i have completely no idea...

tha beginning of '06 hadnt been quite a blast after all.
much happened and i dont feel like saying. dont try asking cus yew know i wont tell.
anyhows. life seems alil different now. tha spirit of tha milk products aint as enthu as before. tha wantingness ta goo havoc and jus have fun together seemed to have disappeared. perhaps its tha amount of work thats buried us or simply tha lost of passion in this lil clique? i feel that it shldnt be about forcing yurself ta be with one another but more about wanting ta be there and jus purely thinking about tha fun tha clique has together makes one smile.(: so yeaps, dont force yurself yew dont want to yea. hahs. kinda kuku right this line. anyways. ta simplyfy it, i MISS yew gurls. wheres all tha simple cold jokes and pure happiness and no dislike-ness gone to? cwystal's putting it all away. guess its time for everyone to eh? -winks.

this clique of mine started out real strong. tha times we had were no doubt filled with smiles and laughters. even if it takes one ta tease me or suan me real bad, i'd jus smile and play along when i know i cant take it longer. whyies that so? cus i jus felt that if i were to lose my temper and pull a long face, i may jus spoil tha mood of nort jus one but all. i do treasure all 9 of my milk ones with all my heart but then again, have our internal conflicts been jus too much ta take?
didnt we say its about forgiving and letting it all go when tha new year arrives.

PERSONAL THOUGHTS.
say that i heck care or cant be too bothered with things or even get over things fast, i wont stop yew. but i myself too have my beliefs, frankly, yes i do get things over fast but nort that fast deep down. its jus like, i feel that being upset or irritated by one thing for a looong period of time aint gonna work. as though it'll change everything. yes for those close to my heart, i did take a pweetaye loong recovery time ta forget my ex but heyy!. did i pull a loong face in front of yew guys? did i like use yew guys as my punching bag?yew guys are jus soo dear that i cant bear to larhs eh? hahs all i told mself was that i'd get over soon and although tears were wasted and i thought i was pweetaye dumb, i still manged ta smile it off and joke around. hehs FRIENDS have played a major part of my life. and will always be playing that very important role. i do admit im one happy-go-lucky kinda person and luurve ta laugh alot.

i feel that having happiness makes tha world goes round and being jus soo ohh-serious and ohh-this cant be done that cant be done kinda person, whyie nort jus let loose for one instant? let yurself be like a 3 year old kidd once more? we may have grown up but that doesnt permit us from being lil kiddos once again yea? (: i miss tha good ol days where i had completely no worries. hahs. impossible it ta happen now i know. my purpose for blogging this right now's that jus wanna say ta all who have been upset these days or rather depressed. pls SMILE? it aint tha end ta everything yea.

come on... friendships can be mended. relationships can be patched. hearts can be plastered. what else? its way possible. and yeaps thanks ta all whos been showering lurve unto cwystal all these while and of cus for being suchha sweetheart bearing all my rants. HAHA. thanks babes! (: luurve everysingle one of yew. and i do miss yew milkies as well as chris,ethan,hongwee,max,zhihao,jiun,fiona...rem that very night we went mad in tha hotel room after dnd? yeahhs.(: fun lovelies! [ayes dont think otherwise ppl. we didnt nothing naughty] HAHA.


luurves <3 ALL and ALLL,
cwystal