damn

be it sensivity or not.
i dont give a damn.
hadnt been in high spirits.
could jus stare into blank space for serious minutes without blinking an eye.
could i have been too paranoid?
or have i jus overlooked thangs.
thangs. thangs precious ta me have changed so greatly.
perhaps it jus me. aint blaming yew.
yew think i jus luurve emo-ing?
luurve creating scenes and all for no reason.
bahhhs.
my heart's sore-ing thats all.
no fucking beeegy.
its jus. i feel out. if yew do know. nort saying i shld be in.
but yew know, i know yew wldnt understand cus all of yew are in.
and it hurts real bad. perhaps thats tha reason whyie im taking a step back.
giving up on a sport i was seriously enthu in.
it was yew guys that made me fall for this sport even deeper.
told myself nort to and of cus yew ppl nort to few mths back.
cus no way am i gonna give up on this friendship.
my smiles aint longer smiles.
im so nort gonna go. i dont wanna.
or maybe thats it. aint being over sensitive or whats.
jus a thought and how im feeling. from all that i've been through or rather seen for tha past few days.

*true friends. who are they. if someone comes up ta yew one day and asked ta be yur friend. would yew take her hand, look into her eyes and say yes. or jus give a strict ans and continue with what yur doing. jus sincerity.

and should work/responsibilites spoil friendship? here cwystal is crossing her fingers that it'll never happen cus i know in a long term. tha ties we have would be strained due ta certain circumstances. i miss yew. really do. yew see this?---><3>

<3s,
cwystal [deep sleep's good cus yew'll never hafta wake up]
i wish for a private blog with no one reading.
it'll be up soon. so people. dont read and get offended yea.
cus im jus seeking for comfort and my blog happens ta be one victim.
ciaos.