EMO TIME

time ta get emo i guess. read a couple or rather plenty of blogs and something just caught me right there.
its funny how friends actually come and go.
how friends were once buddies, people whom yew whine to, people yew share yur woes to and yet few years later,
we walk down tha streets, heads start turning opposite direction from tha other pretending that tha other party's non-existing.
fake smiles, ugly stares, bad thoughts all just come at one go.
people, duncha just hate that?
like, wldnt it be nice if friends could be kept as friends and smiles just remain genuine.
truthfully,
I HATE YEW, YEW and YEW.
for tha stupid comments yew make.
fake narcisstic smiles yew crack.
fu*king sickening yet childish stuff yew tell on others. hah. shant elaborate on it mann, it'll take forever and perhaps i wldnt wanta shame yew further.(:
shittified actions and ugly stares yew give thinking that people do not know.
LASTLY, wherever yew hang yur ugly lingerie, please take them along with yew cus no one's gonna be so kind enough ta take them in for YEW silly.

yeps.

just thought of what i had done during my first two years in poly.
gees, im old.
foc brought fame and widen'd my social circle by like 10x.
it wasnt difficult at tha very beginning.
but it caught me right at tha neck as i went through it.
yes i admit, suitors, many suitors so what?
i've learnt my lesson dude. suitors=trouble.
friends seperated.
quarrells, headaches, HEARTaches, hatred formed.
people backstabbing, people gossiping. gosh, PEOPLE who read my blog or rather somehow got ta know my password w/o getting through me, yeahs perhaps its yew. there're many reasons whyie im staying away from F_ _.

sheesh. guess im just worried how life's gonna be like when close ones start graduating from poly.
i get jealous when i see close knitted groupies laughing their asses off and sharing both sorrow and joy together in poly. yes. i once had mine and now its gone.
everyone seemed ta have gone seperate ways. foc, sports camp, volley and many others.
i'd love ta have them all back once again and hold them tight in my arms, but i guess its just time ta let go.
ta let go of tha beautiful memories once shared upon.
and perhaps start new ones.
im not saying im not enjoying my life with my new inclusion now but its just that tha envy i have in other cca groups just make me ponder.
ponder whyie didnt i join some other cca where i could fit in better.
maybe like canoe? if only i knew howta swim.

school's at 11 tmr. shall tugg in now before i start my nonsensical stuff again.
let bygones be bygones crystal.