bad day

HELLOS all!! -jumps about and gives s'pore a ll earthquake.=D

am back from tha notorious fever i had for like 5 days?! yeahhh. tell me about it. temp jus went crazily up down even left and right. it went like 38.3 and then 38.5. next day woke upp, head was really heavy and meaused again,39.3. went docs. came back took again 39.5. ohh myy next day went to 38.5 and it kinda stayed there till it went off. goodness. it wasnt fun being sick i tell yew. tha excruciating pain yew've gotta go through and what i've been putting my family through. bahhhs. thanks mummy and daddy! though daddy didnt do much but i could see that he was concerned.why? the moment my fever came up. he grabbed his pillows and blankie ta tha living room and plunged himself there sleeping there for like 5 days? ohh my pooor daddy ): im sorry. howw about mummy? hehs shes been awesome. ohh my. shes jus soo sweet and really caring so uch so it melts me whenever she does smth for me as lil as cooking porridge for me or taking days off jus ta care for me knowing my daddy cant cook for nuts. HHAHA. luurves! (:

for tha people who have been there for me through these 5 days, i have soo much ta thank yew for.(: for tha concerned and tha countless of sms-s ta show that yew care. really much much appreciated mann. -luurves all these lil smth that these ppl did did hit smth in me and seriously, jus thought,smth lil may seem lil ta yew but that smth lil may mean an entire ocean ta that somone.

hehs. whats up for xmas ppl?(:
milks?are yew gurls even still there?i hope...
all tha lil promises we had and tha talks we onced had, never forgotten. never...

LUURVES,
cwystal

BUMMING

hurhur. am like bumming with sa and ya at each-a-cup. lesson ended at like 10.40? and we're rotting like mad. REALLY mad. hurhur. my eyes are ridiculously straining ta open and my head's gonna like slamm right on tha keyboard any sooner. hurhur. sa's really nice friend lent me his pweetaye lappy ta use while he grabs his lunchoes. thanks yea!

ME:say hiee ta my bloggy gurls!!
SA:HIEE!!
YA:say hie ta yur what....? =.= HAHA as usual she gave me that "what the.." look.

hehs.cant be helpped whats. -smirks

anyhows sa's like mugging for her test. glad shes finally doing something.(: first time seeing her this serious. WOWW. suree im indeed amused gurl. heehee.

darh's gonna get her hair doneee and im likee... waiting for her so that we can hop off ta town and start her prezzie shopping and me? gonna shop for windows! =D -grins window shopping that is. haha. (okay issit me or issit the influence i get from van.sa,ya and xiu that im getting all cold with my jokes. -looks around) LOL

lallalala. tataa everyone! -starts falling aslp..

<3s,cwystal

gurlfwen

that very day i met yew and we exchanged numbers.
i knew that it was tha very beginning of our beautiful friendship.
we had our laughters,our fun and our lil talks and gossips.
we met up almost practically everyday be it breaks or after sch.
i thought to myself, how blessed i was ta find another one so simlilar yet of tha same wavelength within suchha short period of time in np.
appreciated yew ta tha core, sent mms-s and wrote lil notes during lecture.
emember atrium slackers? double N? GU? PHYOE? SHUSH? TEOXU? sobs
wells. and at times when my thoughts go off-track, i do ponder and think if our friendship would turn disastrous.
guess thats what happened.
my greatest happiness had turned into one horrible yucky one.
had i know. i wldnt have told anyone about my e**can*y or my feelings and secrets.
jus when i trusted yew SO MUCH <---------------->, it backfired. yew know what happened and i shant say. but i was thinking on my long ride home tha other day, tha stuff yew told me about friendships being more impt. what bullshat. and and was liek thinking if this person means ALOT ta me, i wont kinda like go for her whatever e**can*y. like... cus i know there'll be a horrible outcome.wells, time and time again, i told myself that its alright. duuh. whyie ruin our friendship over a GUY?. yeahhs. and guess it was pweetaye much of a lie once again. what bull* about friends being more impt? sobs. if only i could read inta tha future, i wldnt have chosen ta walk this path with yew.cus it had left me sinking so bad, so bad holding on to this so special yet how unique this friendship is ta me. then again, im thankful for tha memories yew left behind.tha luurve. gees. tha kuku times we had and tha laughters we polluted tha place with.i do nort brush away or nort admit that this has been tha greatest setback of my life in year 2005. WHYIE?. ): cus i treasured yew and this friendship soo much and yet its being left hanging there jus waiting for some rubbish collector ta get rid of it. then again, i do have regrets. regrets that i had told yew certain stuff. like yew know tha lil talk at marina square. pweetaye much went against yur word again. i dont know what yur trying ta do yea. enlighten me pls hais. and and jus reminising tha good ol times we had although it was a short journey, tears me in tha heart completely and sets tears rolling down my cheek. believe it for nort, im missing yew and i know this over-emotional gurl here's succha cry baby and crying each time she yearns for someone or rather when memories jus come backk. i cant help it and it only happens when tha person means tha universe ta me.):

i know times aint tha same now yea? yur happily attached and of cos i dont blame yew for that. but what im praying for's that yew'll have an awesome ride with this guy. yeaps. and if yew really lurve him, do treasure him k. yeaps. owh silly me, yew'll.i know.(: urms for tha stupid misunderstandings and quarrels i had with YEW- take care of her well pls. but still, tha rough and vulgarities yew used on me and tha gurls are still unforgettable.like, wth? quarrel jus becus of smth lil? yew know it yurself yea. wells do think before saying k. it may be lil but it hurts way deep. yeaps. anyhows good luck.

and ta yew my gurlfwen. this's dedicated ta yew. hopefully tha memories we once had will be remembered.geees. im crying. [smacks myself real hard.i hate it when slow songs jus play] ):

wells.i know we cant hang out like before anymore cus yew've yur own commitments now. no time for me. only for two other people. so yeaps. all tha best. i dont know if its anger or sadness filled in me right now but really, this post's jus ta let go of what i've been keeping inside of me for soo longg. -no offences.

jus food for thought.
i dont know whats up with people these days. going for looks,materials and be in tha pop crowd. wells guess this's just what's happening nowadeys. yeaps. is there even true love? i wonder...

hais.
i realise that i no longer know yew gurl. tha gurl i'd seen and knew mths ago's tha totally opp from what i know and see now. crystal's way upset.really am. i feel as though life's soo fake.

I MISS YEW.)--:

<3s,>

to yew

jus cant slpp. tossed and turned.

yew did hinted that yur drifting from me.

hais. i dont want. -shakes head bahhhs.

want yew ta stay put. yew mean a hell lot ta me. yew shld know that.

hais. before yew really get busy and down with a truckload of schedules under that tiny hands of yours, wanna cherish all tha possible time yew have for me and tha rest.

anyhows from here, jus wanna sayy if theres anything pls tell me. dont keep it inside. yeaps. it'll only make cwystal worry. miss yew thoughh. -luurves.

**:although yew've left. yew've left with beautiful memories. thanks.do keep in touch k and urms please dont be angry and upset with me for nort patching. i have my reasons and i've told yew too. doo take care of yurself over there.and i wont break my promise as i'll be there if yew need a friend. -huugs

its so hard ta say goodbye

Hard to Say Goodbye to Yesterday

How do I say goodbye to what we had?

The good times that made us laugh

Outweigh the bad.

I thought we'd get to see forever

But forever's gone away
It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday.

I don't know where this road Is going to lead

All I know is where we've been

And what we've been through.

If we get to see tomorrow

I hope it's worth all the wait

It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday.

And I'll take with me the memories

To be my sunshine after the rain

i dont know whyie's this happening.friends helpped me through this difficult period by being there for me and being total kukus making me laugh almost every second. jus feel soo light when im with them. but emotions start to sink when im all alone on my bed and memories jus start ta flood my head.i know everything's over but whyieee am i thinking about it all once again? crapp. christabel ang, wake up! bahhhs. he's leaving. ohh! riight he's leaving. maybe thats tha case whyie im having tha blues. perhaps im gonna miss him. miss his presence. though its been over since gawd knows when but those memories and yearns still linger.tha times where i jus cldnt sleep and tha time yew wanted ta return me all tha stuff i gave yew which made me cryy soo bad SO BAD i cldnt sleep and almost made my bedroom flood. hais. i know those aint tha very good memories ta remember. but i sure am gonna miss yew. yeaps. do take care.(know yur sick and tired of this but jus hear it for tha very last before yew leave) be good when ur over at NZ k? doo keep in touch k pal? yeaps. and once again. THANKS for leaving behind goood ol memories. aint gonna forget this path which i once walked with yew.luurves.

psst:no matter how crude i've been or howw bad i sound, i still wanna tel yew yew do mean something to me. be it a friend or as a sweetheart, yew'll still be remembered cus yew once made an impact in my life. aint gonna blame yew for tha past cus its alrdy tha PAST and its time ta move on... so yeaps. bon voyage yea.hope i did make an impact in yur life too yea.

that very lil gurl across tha street sees tha lil boy getting into his dad's car with luggages sheds a final tear of goodbye,
cwystal.