foc

beeen really too lazy ta move my fingers lately.
even ta log onto msn. HAH!. thats me alright. (:
just feel like being single all of tha sudden.
no lurve troubles.
no nothing.
yeps.
jus cwystal and what she luurves ta do.
let me get yew updated on what i've been doing.
foc stuff hasnt been over.
meetings on DND and perhaps tha coming hopnight.
hahs. yayy pageant for tha year 2006. (:
been ta van's on tha 2nd last day of sch hols.
just tha usual few.
wasnt as noisy like tha previous house party.
but having tha warmth of my sweetest around. was contented.
with van and andy driving us all late at night for supper in geylang.
gees it was good.
i miss yew milkies. really do. ):
wells afterwhich, my titans outing came about and then foc sentosa trips.
tha trips werent foc-ian anymore.
its soo different.
people were nort tgt, all soo apart.
sadly, there werent unity any longer. hais ):
i miss tha foc spirit we once had.
godpa went back ta canada last weekday. sure im gonna miss him. btw my godpa's a french canadian. so yeaps. he came over ta s'pore ta work on huge projs like tha fireworks display at esplanade, tha opening of esplanade, arts festival and etc. i admire him alot. tha artistic side of him jus explodes like wonders. godma's leaving soon too. BAHHHHS. noo. ):
but as many say, life still goes on. and this lil girl here's doing jus that on this very island.
adios people.

here some pictures yea. enjoy lovelies. (:

MY LIL ONES.




SENTOSA TRIPS




ACTUAL FOC CAMP -1 [max's bday]






tha memories that'll stay.


MARCHE



GODPA's last dinner.



my yummmy buncha milk products.(:



enough of my life; get out and before doing that leave me a tag. =DD,
cwystal`fondensed.

its just.
thanks drea.
helpped her realise smth.
smth which meant so much yet seen soo little in other's eyes.
like..just when needed a listening ear.
she was told that perhaps whyie she's so frustrated and upset thinking of all tha odds's because,
she actually doesnt luurve him deep enough ta luurve.
if she luurves him deep enough, wldnt she nort think of all tha odds.
as people say luurve's blind.
and whyie was she even thinking of all tha odds in tha first place.
she knows it herself.
clear and understood.
nort much needed ta say.

been restless lately.
dont know whats gotten into her.
gawd damnit. she aint emo-ing.
shes jus a lazybum eh.(:
she luurves singility and it'll last pretty long she guesses.
nort gonna make assumations but for tha time being. she wants ta lead a single life.
she doesnt see tha need of being attached.
perhaps shes turning crooked soon. HAH!
twinnie's so gonna kill her when twinnie actually reads this entry.
narhs just kidding twinnie. dont kill tha lil one. =D

luurves<3s color="#666666">AND AND AND SHE CANT SLPPP): ,
cwystal

so much.
yet so little time.
i've hurt.
nort one but two souls.
broked down.
torn apart.
just need a break.
right now.
run away.
cwystal.
runaway.



*ta yew: received yur msg just. and yeahhs do yew think its right ta come back now?. i know im still missing yew or rather tha memories. after scolding me for giving my opinion of ce*****. im sorry. but was jus stating my point of view. as an outsider. bahhs. if yur still mad at me. then i've gort nth much ta explain. bahhs hows nz btw? hope everything's good. take care pls.

how i hate ta see time fly.
looking back on tha times titans was jus a mini one.
with jus 9 gls and 1 dh.
ZHOU,VERN,RAY,JAS,JEAN,SYAZ,KID,MAX,TOMMY.
we struggled, fought through it, met up almost any other day.
being called meeting core or even we live ta meet.
if yew were ta ask me, did i ever regret being part of titans.
my answer wld be a strict NO.
cracking me up almost every minute and tha highness just never stops.
i know i'll miss every single one of yew.
i klnow i'll.
from tha hysterical times where we'd just fall right down ta tha ground laughing our arses off ta tha times we had our hard core meetings.
yew guys jus made a HUGE ENORMOUS impact in my life.
leaving amazing footsteps behind.
we gort through obstacles leaving us soo stressed and pushing us ta our very limits.
causing a few ta break. it was soo bad that if any would ta give us a push from tha back, we'd could have jus fallen.
BUT then again, theres always a but. hahs. never have i thought i'd give up on tha lil titans.
told myself, even if they didnt wanta make a single noise by tha 3rd day of camp, i'd still be there cheering everyone on.
regardless whether i'd be making a cuckoo outta myself.
i know my fellow titanians were with me.
and true enough, although afew did let me down, they did back me up and we went for it. shouting from tha top of our voices, told ourselves, even if tha lil ones dont wanna rah rahh, we WILL. we will show them how capable we are. and so we did and proved it ta them howw we clinched tha rahh rahh-est group during trial camp.
im proud of my group.
really am.(:
although daddy, yew hadnt been there for us most of tha time for whatever reason it is, jus wanna thank yew. cus at least yew did make an effort ta get back ta us and help us out for tha one last time.
fighting through that very obstacle we-titanians were facing.
yew once started it and here yew are ending it.
its sad ta see everything end so fast jus like a split second.
when we took like a month plus, an entire holiday of ours just ta create an unforgettable camp for our lil titans.
tha tears we shed cant be compared ta tha friendships we made during this camp.
from this, wanna thank ALL of yew my dearest, for yew have been my pillar of strength during this foc camp. and ta tha lil ones who managed ta like chance upon my blog, like gawd knows how, hope tha camp was enjoyable for yew.
i know yew guys didnt really enjoy though, be it what reason it is, jus hope tha camp has actually prepared yew lil ones for poly life. ta actually set an embarkment for tha start of poly life so that yew wont feel lost. come ta me if yew need help yea? i'll be most glad ta help yew out.

and ta enn.
im so sorry i cldnt attend yur 21st bday party yea. was in camp and yeps hope yur celebration was a blast. (: thanks for tha cake. ta be specially delivered ta me. like WOW. hahs. anyhows for all that has happened. do put them aside yea. start over. okay? -hooks fingers. MUCH luurves.
owhh and yur prezzie's with me. i'll pass it ta yew one of these days k. <3s

<3s,
cwystal tha fishball

foc actual camp

AN entire week or rather few weeks nort having dinner at home.
nort being able ta spend time with my family. bahhs.
am feeling tha sore now. mummy misses me. she sms-ed me ta tell me. asking me when she can at least spend time with me. be it having a meal or even walking down orchard road.
dont even have tha time ta hang out with tha milkies, my twinnie, my 'sistuhs', my besties, race buds and all.
bahhhs. HEYY PEEPS. no worries yea? i promise there'll be time for every single one of yew after foc camp. (: movies shall be movies, die-hard chats shall be die-hard chats so on and soo forth.

anyhows, will be away for another week again. FOC ACTUAL CAMP. like finally. owhh mann, tha blood and sweat everyone has put in. yayy. its time for some action mann. gonna know how my lil titans are gonna be like. hope they're gonna be nice ta me. IM HOPING. hahaha.
will miss every single one of yew as usual. do take loads of care yea?

VAN: heyy dearie, hope yew've enjoyed yurself today. tha good ol' us back once again. (:
see yew really really soon alright? -luurves.

GURLFWEN: heyy sweetheart. im sorry im nort able ta spend yur bday with yew.): will be in camp. promise i'll make it up ta yew when im back from camp yea? and in tha meantime, do have a joyous bday with that gorgeous of yurs. luurve yew! -FATHUGS.





HAHA. tha boys mimicking ____. =D i know yew know can alrdy eh? LOL




CANT yew feel tha <3?>IN THA MIDST OF PREPARATION.


our finished products-our pride.(:




MINE! myy pillow. dont snatch eh. =D


dont turn yur back on me. ever. cus i know there'll never be a day i would.


MY ever so comical pair of bro and sis. <3s.>MARCHE - [070406]

tha ever-so-SINFUL dinner. hahaha -winks at yaya and twinnie


THREE different shots in a min. HILARIOUS. =DD


MANN! this chicken's gort tough tighs eh.


AHH! dont take me. tha chicken's darn good though. =D


AND THERES MY BIRTHDAY GIRL. (: -luurves


thats about it. see yew like next sunday or so? meanwhile, take care have fun and be merry! (:

<3s,>

MEETING IN SU-titans

IN SU like again. -smacks forehead.
my new 2nd home pls. HAHA
how sadd eh? =DD

come to school very sad mehz...i come back everyday lohz...(cheehow mah BEAVER)

wahahha. anyhows, it just so happens that my group ADORES meetings huhh.
i reckon that TITANS has had tha most meetings before foc camp mann. stress eh.
tha trash talks we have and tha minor conflicts we're facing.
know they've been resolved but just really hope all these wouldnt happen once again.
i luurve my group and yeaps. hope they luurve titans too. (:

apparently soo much has been going on.
just SO much. major.
days hadnt been riight and putting that smile on this lil girl's face wasnt easy.
breaking down in front of so many.
pressured up ta tha neck.
being put in tha spot.
left speechless and sick of stuff. that was it i thought.
i wanted ta just give everything up.
seeing that i wasnt tha girl i once was.
pack my bags and leave everything behind.
BUT its just soo hurtful to.
tha loveliest i cant leave behind.
those who have showered enormously much of concern and luurve.
gawdd. I WAS CAUGHT IN THA MIDDLE. literally;emotionally;deep down.
yeps. i know some of yew are gonna come over and give me a solid hard knock on my head.
asking me ta wake up.
telling me i shoudnt be thinking about all these during this period of time.-CAMP
so cwystal's trying hard ta put all her thoughts and worries aside for tha coming camp wanting ta make sure its gonna be a helluva fun time for all my beautiful titanians as well as tha new lil titans. (:

alrighty!am gonna help myy sotongball with tha hammers now. =D
luurve all and ta that one out there, mugg hard and studies come first. yeaps.

<3s,
cwystal

foc foc foc

PROMETHANS UNITE!(:








my sweetest twinnie ever<3s!






heres my dh! HAHA.
tha ONLY pigdog that exists. cool thing huhh? (:










AHHH!! nort fishball.): my mean bros. [-evil glares at MEATBALL AND BEEFBALL!=D]
am soo gonna gobble up a bowl of meatball soup and beefball noodles eh.







I SERIOUSLY NEED A NEW BLOG.

a private one that is where no one or a single soul's able ta read it.
bahhhhs. so sick.
pieces of me jus breakin' as yew go ohh yada yada.
eff'd up. go awayy.

breakawayy,
cwystal


jus gort back from SU. hurhur. mann. been spending my days in sch, town and all over s'pore. settling my dear lil titans stuff as well as tha titanian's tee and all. stress'd from head ta toe pls. gawdd. -pulls hair. this's when conflicts start and backs turn ta backs and walk away.
jus wish thangs cld've been much simpler where commitments were theree and arguements cld have been prevented.

anyhows, cwystal designed a titanian batch. its soo ****ing cool pls. luurve it ta tha core.(:
and ta drea, imissyew eh. our shopping trips and of cus our johor trip which we've been postponing since like gawd knows when eh? =P do take care yea.

wenta sentosa ytd as a bonding trip. didnt get ta tann due ta REALLY EXTREMELY AWESOMELY beautiful weather. -mumbles. like woww? didnt drop a sinlge perspiration eh. ):
we gurls stripped ta our binikis and ta our dismay? tha sky jus decided ta cry. assswipe.

okayy wenta eat at ps LONG JOHN AGAIN. arcade AGAIN and off, i left for home.
hadnt been home early for ages or rather decades.earliset's like 11? mann i feel bad. real bad.
i will and i'll try ta be home by 11 yes mummy? know mummy would luurve ta see me home more often from tha sms-s she sent like, be home early ta i luurve yew,take care. geeees. made me feel worst pls.

tmr's family day! =D wonder whats tha programme tmr since last week was bowling day. wahahha. tha first time ever we actually played bowling as a family. laughing till our bottoms flipped and it was real fun. tha luurve.(:

<3s,>