______the rays bore into my skin`

______the rays bore into my skin`

jus dont know howta face obstacles anymore. i've became more introvate and nort very much tha cheerful self any longer. its funny how stress and pressure can bring one down. tha stress in me's soo intense i can jus break down and cry, drea knows it cus i've been spending these few days with her at bbqs and bday parties. realised im soo not ready for a relatonship once again. its cute ta know that drea and i share tha same philosophies and all. like, reasons of whyie we wanna stay singlehood and all. i suppose its because we jus dont wanna nglect each other when we et attached or rather get all tied down with our 'boyfriends' and prolly lose tha freedom we have now. in short, we're very much enjoying ourselves. We both believe that friendships aint supposed ta stress one out. although its about sharing one's probs and go through all obstacles tgt but then again. aint it more about having fun tgt? (: like... aint yur friends tha ones whom yew have REAL helluva fun with they go through shit with yew and make yew feel as though yur tha best joke book around?

expectations do cause unexpected consequences to become expected. wells after graduating from sec sch, drea and i came ta a conclusion that its not all about hanging out practically everyday that holds a friendship but its more of tha belonging and presence of another in the heart. it may seem as though we are having fun in two sepearate worlds but then again come ta think of it, our worlds are ONE. she often rant about me infront of her cj friends and tha same applies ta me. its like, although we may not meet often but we do speak about each other tha memorable times we share to other peeps. its like when we ever get ta meet up, we treasure each and every one of it by laughing it off with tha hysterical stuff we did in our own lives and reminisce tha past rather than always bringing up unhappy matters and get upset over silly and minor stuff. perhaps thats our good point. not making small matters big. we do have our own conflicts and jealousy but then again, she understands me deep down. like when she knows im nort happy about her certain doings. i'd prolly nort talk ta her and give her that -whatever- face and she'll soon realise and know what ta do. but then again its more of tha its yur life so yew can do what yew wanna do kinda thing[yur 17alrdy HELLO?] yeahhs. thanks drea! for tolerating all my -throw ups and pukes of unsatisfaction and unhappiness these few days. i was jus clueless and jus didnt know what ta do. i kow i've toned down quite abit and changed in a way that i no longer know howta speak up and fend for myself. hais. when i stood back ta take a clearer view, we've been through alot and i lurve god for giving me such wonderful bestie and friends. for tha friends i have now and tha friends i once had. ALL are equally amazing. these are tha many i wish ta thank for making my life oh-so-complete. MUCH luuurves!


[aint according ta rank]

ijbt.timah gurls
binny
scully
isabel
joanna goh
regina
xinyi
bambi
sophia
diana
rodelle
marianne
andrea loh
fionne
pandora
annie
le min
joy
charlene
ann gomaz and lim
lianne
so many more...


softballers.
->drea
grace
asha
dionne
sharania
umi
ainni
jesslin
pauline
meiyee
thali
paula
wan ting
agnes
carmen
sok wai
maddy
hui shi
coaches
wormie
mr koh

sec sch friends.
-> louis
timo
stef
joanna
lynette
meixi
vien
xiwen
jasmine
qingxiang
corinne
wanny
alvin
ms dancia tan
etc

NP
enn
yen
sasa
yaya
van
xiu
xuan
ching guan
edmund
sean
fukang
andy
jass
gu
phyoe
shush
teoxu
ben
zhou
alvin
shamm
shyam
cheehow
kristen
cheryl
purple
peacock
debbie
jiun
max
chris
zhihao
ethan
fiona
hongwee
rex
steph
huimin
shiyun
wawa
etc...

outside friends
zephan
abel
lindey
jack
gabey
glamis
hoe ann
jesslin
wen ling
wai aung
hazel
daniel-justin
siwei
jere
david
irvin
aloy
alex
zhiyi
natasha
mavis
aston
matilda
jason
jun jie
nathanael

MI friends
derek
juls
sawah
steph
cherm
regi
nadia
liyana
ash
MUCH MUCH more.<3s.

RACE
sy
jemie
abbe
eugene
luke
stewart
lichong
shannon
jones
danny
chuan lei
fushun
dennis
charmaine
libing
hafiz
ali
gerard
zac
ah niq
waheeda
gerri
MANY MANY MUCH more.

last of all.-drum rolls my beloved and most funkalicious FAMILY. (:

<3s,
cwystal