pick me upp.

i've fallen once again.
cried my eyes till they swelled really badly and headd spinning like mad.
goshh. it was tha worst day of my life i reckon.
needed a shoulder ta cry on soooooo muchh.sumone ta hugg. hais.
slept at abt 4.30 thoughh. cried ta slpp.[its like WOWW? in my whole entire life? first time i cried till 4.30]
its jus too much for me ta take.


skipp'd lecture in tha morning. didnt have tha mood. went ta schh with swollen eyes. each time i see someone i know i'd jus start crying. -smacks crystal. this is bad. i know its gotta stopp.
my beautiful budds in schh kept reassuring me that everythang's gonna be alright but i know its gonna take lonng. i love those guys mann.i really do. thanks sweethearts.

deeeeply cut,
crystal.nic

tears

sobbing real bad right noww.
feeling myy heart sinkk each time my heart beats.
am i gonna move on?
those smiles on my face, are they for real?
deeep down inside im yearning for yew.
i admit i still do lurve yew but whyie am i behaving all differently and weird this time arnd.
i dunnoe. insecurity?toughness?bitchiness?
crapp.my eyes are swollen frm all tha crying.
gonna crash my bed now. will be in deep shit if daddy finds out im crying.-you

ps* <3 yen loads. thanks dear for trying all sorts of ways ta comfort me. ilu gurl! yeaps. my huneyypie.niteyy.

ALOHA fellow peego-ians.

wells.jus felt like blogging. so here i am. made lorryloads of goodfriends in NP. people like GU tha cow,phyoe,ron,teoxu,jamie,beaver my brother-cheehow,shush,yen my gurlfwen and many many many more.(: luurve them ta bits. they have been my reason ta survive in NP. yeaps.

had a really terrible day todayy.mugg-ed tha entire night ytd jus ta finish tha 1500 words essay agnes dieu gave. gawdd. it was terrifying jus looking at tha amt of words we had ta write. was late for schh today. reach'd schh with a totally messy hairdo,heavy eyebags and RED NOSE. can yew imagine?! someone with a really red nose walking arnd campus sneezing her head off. goshh. it was torturing.):

dear robert was soo funnny larhs when he saww me. he was like "ohh dear?! what happened ta yew? yew look terrible like some panda." like duuh. cldnt slp a wink last night. sorta cried and stuff. bahhhs. dont ask whyie cus im so nort gonna say.

wells.i dunnoe whyie im feeling tha blues and stuff right noww. wanting ta huug sumone soo badly. start tearing out of tha blue moon. tel me why this's happening?. bahhs.

-smacks crystal, tha past is tha past.
let bygones be bygones gurl.
yew know how tough it is ta move on but heyy,
try taking a step at tha time. it helps.

i hate it when i hafta lie that i've moved on.
cus in actual fact. i've nort.
tha tear drops i've wasted aint fake neither are they for show.
but heyy,give me time and i'll be able ta recver my soul.
take care my dear friend, for i give yew all tha wishes i could send.
although we aint tgt no longer, memories will always linger.
goodbye and farewell is what all i have ta say,
till we meet again, i will tryta get by day by day.

hey besties. had loads of fun with yew gurls todayy. thoughh its ben ages since we last met upp and chatted but i know that this friendship will nvr end. the way we giggled and laughed at each other jokes can never replace any other.thanks for suchha wonderful day with all tha gurl talks and gossipingg. iluuurve yew sweethearts.(: -drea and acie.


huneychocodreams,
cystal.nic

NP

GRRRRR. kenneth's LIKE glaring at tha lappy while i type THIS out? bahhhs

anyhows.had hopnight todayy. yummy (: fun pls.
my beloved spartan-ians and FOC buddies ate like loads of ice cream jus ta vote for me? sweethearts<3 larhs.

AHHHH. GU's turn ta glare now =.= -smacks
he's like soooo inta tha chicago bulls thang. gawdd. i'll prolly like charge towards him somedayy mann.

wells. back ta tha TOPIC.
went clubbing with peacock,puurple,alan,ben and and and kenneth.(: hoho. first clubbing session pls! HOHO. thought it was tha end mann when we had no choice but ta dance in indulge in techno? gosh. almost went mad. left tha place and went over ta tha next clubb.R&B. yummmmy. -LICKS. =DD

wells cheryl gort like drunk? bahhhs. bad bad. dont quite like tha idea of gurls getting drunk. hehs. kindaa nort very nice right? teeheees(:

OHHOHHH! guess where crystal's at noww eh? schooool!!! heeeees.lols. trying ta keeep myself awake.gu and neth's like entertaining me with their uhhhhhhs crappy stuff. yeahh. grrrr there goes gu again. disturbing meeee. BAHHHS.

anyhows.. had loads of fun todayy. xinyi my gurl-o fwen WON ms ngee ann pls. luurve yew babe!(:

gonna have breaaaakfast noww at kap. yayy!

<333,
crystal.nicolette