candy trails and choco dreams.

wellwell.
been ages i know.
decided ta have a quick one before im off writing myy script for tmr's speech.
anyhows. had high tea with bro and his gurl at marriot todayy. bet yew! it was totally gorgeous yummylicious. with butter pudding and all. what else can i ask for? (:

we took a walk ta wheelock with gigs all ovet town. ohh myy. hahs. took a look at tha crumpler lappy bags. kor wanted ta buy me one for my bday. howw nice. (: but too badd. tha colour i want is like out of stock. crapp.): anyhows dragged our tired feet to paragon. that was where i gort my topshop tee. HAHA. luurve my huniest bro ta bits. he gort me this striped puurple and orange top that i wanted. thanks yea?

anyhows. that was all. bro drove his gurl home. and i slept during tha whole hour journey but it wasnt as sweet as what yew think. yeaps. loads of thoughts jus swept through my mindd. i wanna bring back tha past.

yen: heyy babe. yeaps. i MISS yew a hell load know. yeaps. thats whyie i tagged yur blogg ta tell yew howw much yur being miss'd. hmmms.just wanna tel yew. this friendship will nort be one unless both make an effort ta keep it going yea? luurve luurve.<3>

ange: heyy darhlingg.thanks for everythingg. i dont know what more can i ask for. mann! yur like tha lil joker book in my life. ever ready ta explode me with jokes just ta crank me up. (: with yur ever soo bubbly and gregarious character. who wldnt be more glad ta just having to be with yew?. thanks for tha sweetest concerns and the lil naggings every older "sis" wld give. luurve luurve <3>

milkfactory products.: heyy gurls. thanks for bringing laughter into my life every single day yea. even on msn, it just seems that yew guys are just right here with me. HAHA. apart from tha suanning part! asswipe. i'll poke yew till yew get holes all over. -growls. hahaha. anyhows. yew've been simply awesome. ta ppl like van,ping,pweetaye coconut,siew,cyn,acie etc etc. LUURVE YEW EH. (: see yew at tha court! luurve.

tha lil boy across tha street:urms.theres so much ta sayy yets i dont know how i should go about it. anyhows take care.(:

Sorry I never told you

All I wanted to say

And now it's too late to hold you

'Cause you've flown away

So far away

Never had I imagined

Living without your smile

Feeling and knowing you hear me

It keeps me alive

Alive

And I know you're shining down on me

Like so many friends we've lost along the way

And I know eventually we'll be together

One sweet day

Darling, I never showed you

Assumed you'd always be there I took your presence for granted
');

But I've always cared

And I miss the love we shared

And I know you're shining down on me

Like so many friends we've lost along the way A

nd I know eventually we'll be together

One sweet day

Although the sun will never shine the same I

'll always look to a brighter day Lord

I know when I lay me down to sleep

You will always listen as I pray

And I know you're shining down on me

Like so many friends we've lost along the way

And I know eventually we'll be together

One sweet day

And I know you're shining down on me

Like so many friends we've lost along the way

And I know eventually we'll be together

One sweet day

Sorry I never told you

All I wanted to say

greatest hope was when i met yew,

cwystal.

where have yew been

i wanna know where have yew been.
i wanna share all tha times i had with yew.
take away tha cold war and make me feel tha warmth again.
where have all tha lurve gone.
where.
tha daily miss-s are just enough to fill an entire bucket.
where are yew luurve.

When the road gets dark
And you can no longer see
Just let my love throw a spark
And have a little faith in me
And when the tears you cry
Are all you can believe
Just give these loving arms a try
And have a little faith in me

When your secret heart
Cannot speak so easily
Come here darlin'
From a whisper start
To have a little faith in me
And when your back's against the wall
Just turn around and you will see
I will catch, I will catch your fall baby
Just have a little faith in me

where have yew beeen. missing yew. that empty heart of mine.

*and heyy gurlfwen, ignore what those dumbarses have tagged on yur board yea? cwystal's always there for yew when yew need ta pour things out. luurve.

splashes or strawberry kisses,
cwystal.

NAT.

its alright, i survived, im alive again
cus of you, made it through every storm
what is life, whats the use if youre killing time
im so glad i found an angel
someone
who was there when all my hopes fell
i wanna fly, looking in your eyes

bcus you live and breathe
bcus you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help me
bcus you live, girl
my world has twice as many stars in the sky
bcus you live, i live

bcus you live theres a reason why
i carry on when i lose the fight
i want to give you what youve given me always.


im sorry for everything.
after all this dumb cold war
you know
deep down my heart
i still love you. <3!!

wake me up from all these...

Flashes of tha past jus kept playing. its like nothing can ever replace tha awesome memories i had. tha wacky times i had with my besties jus sitting there and chatting about this and that. jus training together made my dayy.Gurls night out and stuff. tha times i had with xx and soo much more. i came to realization that no matter HOW happy how satisfied i am with my life noww, its sooo different from the life i had in tha past. its like howw do i put it? life's much complicated and SCHOOL's way beeger noww?. bond isnt as bonded as sec sch?. i miss everyone mann.

had besties outing todayy. like FINALLY. i had alotta fun with tha gurls. all tha stuupid photos we took at subway. cookies galare and soo much more. they jus reminise tha past. gees. i jus realised HOW MUCH I MISS THOSE GURLS. everyone's leading different lives noww. no more usual canteen and after school hang outs-NYDC. sobs. boyy!. that place brings back a hell lotta amazing memories. heyy asha.. do come backk as soon as possible yea?YEW are gonna owee me a bday date k. hehs. luurve yew DREA,ACIE and SHA.

heyy to my lovely vball mates-FAMILY TREE. yew guys have beeen truely wonderfully beautiful. thoughh 80% of the time was like used ta tease me and all. blehhs well, I"LL SEEK REVENGE k after i've taken classes on learning howta suan ppl. ahhs. (: thanks for al tha times. and heyy we'll have many more ta come yea? luuurve every single one of yew pls.

and to **. i aint gort any idea howta satisfy yew or make yew feel belonged. tha coldness between us just keeps piling. i miss those times we had. YES i do admit i've been neglecting yew a hell lot. im sorry alright. if yew think that putting this false front and a wall between us is gonna make it work out again. i dont know. it may nort. im happy yur having yur fun once again. yeaps. all i hafta say's that i MISS yew.

Once there was a man who had an orange shirt.

Once there was a girl who went out dancing in a skirt.

Once there was a park they found they fed the frantic ducks.

Once there was a couple, happy, who couldn't believe their luck.

Once they went out dancing, and a candled dinner date.

Once early in the morning she surrendered to her fate.

Once he said "I love you" and she had to love him too.

Once they had a future, happy when one and one made two.

Now they are both lonely, now they live alone.

Now he has a cold and empty (tidy) hollow home.

Now she has a fountain, tears where once there was a heart.

Now he has decided that they really have to part.

Now that he has nothing, he feels he is complete.

Now that she can't dance again, her heart weighs down her feet.

Now he thinks about her, all the memories locked away.

Now he tries so hard to forget the happy laughing days.

Is she thinking of him still?

Does she cry still, now and then?

Is she ever going to win back the man she loves again?

Is he glad it's over?

Can he get on with his life?

Is he really so very certain she would have made a useless wife?

Given all the laughter, fun and sunny times they had.

Given all the heartache, lies and times he made her mad.

Given all the tears now, the loneliness and pain.

Given all the risks, would she do it all again?

Can he really say that he won't want her back one day?

Can he really like his life now better in this way?

Can he forget her face, the mess, the giggles and the love?

Can he find someone else to love him more than she could love?

If she really loved him, he said she'd let him go.

If he understood her feelings then he would know that it's not so.

If he were less stubborn, if she could care much less.

If they had never spoken there wouldn't be this sorry mess.

But time has taken prisoners, their lives are now entwined.

But even if they never meet again, the past is not left behind.

But can she start all over?

Just forget him and move on?

But even if she can, will he be glad with what he's won?

Is that really what he wants, to never see her smiling face again?

Will it make him happy, will he live on without pain?

Will he be thinking of her, is he too proud to cry?

Will it wrench his heart in two if he sees her kiss another guy?

And can she forgive his faults, and accept him as he is.

She wants to have him back and say there's nothing to forgive.

He's told her that she's crazy, that he may never want her back.

She's told him that she loves him and though its a risk, she'll live with that.

She wants him to live with patience, to give him time to heal.

The past is not yet over and it's left a scar so real.

We don't choose who we can love, and love doesn't really die.

You can find it in your heart again, I love you, so please try...

fakes smiles,

crystal.nic

i'd walk a dozen miles...

these days were terrific. sun tanning,volleying, stay overs and stuff. yeaps. sometimes i do ponder upon how friendships started.
i've made realy wonderful budds.
a new found darhling ERN ERN.
and tha happy family tree. hahs.
these people really made my day though i was like tortured A HELL LOT by them. especially, farkang, ern and ping. gawdd.
they just find it soo entataining jus by tickling me.
FUN MEHS?
-glares.
goshh.
went gotham penthouse tha day before. and it was GAWDAMN crowded pls.
we waited and waited jus ta get inside and by tha time we were in, mood was no longer there anymore. geees.
=.= lil ern was like feeling pweetaye high before even reaching tha club but once we were like caught in the crowd.
POOOF! she woke up. wahaha. hilarious larhs.
shes uber cute i mus warn yew guys pls. (:

met dear JULS and cherm while i was at gotham. ahhs. and some stupid arse was like trying ta sell fake tix. police were called down and yeahs as usual... ALL the underaged ones panick'ed and started leaving tha area. lols. like wth. spoilt everyone's moood pls.

went for supper after that. laughed a hell lot with these people. (: had teochew porridge which never tasted sooo good before. hahs. thus, left for ping's house. played dai dee with fakang,ern and ping for like hours till ern started snoozing off leaving tha 3 of us stranded with tha deck of cards. played and PLAYED till i gort drowsy and ping started tickling me ta tha core. gosh. i almost woke tha whole house up with just me screams alone. HEEHEE. apologies!

yeahh. off ta sleep we went! woke upp late thoughh tha next day. heehee. was like supposed ta meet tha gang at harbourfront at 11. andy gort duped by us and ended up at sunset bay to volley with us. had loads of fun. gort tanned. yummy colour eh. (:

i lurve my life thoughh its been pweetaye bad in someways. lost sumone. nort as in REALLY lost but. aiyahh. he knows it. yeaps. hope things will get better yea? -huugs. hais.

and to my BELOVED FAMILY.
granddaddy,
my 2 susu(s)-uncles,
my daddy-andy,
my BROS-fakang,ed
my SISTUHS-ping,van,xiu
my GURLFWEN-yen,
my DARHLING-angie.

yeappps. yew guys rawk myy lil universe yea. THOUGHHH i still dont agree of me coming from india. HMPHF! -pouts.and that 'uncle' from thai.yew owe me a thai trip pls. wahhaa. =DD

luuurve yew people,
crystal.nic.

NAT.

my name is ______. [ fill in the blank ] and my girlfriend name is __________. [ you dont have to know ]

i just want to say.

mind your own business. okay, now bang your head against the wall and say im a dumb ass.

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if you are swearing and cursing at me, please dont. im just a lil boy. hahaha.

BYE!