more generous than that eh? -winks. her chilling room was was PWEETAYE. tha colours and tha music was jus good enough ta make yew wanta STAY there and nort move a bit.hehs. wells tha gurls kinda gort outta tha room and headed towards van's crib cus we didnt wanta drink. ahh wells. we had our lil girly sessions and all. thats what i call MILK outing eh.(: jus slacking and doing practicaly nth.

soon after. all started oinking other than enn,me and dino. WAHAHA boy am i proud.=D i was still jumping about cracking jokes when ppl started waking up. ohh my. left for home at about 7 plus and -poofs off ta bedd i go.(:

THA family: thanks for that loevly day yea. i very much enjoyed myself.(: wanna have moree chilling out sesssions eh! luurves.

milkies:heyy. what more can i sayy?i luurve yew gurls. thanks and MILLIONS of them yea. yew've been awesome and nothing else can seriously rawk my lil world.

gurlfwen:heyy babe. know yew have attachment and all. hope yur taking good care of yurself. and heyy doo enjoy yurself yea? yur miss'd by every single one of us. <33

yew:yew know what i wanna sayy. yeaps. take care yeaa.-hugs.

lorryloads of LURVE,
cwystal

yew make me mad.

i came ta realisation that my stupid childish thinking that at least there are people who go for character and nort just looks. pweetaye much so. i was proven wrong. freakkks. i hate yew. dont ask me who. anyhows. yeap found out some stuffs which i shldnt have huhh. dont ask. thanks. wells. hope yew had FUN that day. if friendship's all about hiding one corner and afraid of letting yur budds know. i;'d rather we nort be friends. yeahhs. YEW. am pweetaye hurt. cwystal dislikes people who keep lying ta her. gawd. fine if yew dont mean anything ta her. but if yew do mean ALOT its soo gonna hurt yea. yeaps. anyhows ta YEW: aint sure if i saww tha wrong thang or read tha wrong thang. but i think i know what had happened.unless i came ta tha wrong conclusion. no use covering dearie. yeaps. TATAA.

ps:dont ask me about this entry. jus wanting ta let out my frustrations.

dont leave.

my mind went blank for that moment.
that moment i was told yew were leaving.
nort sure whyie's this happening.
but i was pweetaye sure it didnt feel good.
i gort mself ta settle down for awhile
and flashes of us jus went past.
tha tears and laughters.
yew were leaving ta somewhere far.
through tha months we had.
i've never regretted.
though our hearts cant be one.
but just wanna thank yew for tha lovely times we had.
im nort attached neither am i in lurve with someone else.
jus that tha silly yew cant get it right.
im still right here for yew ta capture me.
all along i was here.
jus that yew cant see me or maybe i've ben hiding too well ta let yew feel me.
now that i know that everythang's coming ta an end.
with yew leaving.
i shall tell yew.
i still do feel and yearn for those times we once had.

**take care when yur gone. yeaps. new environment new people. gotta stay strong yea. 'misses. urms. ask leon what we've chatted about ytd.


that lil gurl who once said shes shifted is still there waiting for her lil pwince.(:,
cwystal.

surprises no more.(:

URGH. cwystal's typing this once more. after tha whole thang went bank when i was done with it. sobs.

wells.all everyone had read my previous entry,i was indeed depressed and all. cus it was like fwens are all mugging for exams,besties busy or cant go out. all tha lil excuses just started popping out. bahhs. yeaps

my dayy started like this.."heyy cwystal.im at yur house's doorstep". ohh my. i was like bathing and all larhs. hahs. though i was late or smth cus i was supposed ta meet enn for a movie at 3. yeahhs. enn stood at my doorstep with this really huge camping bag. she looked suuper cute eh. hahs(:

yeap she came in. put down her stuff and i dressed upp and all. being tha usual her, she landed herself on my bed and didnt move. LOL. peeego. when i was done and all, she made me plunge myself on tha bed and watch a slideshow on my lappy. alrighty. pics and words appeared. ohh my. pweetaye.(: memories and photos of all tha times we spent appeared. i was speechless eh. yeaps tears just started flowwing out. touched i must sayy. yeapps. darh then passed me this lil box containing this pair of really cute earrings. hahs. luurve them eh! -huugs.
okay enough said. was late for movie cus we left home at like 3.05 and tha movie was supposed ta start at 3? like OMG. whahaha walked under tha scorching sun with enn complaining of the heat. lols. how gu niang. =DD

anyhows enn made me buy kfc for lunchos whereas she "draw money". hahs. yeahh. told me ta wait for her outside kfc and i did. jus then, enn appeared with a HUGE sunflower in her hand. wahaha.(: howw sweet. hehs. surrprised i was. yeahh rushed up ta tha cinema.

hmmms, got in and made ourselves comfy. when i was all engrossed in tha show, enn suddenly popped a cake outta nowhere. seriously, i had no idea where it came from. gees. gurl. yur GOOD! -winks. hehs. tha candle jus lited up tha whole theatre and enn was like singing ta me tha bday song.softly.(:

hehs.thought tat was tha end of my surprise. narhs. -shakes head. that wasnt it. we then ended up at tha arcade. wahahha. YEAHH. tha arcade. a place where i've nort stepped into for decades. tha kid in us just appeared and boyy! we had loads of fun. just tha two of us.(:

yeaps. was supposed ta meet thai susu,gurlfwen,ed my bro and sa sa for dinner at essential brew at hollang v. ohh wells. yen and susu said they'd be late. so went ta essential brew firs. gort a place sat down. and took a quick glanced of tha whole area. omg larhs. tha atmosphere was soo pweetaye. with candles lited up and dimed lights. tha ideal place for chilling.(: wells sasa and me sat down while ed and enn went ta tha bathroom. minutes later, enn came out and pulled me into this dark room. lols. was like wondering what was she trying ta do. geees.

"SUURPRISSEEE.!!"balloons started flying and a candle lited up. people started singing tha bday song. the light came on and familiar faces appeared. my closest ones were all there.(: ohh my. tears started welling up my eyes and that lil thang in me jst started breaking down and i cried. yeahs. touched i was. all tha lil excuses they gave me for nort being able ta celebate with me were all lies. HAH! liars eh one by one.(: besties! were there. thought theyy really cldnt make it. almost died when they said they aint spending today with me. hehs.=x oops!

wells.we fooled around. monkeyed here and there. photos and photos taken. ohh my. iluurve all my fwens.(: called mummy up ta ask her ta come over ta foot tha bill cus i felt that i should give them a treat for all tha effort they have put in. but being tha silly me, i gave it all awayy. enn made tha move way before i could notice. DAMN! hmphf.

wells, timo,louis,jas,greg,shannon,drea,grace left earlier. yeahh and PART 2 started. wahhaha. daddy bought us lanterns and sparklers. ohh myy. howw adorable eh. we set off for a playground near holland v. played catching and blind mice till everyone was perspiring like cows. hahs.(:

off we left for home.

reached home and saww this beeeg teddy with a flower. hahs! mr shamfull gave me a surprise too.ohh my. thanks yeaa.(: sweet sweeet.

anyhows. special messages for tha special ones who have made footprints permanent in my life.

drea:.heyyy bestie. know that we're worlds apart. i still seee tha bond in us. that very fire which has never died from tha start. yeapps. yew've given me sucha huge surprise eh. thought yew were seriously mugging in sch. -GROWLS. wells thanks for everythang. for taking tha effort ta make today possible. yeaps. i luurve yew bestie. i really do.(: 6 years of our precious friendship can never be replaced. -huugs

grace:heyy bestie. yeaps. thanks eh for planning this with enn. yeahh. know i've caused major headaches ta tha both of yew. sorry eh. hahs. =x planning parties aint that easy afterall eh?(: thanks for todayy for everything. for tha thangs that yew've done for me. yeaps. though we dont spend as much time like during sec sch days. i still see that bond in us ever growing.(: luurve yew yea.

yanping:heyy thanks for all tha lil gifts yew've showered on me.realy appreciate those lil thoughts and concerns yea? from cough medicine ta chocs. yeahhs.(: thanks for todayy too. yeaps. for tha jigsaw which yew took hrs and hrs ta complete. yeeap. luurve it ta bits. THANKS.

milkies:heyy gurls, thanks for all tha beautiful memories yea. tha cranky times and silly moments. life in poly wldnt be soo easy and fun without yew gurls.(: from ta very day i met yew, i knew that somehow our friendship wld be soo true. tha lil something in us made it all soo special. perhaps it as fated that our paths wld cross. perhaps it was my blessing from god that i'd meet such precious angels like yew gurls.(: thanks for today thanks for everyday.(: -LUURVE
owh owhh!1 cant wait for camp! woohoo. hah

gurlfwen: heyy yen.thanks for cheering up my days with that silliness in yew. hahs.(: yeeaps. its really nice having someone soo similar in poly life.yeahh. luurve yew lorryloads gurlfwen. we'll go through all tgt yea? -cross fingers. luurve!

ta my ex sec sch mates like timooo,louis,greg,shannon,jas: heyy budds. 4 yrs of friendship actually led us ta where we are right now.(: yeaps know we dont spend time tgt often but its like each time we get tgt, there'll be endless num of topics ta talk about. thanks for coming down todayy. yeahh. was very VERY shocked ta see yew guys there.esp.jas. hehs. thanks for tha prezzie!! tha tee's uber cute and and and tha card! WAHAHAHA. scared tha shit outta me mann. sooooo hilarious larhs.(: luuurve. shall hang out soon k?

ta ed,kang,susu and gong:heyy.really gladd knowing yew guys and heyy bet we'll have greated fun as we get ta know each other better and with more outings.(: thanks for everythang. and ta ed,thai susu and kang, thanks for today and tha prezzie.(:

and ta tha one who made this happen. tha special one in my life...
MY DARH ENN: heyy gurl.thanks for today thanks for all tha beautiful memories. thanks for practically EVERYTHANG. yeaps. thoughts jus keep coming in but its soo wierd that it disappears when i wanna type them down. anyhows. thanks for taking tha effort ta take time off yur busy and hectic schedule jus ta plann my bday and all. am greatly touched.(: tha lil surprises; tha sunflower,tha earrings,tha cake,tha prezziestha HUGE surprise. ahhhh. am soo overwhelmed by tha luurve and efort yew've put in. it was a sucess gurl. yes it was.(: i enjoyed myself soo much and it has left an ENORMOUS impact in my life. thanks for everythang darh. for stepping into my life.perhaps this is all destined with god sending an angel like yew ta guide my way through life.im soo grateful ta have met yew and on tha 17th year of my life.(: special as it seems. yew'll always remain as someone special ta me.luurve yew darh. for who yew are and for all that yew've given me.(:

shamfull:heyy.thanks for tha prezzie yea? was surprised eh. HAHA.(: silly! wells. i know i know, i still owe yew a movie. hahs. shall see about that. wahaha =x -winks

ta all that i didnt mention: thanks for all tha bday blessings and wishes. be it LONG,short,tiny or beeeg, its tha thought that counts aint it? (:. thanks a million. luurve!

ta those who cldnt make it down today: heyy its alright yea? BUT YEW OWE ME100g of cookies. wahahha. kidding.(: yeaps

ta tha one who appeared at my doorstep at 12 midnight: hahs. thanks for tha icecream mooncake. yeap! was really surprised and touched.(: thanks yea.-huugs

friends come and go. but yeahhs im praying real hard that these friends that i have now will be kept safe in my heart and be by my side till i end this journey of life. hehs. silly as it sounds. i luurve all of yew and yeaps.dont try ta be nasty cus i'd take that nasti-ness off yew.(: throught my 17 years of life, i've been through soo much and during this time, friends were tha ones supporting me all. tha first time i cried in poly.friends were there.(: yeaps. thoughh there were bad and depressing times where i cldnt get someone off my mind and acted really cold towards yew guys. yew guys just stood by me and let me vent my frustrationd. thanks lovelies.(: much much appreciated eh.hehs

Just as a wave is lifted by the shore,

Then breaks across the slowly rising sand,

So as I watch you weep my feelings pour

Across the wash of what I understand.

I wish I could just take you in my arms

And all your pain could melt into my chest,

And all the violence of passing storms

Could pass through me and finally come to rest.

No words can set things right or presence lend

A miracle to light your darkened way,

But there is solace in a loving friend

And comfort in what I don't have to say.

Whatever circumstance you cannot bear,

Just turn to me, and you will find me there.

smiles that will never leave,

cwystal(:

4teen sept

wells.days hadnt been that good since tha exam fever visited me. yeahhs. everyone was practically mugging and there was hardly any time for tha usual hangouts.):

this birthday aint tha same like tha usual ones i had.no more bday celebrations with my besties. hais. i REALLY do yearn in having them back in my lives and spend almost all tha time i have with them. guess times do change huhh. i once thought bdays wld be more impt than anything else but it seems that, i am sooo naive. yeaps.

surprises i had.one from this person and another from next. HAHA. good planning huhh. thought my first year in poly wld make a beeeg diff on tha day of my bday but. HAHA. its diff but in another wayy. hais. i dont knoww.guess im just expecting too muchh.

should bdays even be celebrated?aint it supposed ta be like everyday's yur bday? AHHH fine. whats up tmr. i aint gort any idea. thought exam's over i'll be able ta rawk ta night out and partaye along with my buddies ta celebrate my bday. but tha others are equally busy and still mugging for their exams. cwystal HATES exams. sobs.

imiss those days. anyhows had loads of fun with timo,louis,cherisa todayy. hahs (: they were frigging hilarious larhs. sasa and her ostrich walks and timo and his cold jokes. mann. they realy made my day.

hmmms.this sets me back ta tha times i celebrated my bday. like in pri sch. its sucha irony that tha bday gurl's tha one giving out gifts to ppl and nort tha other way round. HAHA (: howw cute. perhaps its a tradition eh.=DD

then came sec schh life. HOHO. had cake fight in sec 2 and we were lke munkeys running all over. hahs. (: still rem louis and his toot haircut! LOL. wells sec 3 life came. cant quite rem and then sec 4. still can recall very clearly on howw i passed that very day. didnt celebrate it cus it fell during o's. gawdd. was like friggging sad pls. anyhows myy beloved besties came over ta my place and pop me with a surprise while i was slpping. ohh my. my unkempt hair and messy room. wells, bakes brownies as my cake and tha bag i had always wanted. (: almost wanted ta marry them instantly. HAHA.

todayy. mummy came home with a bouquet of sunflowers. yayy! my fav. mummy rawks. she ALWAYS knows what her daughter wants. -huuugs.luurve.

anyhows.cant wait for camp.yeaps.
<33,cwystal.

candy trails and choco dreams.

wellwell.
been ages i know.
decided ta have a quick one before im off writing myy script for tmr's speech.
anyhows. had high tea with bro and his gurl at marriot todayy. bet yew! it was totally gorgeous yummylicious. with butter pudding and all. what else can i ask for? (:

we took a walk ta wheelock with gigs all ovet town. ohh myy. hahs. took a look at tha crumpler lappy bags. kor wanted ta buy me one for my bday. howw nice. (: but too badd. tha colour i want is like out of stock. crapp.): anyhows dragged our tired feet to paragon. that was where i gort my topshop tee. HAHA. luurve my huniest bro ta bits. he gort me this striped puurple and orange top that i wanted. thanks yea?

anyhows. that was all. bro drove his gurl home. and i slept during tha whole hour journey but it wasnt as sweet as what yew think. yeaps. loads of thoughts jus swept through my mindd. i wanna bring back tha past.

yen: heyy babe. yeaps. i MISS yew a hell load know. yeaps. thats whyie i tagged yur blogg ta tell yew howw much yur being miss'd. hmmms.just wanna tel yew. this friendship will nort be one unless both make an effort ta keep it going yea? luurve luurve.<3>

ange: heyy darhlingg.thanks for everythingg. i dont know what more can i ask for. mann! yur like tha lil joker book in my life. ever ready ta explode me with jokes just ta crank me up. (: with yur ever soo bubbly and gregarious character. who wldnt be more glad ta just having to be with yew?. thanks for tha sweetest concerns and the lil naggings every older "sis" wld give. luurve luurve <3>

milkfactory products.: heyy gurls. thanks for bringing laughter into my life every single day yea. even on msn, it just seems that yew guys are just right here with me. HAHA. apart from tha suanning part! asswipe. i'll poke yew till yew get holes all over. -growls. hahaha. anyhows. yew've been simply awesome. ta ppl like van,ping,pweetaye coconut,siew,cyn,acie etc etc. LUURVE YEW EH. (: see yew at tha court! luurve.

tha lil boy across tha street:urms.theres so much ta sayy yets i dont know how i should go about it. anyhows take care.(:

Sorry I never told you

All I wanted to say

And now it's too late to hold you

'Cause you've flown away

So far away

Never had I imagined

Living without your smile

Feeling and knowing you hear me

It keeps me alive

Alive

And I know you're shining down on me

Like so many friends we've lost along the way

And I know eventually we'll be together

One sweet day

Darling, I never showed you

Assumed you'd always be there I took your presence for granted
');

But I've always cared

And I miss the love we shared

And I know you're shining down on me

Like so many friends we've lost along the way A

nd I know eventually we'll be together

One sweet day

Although the sun will never shine the same I

'll always look to a brighter day Lord

I know when I lay me down to sleep

You will always listen as I pray

And I know you're shining down on me

Like so many friends we've lost along the way

And I know eventually we'll be together

One sweet day

And I know you're shining down on me

Like so many friends we've lost along the way

And I know eventually we'll be together

One sweet day

Sorry I never told you

All I wanted to say

greatest hope was when i met yew,

cwystal.

where have yew been

i wanna know where have yew been.
i wanna share all tha times i had with yew.
take away tha cold war and make me feel tha warmth again.
where have all tha lurve gone.
where.
tha daily miss-s are just enough to fill an entire bucket.
where are yew luurve.

When the road gets dark
And you can no longer see
Just let my love throw a spark
And have a little faith in me
And when the tears you cry
Are all you can believe
Just give these loving arms a try
And have a little faith in me

When your secret heart
Cannot speak so easily
Come here darlin'
From a whisper start
To have a little faith in me
And when your back's against the wall
Just turn around and you will see
I will catch, I will catch your fall baby
Just have a little faith in me

where have yew beeen. missing yew. that empty heart of mine.

*and heyy gurlfwen, ignore what those dumbarses have tagged on yur board yea? cwystal's always there for yew when yew need ta pour things out. luurve.

splashes or strawberry kisses,
cwystal.

NAT.

its alright, i survived, im alive again
cus of you, made it through every storm
what is life, whats the use if youre killing time
im so glad i found an angel
someone
who was there when all my hopes fell
i wanna fly, looking in your eyes

bcus you live and breathe
bcus you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help me
bcus you live, girl
my world has twice as many stars in the sky
bcus you live, i live

bcus you live theres a reason why
i carry on when i lose the fight
i want to give you what youve given me always.


im sorry for everything.
after all this dumb cold war
you know
deep down my heart
i still love you. <3!!

wake me up from all these...

Flashes of tha past jus kept playing. its like nothing can ever replace tha awesome memories i had. tha wacky times i had with my besties jus sitting there and chatting about this and that. jus training together made my dayy.Gurls night out and stuff. tha times i had with xx and soo much more. i came to realization that no matter HOW happy how satisfied i am with my life noww, its sooo different from the life i had in tha past. its like howw do i put it? life's much complicated and SCHOOL's way beeger noww?. bond isnt as bonded as sec sch?. i miss everyone mann.

had besties outing todayy. like FINALLY. i had alotta fun with tha gurls. all tha stuupid photos we took at subway. cookies galare and soo much more. they jus reminise tha past. gees. i jus realised HOW MUCH I MISS THOSE GURLS. everyone's leading different lives noww. no more usual canteen and after school hang outs-NYDC. sobs. boyy!. that place brings back a hell lotta amazing memories. heyy asha.. do come backk as soon as possible yea?YEW are gonna owee me a bday date k. hehs. luurve yew DREA,ACIE and SHA.

heyy to my lovely vball mates-FAMILY TREE. yew guys have beeen truely wonderfully beautiful. thoughh 80% of the time was like used ta tease me and all. blehhs well, I"LL SEEK REVENGE k after i've taken classes on learning howta suan ppl. ahhs. (: thanks for al tha times. and heyy we'll have many more ta come yea? luuurve every single one of yew pls.

and to **. i aint gort any idea howta satisfy yew or make yew feel belonged. tha coldness between us just keeps piling. i miss those times we had. YES i do admit i've been neglecting yew a hell lot. im sorry alright. if yew think that putting this false front and a wall between us is gonna make it work out again. i dont know. it may nort. im happy yur having yur fun once again. yeaps. all i hafta say's that i MISS yew.

Once there was a man who had an orange shirt.

Once there was a girl who went out dancing in a skirt.

Once there was a park they found they fed the frantic ducks.

Once there was a couple, happy, who couldn't believe their luck.

Once they went out dancing, and a candled dinner date.

Once early in the morning she surrendered to her fate.

Once he said "I love you" and she had to love him too.

Once they had a future, happy when one and one made two.

Now they are both lonely, now they live alone.

Now he has a cold and empty (tidy) hollow home.

Now she has a fountain, tears where once there was a heart.

Now he has decided that they really have to part.

Now that he has nothing, he feels he is complete.

Now that she can't dance again, her heart weighs down her feet.

Now he thinks about her, all the memories locked away.

Now he tries so hard to forget the happy laughing days.

Is she thinking of him still?

Does she cry still, now and then?

Is she ever going to win back the man she loves again?

Is he glad it's over?

Can he get on with his life?

Is he really so very certain she would have made a useless wife?

Given all the laughter, fun and sunny times they had.

Given all the heartache, lies and times he made her mad.

Given all the tears now, the loneliness and pain.

Given all the risks, would she do it all again?

Can he really say that he won't want her back one day?

Can he really like his life now better in this way?

Can he forget her face, the mess, the giggles and the love?

Can he find someone else to love him more than she could love?

If she really loved him, he said she'd let him go.

If he understood her feelings then he would know that it's not so.

If he were less stubborn, if she could care much less.

If they had never spoken there wouldn't be this sorry mess.

But time has taken prisoners, their lives are now entwined.

But even if they never meet again, the past is not left behind.

But can she start all over?

Just forget him and move on?

But even if she can, will he be glad with what he's won?

Is that really what he wants, to never see her smiling face again?

Will it make him happy, will he live on without pain?

Will he be thinking of her, is he too proud to cry?

Will it wrench his heart in two if he sees her kiss another guy?

And can she forgive his faults, and accept him as he is.

She wants to have him back and say there's nothing to forgive.

He's told her that she's crazy, that he may never want her back.

She's told him that she loves him and though its a risk, she'll live with that.

She wants him to live with patience, to give him time to heal.

The past is not yet over and it's left a scar so real.

We don't choose who we can love, and love doesn't really die.

You can find it in your heart again, I love you, so please try...

fakes smiles,

crystal.nic