gurlfwen

that very day i met yew and we exchanged numbers.
i knew that it was tha very beginning of our beautiful friendship.
we had our laughters,our fun and our lil talks and gossips.
we met up almost practically everyday be it breaks or after sch.
i thought to myself, how blessed i was ta find another one so simlilar yet of tha same wavelength within suchha short period of time in np.
appreciated yew ta tha core, sent mms-s and wrote lil notes during lecture.
emember atrium slackers? double N? GU? PHYOE? SHUSH? TEOXU? sobs
wells. and at times when my thoughts go off-track, i do ponder and think if our friendship would turn disastrous.
guess thats what happened.
my greatest happiness had turned into one horrible yucky one.
had i know. i wldnt have told anyone about my e**can*y or my feelings and secrets.
jus when i trusted yew SO MUCH <---------------->, it backfired. yew know what happened and i shant say. but i was thinking on my long ride home tha other day, tha stuff yew told me about friendships being more impt. what bullshat. and and was liek thinking if this person means ALOT ta me, i wont kinda like go for her whatever e**can*y. like... cus i know there'll be a horrible outcome.wells, time and time again, i told myself that its alright. duuh. whyie ruin our friendship over a GUY?. yeahhs. and guess it was pweetaye much of a lie once again. what bull* about friends being more impt? sobs. if only i could read inta tha future, i wldnt have chosen ta walk this path with yew.cus it had left me sinking so bad, so bad holding on to this so special yet how unique this friendship is ta me. then again, im thankful for tha memories yew left behind.tha luurve. gees. tha kuku times we had and tha laughters we polluted tha place with.i do nort brush away or nort admit that this has been tha greatest setback of my life in year 2005. WHYIE?. ): cus i treasured yew and this friendship soo much and yet its being left hanging there jus waiting for some rubbish collector ta get rid of it. then again, i do have regrets. regrets that i had told yew certain stuff. like yew know tha lil talk at marina square. pweetaye much went against yur word again. i dont know what yur trying ta do yea. enlighten me pls hais. and and jus reminising tha good ol times we had although it was a short journey, tears me in tha heart completely and sets tears rolling down my cheek. believe it for nort, im missing yew and i know this over-emotional gurl here's succha cry baby and crying each time she yearns for someone or rather when memories jus come backk. i cant help it and it only happens when tha person means tha universe ta me.):

i know times aint tha same now yea? yur happily attached and of cos i dont blame yew for that. but what im praying for's that yew'll have an awesome ride with this guy. yeaps. and if yew really lurve him, do treasure him k. yeaps. owh silly me, yew'll.i know.(: urms for tha stupid misunderstandings and quarrels i had with YEW- take care of her well pls. but still, tha rough and vulgarities yew used on me and tha gurls are still unforgettable.like, wth? quarrel jus becus of smth lil? yew know it yurself yea. wells do think before saying k. it may be lil but it hurts way deep. yeaps. anyhows good luck.

and ta yew my gurlfwen. this's dedicated ta yew. hopefully tha memories we once had will be remembered.geees. im crying. [smacks myself real hard.i hate it when slow songs jus play] ):

wells.i know we cant hang out like before anymore cus yew've yur own commitments now. no time for me. only for two other people. so yeaps. all tha best. i dont know if its anger or sadness filled in me right now but really, this post's jus ta let go of what i've been keeping inside of me for soo longg. -no offences.

jus food for thought.
i dont know whats up with people these days. going for looks,materials and be in tha pop crowd. wells guess this's just what's happening nowadeys. yeaps. is there even true love? i wonder...

hais.
i realise that i no longer know yew gurl. tha gurl i'd seen and knew mths ago's tha totally opp from what i know and see now. crystal's way upset.really am. i feel as though life's soo fake.

I MISS YEW.)--:

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